I have a big problem. I just need some good enough answers or information on how I cope with this.

I'm sorry for what you're going through; I'm still trying to get through depression as well. It's okay to cry; it's actually good for you. And nothing's wrong with listening to a sad song, but you don't want it to make you sad all the time. Try listening to other songs; happy songs too. Write down how you feel in a journal. Write down/ think about things that make you happy and smile. Look at old pictures that make you happy. Think about all the fun things you will do/ can do in the future. And always know there is hope. No suffering lasts forever. I don't know if it is God or Satan you hear, but your family members aren't going to die if you listen to a song. God wants you to be happy, but He's not going to punish you if you're not. Above all, just pray and spend time with God. And know He's got you in His arms, protecting and loving you.

I agree with what para-scence said. However, I don't think it's God that is saying those things to you. God wouldn't do that. He's not a God that enjoys inflicting pain, even though He does allow bad things to happen in our lives to bring us closer to Him.

Crying is essential in life. It's actually very healthy. Humans need to cry in order to let out built-up emotions, because it's not good to keep emotions bottled up inside.

Did you know that everyone goes through a thing called spiritual warfare? Spiritual warfare occurs when one is trying to decide right from wrong and what to believe and what not to believe. It's a tug-of-war kind of situation, where God is trying to lead you one way, and Satan is trying to lead you another way.

Now, that being said, I want you to think about this. In one way or another, Satan tries to lead you down the wrong path. He fills your heart with doubt. He tries to corrupt your mind with fear in order to turn you away from God. If he sees even a little bit of doubt in your heart, he'll try to grab onto that and use it to his advantage to lead you astray.

Satan does this because he knows that if he can make you doubtful or scared, he can control you and lead you away from God. Don't let him do that. This fear may be Satan's way of manipulating you. Don't give him that kind of power. Read the Bible. Put on the Armor of God and fight Satan off.

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This is all a part of spiritual warfare. Everyone has gone through it, and I have, too. Remember that you're not alone. God is looking out for you. He's not going to kill a family member of yours just because you want to listen to a sad song. That's Satan trying to fill your heart with paranoia, in the hopes that you'll lose faith in God. God loves you. He sent his Son to die for you. The punishment he suffered on the cross was the penalty for YOUR sins.

He loves you SO much. Don't let your fear blind you from that. Here's a video that explains what Satan tries to do in spiritual warfare. Read the link that I gave to you up above, and if you have any more questions, feel free to ask me. (= I've been taught in the ways of the Bible since I was little. I know a lot.

God bless!

i have a voice in my head too. it tells me that i'm never good enough for anything. thats when i tell i to shut up. you need to cry to release a poison within your body. don't listen to that voice. crying or listening to a sad song will not make you lose a family member.

I am sorry to hear that thingsare so rough. I understand a bit about depression myself. I don't ever force myself to cry- no. I just don't cry a lot. Maybe it is good that you want to cry, get it out, but I would let it happen naturally, maybe as you talk about it or pour your heart out to God or a friend. Dealing with our feelings are esstential. Hearing voices isn't good. Although, I do believe God can & does speak to people both audibly & inwardly - but what He says woudl never ever be out of character. One thing about God, He IS consistent. His character does not waiver either.

I don't know why you would hear that a family mem would die if you listen to a sad song, but that is very disconcerting. Please don't kill anyone. Even that fear isn't good. Plus if something like that happened outside of your actions or your control, then there is nothing you can do one way or the other- it is their time and a listening to a song or not will not alter that. Please seek professional help if you need it and find someone who can help you safely release your tears... I have trusted God for a long time for that when I had no one else I could go to or trust. I may have let myself down, or people let me down, but He never has. :)