Cutting myself off from God..

Job was a righteous man of God, but had the things he valued taken away from him. He would pray and cry out to God but would receive no answer until later on. Just because you don't feel God doesn't mean he is there, and we shouldn't always depend on something tangible like what we can understand with our senses.

God wants us to love and obey him with and without the "feeling" of his presence. I would recommend you read the Book of Job and learn about how during Jobs trials he didn't hear the word from God till almost the very end of the book.

Stay prayed up and righteous, trust me God is still there, he may be putting you through a trial so that you learn how to depend on him and in that become stronger in your faith. My prayers will go out to you.

I don't know where you live in the US besides under a rock (I read ur profile) but there is this amazing Christian camp called Lift Camp and it is LIFE CHANGING. I had never felt as close to God as I did that week in June. All you need to do is find a church that goes to it and go with them. It's for 7th to 12th grade. Other ways to find God are praying, just talking to Him, reading the Bible, going to church, and finding a study group. I think study groups are one of the most helpful things because you can talk to other people. Just hang in there and I will pray for you!

First thing you need to know is that God loves you very much. He has not left you. When you suffer, He is exactly where He was when Jesus was on the cross... Right by his childs side. Don't lose your sight on him because he will be there no matter what

you are not alone para-scene, i was there once, i could never cut myself off from god, but i didn't need to...it happened gradually over a long period of time, i never expected that i would become an atheist, never in a million years, but i don't know if maybe a different path may work for you than the one i took, what exactly did you relapse in? have you tried getting human help and counseling? maybe you just need someone to talk to, if you want to you can talk to me or someone else on the site who you trust

dont give up! you MUST stay strong, and keep believeing in him. he is there, and he loves and cares about you. you must always remember this. remember christ, and what he did for us. god knows that you long to meet him, and it might be that he is testing you, and your faith in him. keep praying and hoping. im sure that your prayers will awnsered eventually. remember, the farther works in mysterious ways.