Okay guys, so I had a great idea, I'm still gonna continue writing this story, but I always seem to never be able to make up my mind on whats going to happen..
So, what I want to do, is ask you guys, I posted a question under "Picks" about who is behind Bella.
You guys are going to help me continue my story, and have some imput in how the story works, I'm really excited for this and think its gonna be fun!
If you're just reading anything from me for the first time, I would suggest going back to read all three chapters and then going under picks and selecting an option...
I think i'm gonna resort to this often, let you guys help me write the story, after all I'm writing it for you guys to..
My story is also posted on fanfiction.net under the same screen name.
and for those of you who have been reading all along, I am reposting chapter three below so you don't have to search for it, just read and vote!
Thanks!
xoxo
Stephanie <3
So, I had a really hard time writing this chapter, I know it's not that good, which is due to the fact that I didn't want to write it. I hit backspace way too many times. I guess I didn't want this to happen to Edward and Bella, its like when I was reading New Moon, I didn't want to keep reading, cause it made it more true.
So after an hour and a half, this is what I came up with...
Silence has never hurt me so much. Neither one of them said anything. I could imagine Alice was doing all the talking, explaining, trying to make Edward understand, to see the futures that laid out before all of us. He tightened his grip on the wheel and kept driving towards the school.
“Stop the car.” I said so suddenly, even surprising myself. I can't be here. I can't do this right now.
“Bella..” Edward started, looking at me in the mirror.
“Stop the car!” I almost screamed at him, surprising myself again. I couldn't see anything now, tears overflowing. Since when did I cry so easily.
Edward pulled the car over to the side and as soon as we came to a stop my hand was on the door handle, and next thing I know, I'm outside of the car. I turned back the way we came and started walking. It started raining, and didn't take long to downpour.
“Bella!” Edward called after me, and I could hear him approaching quickly behind me. The car drove off, he must have given the keys to Alice.
“Bella, stop, please” He said as he reached out and grabbed my wrist, spinning me around. I now stood facing him. He reached up and took my face in his hand, looking directly in my eyes. Searching, for something, probably Bella. Truth is, I don't know where she is. Five months ago Bella was here. Bella was welcoming to his touch, his comfort. I couldn't find that anywhere. Just a lot of pain. I brought his face into focus and grabbed at his hands, knowing I couldn't physically pull him away, but I knew he would get the point. He dropped his hands, but kept his eyes fixated on mine.
“Bella, please say something. I can't read your thoughts, tell me whats happening.” He said as his strong composure started coming apart. He took my left hand in both of his. I could feel him shaking all over.
“I don't know. I don't know” I mumbled to myself, shaking my head. I glanced up and looked him in the eyes. “ I don't know” I said with more force, directed at him
Seeing Edward falling apart like this broke my heart even more. I'm supposed to be the weak one, I've already proved this on many occasions.
“I don't want you to be sad, I don't want you to hurt like this.” He said, giving my hand a light squeeze. “What can I do?” He asked sounding if he was ready to do just about anything I would ask of him. And I knew he would do anything for me, which makes this harder and easier for me at the same time.
“Edward...I'm hurting you, I'm hurting your family..” I whispered in between sobs.
“Bella..” He interrupted. Now taking my other hand in his.
“Don't interrupt” I stopped him, trying to clear my head, trying to figure out what I needed to say. I realized that I wasn't doing this for me. No. This was going to tear me apart. Practically kill me. I loved him more than anything, and I needed to stop being selfish, stop thinking about what I want. Realizing the amount of pain I was putting Edward and his family in everyday. All because I loved him. Love hurts. I know this now. I looked up at his face, into his black eyes. He should be with someone that he can give himself to, be himself around, completely and honestly. Not someone he has to tiptoe around, not someone that puts his entire family in danger. Realizing what I needed to do, I swallowed hard, and pulled my hands out of his quite easily, he wouldn't hold me against my wishes anyway.
“I need to leave.” I said, so sure of myself, or at least trying to appear that way. He fixed his glance to the left of my head now, not looking at me in the eye anymore. He didn't move or breath. I watched for the slightest movement. Nothing. I pulled my wet hair off my face, remembering we were standing outside in the pouring rain. I looked at him, waiting for him to say something.
“okay” He said quietly, fixing his eyes on mine again. I felt my heart sink, I could feel myself start to fall apart. I didn't want to do that, not here, not in front of him.
I swallowed again. “okay” I whispered. I took in his eyes, his face, him. I picked up my backpack, which was soaked all the way through and started to turn around. He reached for my hand, pulling me back towards him. He took my hand in his and pulled it up to his face and kissed the inside of my wrist, leaving a cool shock.
