Dear Self

What if you don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last day on this earth?
What if that two minute conversation you had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time you ever spoke to her?
What if you never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile or talk to him ever again?
What if you later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would you be proud of the life you have lived?
Will you regret something that you did or did not say?
Would you be proud of how people would remember you?
Would you regret not taking more chances, or not telling him what you really feel for him?


I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My heart racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
My final breath..