ok... some of the content in this fanfiction, might rattle some very senstive nerves for some, and i sencerily apologise for that.. please. im sorry.
She moved. She played. She is mine. She isnt here yet, but will be soon and will be all mine. I feel her smile, and dreams and laugh. My daughter. How long how i wanted her.
time after time she escaped me, leaving broken. But she forms again. As though she still wants me. Perhaps she isn't escaping but kidnapped instead.
This time, im ready, and shes staying protected and staying with me.
Two days to the date, in which i will see the face of her.
Im all ready and fit to go, her room is perfect, keeps everything she will ever need. And i will love her, on my own.
I will be the only one of a time being to love her. I'm alone, but she will take away the lonelness.
she moves again. she plays everyday, not one day goes by that she doesnt remind me of her, but how could i forget anyway. I fear she will be a engertic figeter, she just moves everyday, every hour, she makes me laugh.
I dont know what to name her yet. How can you name face that you haven't yet seen. She must suit it. But i still have my favourites of course.
i dont know how i manged to fall asleep with her soccer games all night, but i did.
however she had caused me to feel really sick when i woke. A rare occaision for me. Morning sickness wasn't too harsh to me ever before..
I felt heat rising from my chest, creating my breath uneven to pants.
I've never felt like this before, panic was shaking in my body. Relax . relax. everythings ok.
I felt her kick hurt me. Then more sickness come from the tip of my throat and out. Gross.
i waited for her to reply. I waited. she diddnt answer.
i need help. i try to stable my weak legs, only to feel a massive pull within my adomin. The pants grew more and more voilent.
i saw it rush out of me. no. no. please.
i tried to walk to the phone, i need help.
"911 emergancy, whats your emergancy?"
"Please... i ..i need help... its.. its.. my baby. baby." was i all i was able to break throught the pants.
"We will be there soon. just sit down and breathe"
its wasnt long till they came to rescue me.
By then the blood was all over me. i rocking back and forth, holding onto to her.
They carried me to the hospital.
She moved. She played. She is mine. She isnt here yet, but will be soon and will be all mine. I feel her smile, and dreams and laugh. My daughter. How long how i wanted her.
time after time she escaped me, leaving broken. But she forms again. As though she still wants me. Perhaps she isn't escaping but kidnapped instead.
This time, im ready, and shes staying protected and staying with me.
Two days to the date, in which i will see the face of her.
Im all ready and fit to go, her room is perfect, keeps everything she will ever need. And i will love her, on my own.
I will be the only one of a time being to love her. I'm alone, but she will take away the lonelness.
she moves again. she plays everyday, not one day goes by that she doesnt remind me of her, but how could i forget anyway. I fear she will be a engertic figeter, she just moves everyday, every hour, she makes me laugh.
I dont know what to name her yet. How can you name face that you haven't yet seen. She must suit it. But i still have my favourites of course.
i dont know how i manged to fall asleep with her soccer games all night, but i did.
however she had caused me to feel really sick when i woke. A rare occaision for me. Morning sickness wasn't too harsh to me ever before..
I felt heat rising from my chest, creating my breath uneven to pants.
I've never felt like this before, panic was shaking in my body. Relax . relax. everythings ok.
I felt her kick hurt me. Then more sickness come from the tip of my throat and out. Gross.
i waited for her to reply. I waited. she diddnt answer.
i need help. i try to stable my weak legs, only to feel a massive pull within my adomin. The pants grew more and more voilent.
i saw it rush out of me. no. no. please.
i tried to walk to the phone, i need help.
"911 emergancy, whats your emergancy?"
"Please... i ..i need help... its.. its.. my baby. baby." was i all i was able to break throught the pants.
"We will be there soon. just sit down and breathe"
its wasnt long till they came to rescue me.
By then the blood was all over me. i rocking back and forth, holding onto to her.
They carried me to the hospital.
such a waste, my life whole life is a fake!...but im sure ive been a thorn inside of you...that's torn at you for years. but, sometimes i can taste how bitter i've become...& its more then i can bare. sometimes i pray for someone to blow me away. just make it quick, but let it burn...so i can feel the pain thats torn at me for years. i can't be held responsable, 'cause this is all so new to me. can i...leave my pain behind?
the sercomstances of one's birth are irrelavent. its what you DO with the gift of life, that determends who you are. the pain you feel...its normal. let it go.
you think?
yes. you need to forgive and forget.
i can't...
you can.
but i can't just do nothing...
it's not nothing!
i cant just...forget.
it's hard to forgive, and its hard to forget, but it's easy to do nothing...
you're right...
the sercomstances of one's birth are irrelavent. its what you DO with the gift of life, that determends who you are. the pain you feel...its normal. let it go.
you think?
yes. you need to forgive and forget.
i can't...
you can.
but i can't just do nothing...
it's not nothing!
i cant just...forget.
it's hard to forgive, and its hard to forget, but it's easy to do nothing...
you're right...
I do not own this. I did not write it, and I do not know the author. I just really like this and wanted to share it.
Who will you be
when faced with the end;
the end of a kingdom,
the end of good men.
Will you run?
Will you hide?
Or will you hunt down evil
with a venomous pride?
Rise to the ashes,
rise to the winter sky,
rise to the calling,
make heard the battle cry.
Let it scream from the mountains
From the forest to the chapel.
Because death is a hungry mouth
and you are the apple.
So who will you be
when faced with the end?
When the vultures are circling
and the shadows descend.
Will you cower,
or will you fight?
Is your heart made of glass?
Or a pure snow white?
Who will you be
when faced with the end;
the end of a kingdom,
the end of good men.
Will you run?
Will you hide?
Or will you hunt down evil
with a venomous pride?
Rise to the ashes,
rise to the winter sky,
rise to the calling,
make heard the battle cry.
Let it scream from the mountains
From the forest to the chapel.
Because death is a hungry mouth
and you are the apple.
So who will you be
when faced with the end?
When the vultures are circling
and the shadows descend.
Will you cower,
or will you fight?
Is your heart made of glass?
Or a pure snow white?
tell me why i miss you
why did i have feelings for you?
i wish i could answer these questions on my own,
but i cant.
honestly, they only thing that i want right now is you.
i dont know why i still miss you,
i dont understand why i really want another chance
what i really dont get is why you wont let me show you that ive changed
back then i didnt know any better
after going on intercession, ive grown alot
in all honesty, yesterday really made me think about things
it opened my eyes, and changed the way i felt.
i didn't really know you,
i wanted to get away,
now, i realize i was wrong, and im sorry.
i hate that we dont talk anymore
i wish we still do.
i hope you read this,
and forgive me, so we can start over again.
Hi, my name is Hikaru.
What's yours :)
why did i have feelings for you?
i wish i could answer these questions on my own,
but i cant.
honestly, they only thing that i want right now is you.
i dont know why i still miss you,
i dont understand why i really want another chance
what i really dont get is why you wont let me show you that ive changed
back then i didnt know any better
after going on intercession, ive grown alot
in all honesty, yesterday really made me think about things
it opened my eyes, and changed the way i felt.
i didn't really know you,
i wanted to get away,
now, i realize i was wrong, and im sorry.
i hate that we dont talk anymore
i wish we still do.
i hope you read this,
and forgive me, so we can start over again.
Hi, my name is Hikaru.
What's yours :)