About a week or so after our first night on the island, my precious Bella started torturing me. As I guessed, it was Alice’s plan. She started wearing very beautiful underwear for sleep. It was just a torture for me, when she entered the room in something new and sexier then the last one. I have no idea how I kept my poker face in that moments. And her hair was always wet after a shower, and it was bringing her sweet scent, making my mind blurry.
That day we returned to the house earlier and after having a dinner, Bella went to take a shower. Every night was a struggle for me now, when I was holding her in my arms and feeling that burning desire deep in my chest. We were sleeping in a blue bedroom now, because on feathers in a white room. I was lying on the bed, waiting for Bella to come in after she finished a shower. She was hesitant and I heard her gasps and accelerated heartbeat, as she opened the door and came into the room. I have no idea about how my face looked in that moment. She was more necked wearing that black underwear, than she would be without clothes at all. I made a great effort not to jump to her and cover her lips with mine, taking off that black thing off her. After a moment I had my poker face back.
“What do you think?” she asked, pirouetting so that I could see every angle.
I cleared my throat. “You look beautiful. You always do.”
“Thanks,” She said with a disappointment in her voice. She climbed quickly into the soft bed, lying next to me, covering my body with a halo of her sweet scent and warms. I put my arms around her and pulled her closer against my chest. My thoughts were still a mess. I refused to look at her – I had to keep calm and her disappearing bruises were helping me with that.
“I’ll make you a deal,” she said sleepily.
“I will not make any deals with you,” I answered. She was always making my efforts more complicated.
“You haven’t even heard what I’m offering.”
“It doesn’t matter.” I had to refuse before she started speaking farther. She sighed.
“Dang it. And I really wanted… Oh well.”
I rolled my eyes. Of course, she was playing with me, but I wasn’t going to give up tat quickly. She was pretending sleeping. I knew that because of her fast heartbeat. She was silent for a minute, but I couldn’t stand that she didn’t tell me. I gave up after few moments. I had to know.
“All right. What is it you want?”
“Well, I was thinking… I know that the whole Dartmouth thing was just supposed to be
a cover story, but honestly, one semester of college probably wouldn’t kill me,
Charlie would get a thrill out of Dartmouth stories, I bet. Sure, it might be
embarrassing if I can’t keep up with all the brainiacs. Still… eighteen, nineteen. It’s
really not such a big difference. It’s not like I’m going to get crow’s feet in the next
I was staring at the beautiful bed frame, while she was talking, avoiding to look at her. And it helped a lot. That was something different from everything we were talking before, but still her words puzzled me. That was what I wanted for her:
“You would wait. You would stay human.”
I glanced at her and was hit by her image, taking my mind away. So hot…Abruptly I was angry:
“Why are you doing this to me?” I said through the teeth “Isn’t it hard enough without all of this?” She was wearing this and telling me those things only for her purpose. She wanted me, but I wasn’t going to respond. I grabbed some lace on her hip, ready to tear it, but then I relaxed my hand. Calm. You’re calm.
“It doesn’t matter. I won’t make any deals with you.”
“I want to go to college.”
“No, you don’t. And there is nothing that is worth risking your life again. That’s worth hurting you.” I was sure that she understood what I was talking about.
“But I do want to go. Well, it’s not college as much as it’s that I want—I want to be human a little while longer.”
I closed my eyes. My God, I love you so much, Bella, but sometimes I’m completely lost in your wishes and logic. Or maybe there’s no logic. “You are making me insane, Bella. Haven’t we had this argument a million times, you always begging to be a vampire without delay?”
“Yes, but… well, I have a reason to be human that I didn’t have before.”
“Guess,” She said, and I reached my lips with hers. I kissed her back. Her warm soft lips were driving me crazy. The more I tried to distract her – more she tried to pull me back. I ended the kiss and gently pulled Bella away after a moment and cradled her warm body against my cold chest.
“You are so human, Bella. Ruled by your hormones.” I chuckled. I wasn’t angry any more.
“That’s the whole point, Edward. I like this part of being human. I don’t want to give it up yet. I don’t want to wait through years of being a blood-crazed newborn for some part of of this to come back to me.”
She yawned that made me smile. Her body was helping me.
“You’re tired. Sleep, love.”