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Something was missing. Something big, like my heart! I couldn't find it. I got up from my own screams. I couldn't breathe. He wasn't there to hold me in his cold hands. He wasn't there anymore. I doubted if he would ever come back. I was thinking of everything I could do to get to him. Tears came down of my face and dropped on my pillow as I tried to stand up and go to the bathroom. Charlie was already downstairs so I hurried and made him breakfast. I didn't eat anything like the past 6 months and I could say that he was mad.
"Bella, I'm gonna send you home! That's it!"
I burst into tears as he said the words.
"But... You can't do this! You just can't..."
Subs didn't let me talk. Charlie was red and he was looking straight into my eyes.
"Bella, Renee can take good care of you! Honestly, everyday of this 6 months you're mopping around, doing everything but in face doing NOTHING!"
"He's gone! I know you liked him very much but isn't this too much?!"
I screamed:
"No... for your information DAD, it's NOT!"
I took my backpack and got out of the house. It was raining already. When I saw the clouds, I suddenly smiled. He liked the weather like this... I guess!
"Hey, Bella!"
Mike and Jessica called my name when I was getting out of my car.
"Did you study Math?! We have an exam!"
I nodded without thinking to math. We gave the test and then it was time for biology class. His seat was empty.
After school, I went shopping for a pair of jeans. His favorite color was blue, so I wanted a pair of blue jeans.
I was on my way to home when I saw Cullen's house road. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know if I would die there when I see their rooms empty. with no COLD ONES!
I turned around and decided to go home. I wanted to be strong. But... who was there for me to make me be strong for him?! As I went in my room I recognized something under the carpet of my room. I went closer and got the papers out from there. The title was:
"Last part of me"
Something was missing. Something big, like my heart! I couldn't find it. I got up from my own screams. I couldn't breathe. He wasn't there to hold me in his cold hands. He wasn't there anymore. I doubted if he would ever come back. I was thinking of everything I could do to get to him. Tears came down of my face and dropped on my pillow as I tried to stand up and go to the bathroom. Charlie was already downstairs so I hurried and made him breakfast. I didn't eat anything like the past 6 months and I could say that he was mad.
"Bella, I'm gonna send you home! That's it!"
I burst into tears as he said the words.
"But... You can't do this! You just can't..."
Subs didn't let me talk. Charlie was red and he was looking straight into my eyes.
"Bella, Renee can take good care of you! Honestly, everyday of this 6 months you're mopping around, doing everything but in face doing NOTHING!"
"He's gone! I know you liked him very much but isn't this too much?!"
I screamed:
"No... for your information DAD, it's NOT!"
I took my backpack and got out of the house. It was raining already. When I saw the clouds, I suddenly smiled. He liked the weather like this... I guess!
"Hey, Bella!"
Mike and Jessica called my name when I was getting out of my car.
"Did you study Math?! We have an exam!"
I nodded without thinking to math. We gave the test and then it was time for biology class. His seat was empty.
After school, I went shopping for a pair of jeans. His favorite color was blue, so I wanted a pair of blue jeans.
I was on my way to home when I saw Cullen's house road. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know if I would die there when I see their rooms empty. with no COLD ONES!
I turned around and decided to go home. I wanted to be strong. But... who was there for me to make me be strong for him?! As I went in my room I recognized something under the carpet of my room. I went closer and got the papers out from there. The title was:
"Last part of me"
I felt them start to build up
As soon as I saw him
I put on a happy face for my mom
Because she doesn’t know
That he broke my heart
She didn’t know that I balled my eyes out
She hasn’t realized that I’ve withdrawn
He says he wants us to be friends
I could barely hold them back
He asked if I understood
And I do
But that doesn’t stop the pain and anger
I blink back the tears
And realize that I was starting to put a shield up
My shield of anger
I feel the tears
As I pray
That God will help me this time
So I don’t isolate myself again
And don’t lose myself
Tears……
They come and I can’t stop them
I hate them
They are a weakness
and I can’t stop them
As soon as I saw him
I put on a happy face for my mom
Because she doesn’t know
That he broke my heart
She didn’t know that I balled my eyes out
She hasn’t realized that I’ve withdrawn
He says he wants us to be friends
I could barely hold them back
He asked if I understood
And I do
But that doesn’t stop the pain and anger
I blink back the tears
And realize that I was starting to put a shield up
My shield of anger
I feel the tears
As I pray
That God will help me this time
So I don’t isolate myself again
And don’t lose myself
Tears……
They come and I can’t stop them
I hate them
They are a weakness
and I can’t stop them
No sun--no moon!
No morn--no noon!
No dawn--no dusk--no proper time of day--
No sky--no earthly view--
No distance looking blue--
No road--no street--
No "t'other side the way"--
No end to any Row--
No indications where the Crescents go--
No top to any steeple--
No recognitions of familiar people--
No courtesies for showing 'em--
No knowing 'em!
No mail--no post--
No news from any foreign coast--
No park--no ring--no afternoon gentility--
No company--no nobility--
No warmth, no cheerfulness, no healthful ease,
No comfortable feel in any member--
No shade, no shine, no butterflies, no bees,
No fruits, no flowers, no leaves, no birds,
November!
No morn--no noon!
No dawn--no dusk--no proper time of day--
No sky--no earthly view--
No distance looking blue--
No road--no street--
No "t'other side the way"--
No end to any Row--
No indications where the Crescents go--
No top to any steeple--
No recognitions of familiar people--
No courtesies for showing 'em--
No knowing 'em!
No mail--no post--
No news from any foreign coast--
No park--no ring--no afternoon gentility--
No company--no nobility--
No warmth, no cheerfulness, no healthful ease,
No comfortable feel in any member--
No shade, no shine, no butterflies, no bees,
No fruits, no flowers, no leaves, no birds,
November!
When You Have To Choose Between 2 Possibilities:
1.Take your time.The most important thing is not to make a decision in a hurry.
2.Make a list of the positive and negative points for both opinions.Then decide which points are most important and compare the two lists.
3.If you ask other people for their advice,don't ask more than 1 or 2.If you ask a lot of people,this will probably confuse you.
4.Use your imagination to help you.Imagine yourself in both situations.How do you feel?Relaxed or stressed?
5.When you've made a decision,wait a bit before you tell other people,to see how you feel.If you feel comfortable with your decision after an hour,you have probably made the right decision.
6.Finally,remember that you can't have everything.Choosing one of two possibilities always means that you can't have the one you didn't choose.And it's impossible to always make the right decision!
1.Take your time.The most important thing is not to make a decision in a hurry.
2.Make a list of the positive and negative points for both opinions.Then decide which points are most important and compare the two lists.
3.If you ask other people for their advice,don't ask more than 1 or 2.If you ask a lot of people,this will probably confuse you.
4.Use your imagination to help you.Imagine yourself in both situations.How do you feel?Relaxed or stressed?
5.When you've made a decision,wait a bit before you tell other people,to see how you feel.If you feel comfortable with your decision after an hour,you have probably made the right decision.
6.Finally,remember that you can't have everything.Choosing one of two possibilities always means that you can't have the one you didn't choose.And it's impossible to always make the right decision!