“I can't” I said frantically, my eyes searching his, back and forth, pulling my hand back. “I'm so sorry” I whispered. I turned around again and he didn't reach out for me this time. I started walking away slowly. “What have I done?” I thought to myself. I needed to do this. I need space, to think. Was I trying to convince myself? I picked up the pace a bit, walking faster in the pouring rain, splashing water around me. I could feel his eyes still on me, not wanting to look back. That would break my heart even more. I needed to be far away, I can't hurt him. I felt so angry, but not at Edward, never at Edward. I was mad at myself. “What am I doing” I said out loud. I stopped when I realized I walked past the house. I turned around and walked back down the street. I walked up to the door before I realized I didn't want to be here. I didn't want to sit in my room, the same room that Edward would come and hold me every night as I fell asleep. I started walking around the house, across the yard, toward the opening in the woods.
It wasn't raining as much in the woods, the trees protected me from the rain. I didn't realize how cold it had gotten until I noticed the goose bumps tickle on my arms. I wrapped my arms around myself, still crying and kept walking until my legs and feet grew tired. I spotted a rock and wiped it off before I sat down. I hugged my knees close to my body.
“I can't say here. Where can I go? Renee is traveling with Phil. Would Charlie even let me leave? He wouldn't understand. Would Renee understand?” not that I would tell her why I really needed to leave.
I sat there for what seemed like hours, just listening to the rain and the birds. My stomach growled, which made me realize it was almost noon. I got up and wiped the seat of my jeans off and started heading towards the house when I heard someone approach me from behind.
So, what I want to do, is ask you guys, I posted a question under "Picks" about who is behind Bella.
You guys are going to help me continue my story, and have some imput in how the story works, I'm really excited for this and think its gonna be fun!
If you're just reading anything from me for the first time, I would suggest going back to read all three chapters and then going under picks and selecting an option...
I think i'm gonna resort to this often, let you guys help me write the story, after all I'm writing it for you guys to..
My story is also posted on fanfiction.net under the same screen name.
and for those of you who have been reading all along, I am reposting chapter three below so you don't have to search for it, just read and vote!
Thanks!
xoxo
Stephanie <3
So, I had a really hard time writing this chapter, I know it's not that good, which is due to the fact that I didn't want to write it. I hit backspace way too many times. I guess I didn't want this to happen to Edward and Bella, its like when I was reading New Moon, I didn't want to keep reading, cause it made it more true.
So after an hour and a half, this is what I came up with...
Silence has never hurt me so much. Neither one of them said anything. I could imagine Alice was doing all the talking, explaining, trying to make Edward understand, to see the futures that laid out before all of us. He tightened his grip on the wheel and kept driving towards the school.
“Stop the car.” I said so suddenly, even surprising myself. I can't be here. I can't do this right now.
“Bella..” Edward started, looking at me in the mirror.
“Stop the car!” I almost screamed at him, surprising myself again. I couldn't see anything now, tears overflowing. Since when did I cry so easily.
Edward pulled the car over to the side and as soon as we came to a stop my hand was on the door handle, and next thing I know, I'm outside of the car. I turned back the way we came and started walking. It started raining, and didn't take long to downpour.
“Bella!” Edward called after me, and I could hear him approaching quickly behind me. The car drove off, he must have given the keys to Alice.
“Bella, stop, please” He said as he reached out and grabbed my wrist, spinning me around. I now stood facing him. He reached up and took my face in his hand, looking directly in my eyes. Searching, for something, probably Bella. Truth is, I don't know where she is. Five months ago Bella was here. Bella was welcoming to his touch, his comfort. I couldn't find that anywhere. Just a lot of pain. I brought his face into focus and grabbed at his hands, knowing I couldn't physically pull him away, but I knew he would get the point. He dropped his hands, but kept his eyes fixated on mine.
“Bella, please say something. I can't read your thoughts, tell me whats happening.” He said as his strong composure started coming apart. He took my left hand in both of his. I could feel him shaking all over.
“I don't know. I don't know” I mumbled to myself, shaking my head. I glanced up and looked him in the eyes. “ I don't know” I said with more force, directed at him
Seeing Edward falling apart like this broke my heart even more. I'm supposed to be the weak one, I've already proved this on many occasions.
“I don't want you to be sad, I don't want you to hurt like this.” He said, giving my hand a light squeeze. “What can I do?” He asked sounding if he was ready to do just about anything I would ask of him. And I knew he would do anything for me, which makes this harder and easier for me at the same time.
“Edward...I'm hurting you, I'm hurting your family..” I whispered in between sobs.
“Bella..” He interrupted. Now taking my other hand in his.
