My Dad walked in the room and sat on the corner of the bed. He let out a sigh...I knew where this was going.
"Sweetie, why do you keep doing this. This is the second time you've been in the hospital for trying to kill yourself." I looked at him. Did he just really say this out loud.
"Well, it's quicker than pills" I said back, my head bowed down.He grabbed my face and stroked my hair.
"Tell me why you keep doing this Ladybug." He pleaded.
"Everything is always my fault.Mom's dead because of me. We had to move because of me." I started to sob quietly to myself. My dad pulled me in a hug.
"Your mom's death was not your fault, a drunk driver hit her car and that's what killed her and we moved because I got a better job and I could see how everything around you was causing you pain because it reminded you of her because I was going through the same thing." He said to me and I held him closer.
They released me from the hospital a couple of days ago. I would have got out earlier if it wasn't for me "suicide" attempt. I was getting ready to go to the store one Saturday when Kim and Nessie showed up, who were my best friends.
"Hey Lanise!" They both said and hugged me. We went to go sit on the couch.
"How have you been?" They asked me.
"I've been good, I was about to go to the store.Why?" I asked them. They looked shocked.
"What??We can't ask you a question??"Nessie said sounding to sound surprised. I gave her a look that told her I wasn't buying it.
"You guys, cut the crap! Just tell me what you came here to tell me." I basically demanded them to do. They looked at each other.
"It's Seth." She paused and waited for my reaction.I trend to hide the brightness in my eyes.She continued" We're worried about him. He won't eat or sleep. They only thing we get a reaction out of is when we mention your name. You need to talk to him. I think He's losing it." I sighed. Why were they telling me this, to torture me??
"He has a girlfriend remember?" I told them and they rolled their eyes. Nessie looked at me and I could tell she was pissed.
"Lanise, what the hell is your problem!?"She shouted at me"Why are you torturing him like this??You and I both know you still love him. We see how it makes you whenever he is around. You want to take him back but can't,you're scared, he's scared. Just talk to him before he kills himself over you." I sighed she was right why am I torturing the boy I love...Why am I torturing Me? I got up and walked to his house.
When I got there, his sister Leah, answered the door.She pulled me into a hug.
"Thank god you're here. I was worried sick about him, we just got him to take a nap. He'is in his room" She said and released me from his hug. I walked back to his door. I hesisated before opening it. I gasped at what I saw. He looked like he was about to die. He was skinner and had bags under his eyes. I felt the tears starting to come. I went and sat on the edge of his bed and held his hand in mine. I started to recite 'Forever my love will be' By Anthony Lane Ferguson.
" When troubles bring you down
and you don't know what to do,
just look inside your heart
and you'll know that I love you.

Every one has a destiny to find,
looking in your eyes I have found mine.
You're all I ever wanted,
you're all I'll ever need.

I will be yours always,
you will have my love for eternity." I felt a hand on my cheeks, who wiped the tears away. I looked at him.
" It's okay don't cry Sunshine" he said to me. I smiled and wrapped my hands around his waist."Promise that you'll never hurt yourself" He asked me.
"I promise." I said and kissed him with so much passion that if the world would come to an end right now, I wouldn't care because I was with the one I love.