“Don't interrupt” I stopped him, trying to clear my head, trying to figure out what I needed to say. I realized that I wasn't doing this for me. No. This was going to tear me apart. Practically kill me. I loved him more than anything, and I needed to stop being selfish, stop thinking about what I want. Realizing the amount of pain I was putting Edward and his family in everyday. All because I loved him. Love hurts. I know this now. I looked up at his face, into his black eyes. He should be with someone that he can give himself to, be himself around, completely and honestly. Not someone he has to tiptoe around, not someone that puts his entire family in danger. Realizing what I needed to do, I swallowed hard, and pulled my hands out of his quite easily, he wouldn't hold me against my wishes anyway.
“I need to leave.” I said, so sure of myself, or at least trying to appear that way. He fixed his glance to the left of my head now, not looking at me in the eye anymore. He didn't move or breath. I watched for the slightest movement. Nothing. I pulled my wet hair off my face, remembering we were standing outside in the pouring rain. I looked at him, waiting for him to say something.
“okay” He said quietly, fixing his eyes on mine again. I felt my heart sink, I could feel myself start to fall apart. I didn't want to do that, not here, not in front of him.
I swallowed again. “okay” I whispered. I took in his eyes, his face, him. I picked up my backpack, which was soaked all the way through and started to turn around. He reached for my hand, pulling me back towards him. He took my hand in his and pulled it up to his face and kissed the inside of my wrist, leaving a cool shock.
“I can't” I said frantically, my eyes searching his, back and forth, pulling my hand back. “I'm so sorry” I whispered. I turned around again and he didn't reach out for me this time. I started walking away slowly. “What have I done?” I thought to myself. I needed to do this. I need space, to think. Was I trying to convince myself? I picked up the pace a bit, walking faster in the pouring rain, splashing water around me. I could feel his eyes still on me, not wanting to look back. That would break my heart even more. I needed to be far away, I can't hurt him. I felt so angry, but not at Edward, never at Edward. I was mad at myself. “What am I doing” I said out loud. I stopped when I realized I walked past the house. I turned around and walked back down the street. I walked up to the door before I realized I didn't want to be here. I didn't want to sit in my room, the same room that Edward would come and hold me every night as I fell asleep. I started walking around the house, across the yard, toward the opening in the woods.
It wasn't raining as much in the woods, the trees protected me from the rain. I didn't realize how cold it had gotten until I noticed the goose bumps tickle on my arms. I wrapped my arms around myself, still crying and kept walking until my legs and feet grew tired. I spotted a rock and wiped it off before I sat down. I hugged my knees close to my body.
“I can't say here. Where can I go? Renee is traveling with Phil. Would Charlie even let me leave? He wouldn't understand. Would Renee understand?” not that I would tell her why I really needed to leave.
I sat there for what seemed like hours, just listening to the rain and the birds. My stomach growled, which made me realize it was almost noon. I got up and wiped the seat of my jeans off and started heading towards the house when I heard someone approach me from behind.
ok so here are a few rumors i heard over the course of the months after Eclipse came out,about Breaking Dawn.
the first rumor is that Breaking Dawn will be rated R. ok people i can officially confirm that this is not true.Breaking Dawn will be rated PG-13.
the second rumor is that Zac Efron will be starring in Breaking Dawn. absolutely not, Zac Efron is sticking to his High School Musical stuff. good boy.
third rumor, is that Justin Bieber is going to be in the film for thirty seconds...nice try people.you must be thinking of men in black where M.J was on screen for 30 seconds.
finally,that Bella is getting replaced. ok girls, as MUCH as we wish this rumor was true...it's not.i know i know. we would ALL love for kristen stewart to get replaced.sorry, maybe next time.
the first rumor is that Breaking Dawn will be rated R. ok people i can officially confirm that this is not true.Breaking Dawn will be rated PG-13.
the second rumor is that Zac Efron will be starring in Breaking Dawn. absolutely not, Zac Efron is sticking to his High School Musical stuff. good boy.
third rumor, is that Justin Bieber is going to be in the film for thirty seconds...nice try people.you must be thinking of men in black where M.J was on screen for 30 seconds.
finally,that Bella is getting replaced. ok girls, as MUCH as we wish this rumor was true...it's not.i know i know. we would ALL love for kristen stewart to get replaced.sorry, maybe next time.
Muse won an American Music Award as the best alternative rock artist. You can see their video from the Eclipse soundtrack of Neutron Star Collision here. Unfortunately the Eclipse soundtrack did not win. It was beaten out of an award by the Glee soundtrack.
Opinion:
I've read that alot of people loved the Eclispe soundtrack...to be honest I dont even remember any of the songs on it! Now the Twilight soundtrack and the New Moon soundtrack I know by heart....I feel quilty that I dont feel the same about the Eclipse sountrack...but congrats to Muse!
