Chapter 13

E|POV

She was standing there. Shivering in the night. She was nothing like the girl i knew- her dress ripped, her hair pulled out and chaotic. Blood pouring from what appeared to be a bust lip. It was 1am. What the hell was she doing here “can i come in” she whispered – tremors of shivers running through her body. I didn’t even know if i could speak- looking at her- hurting was physically torturing me. I stepped aside letting her walk in. I closed the door behind her. She jumped slightly at the noise it made. She looked a million years from the girl i saw at the party- she looked weak, vulnerable. “Are you alright?” i whispered. She covered her face from me. So i couldn’t see the extent of the damage, she rubbed her arms to get warm. I wanted to wrap my arms around her. Keep her warm myself. I realised that was inappropriate. The feelings she had for me where no longer there. “Just cold” she said- her teeth chattering a little. I left her for a minute and got a blanket. “Take a seat” i motioned towards to couch. The fire was on. I was seriously worried about her now- she’d been wandering the streets in only her dress. She sat down putting her legs out so they could be warmed by the fire. I dropped the blanket around her and went to sit in the armchair on the opposite side of the room. I stared into the fire for a while thinking of the impossibility. She was here and i had to look after her. But she didn’t want me- the time apart had been healing for her- she’d gotten over me. Maybe it wasn’t healing since she was now a literal train wreck. I would never get over her- looking at her i knew i would love her until the day i die- but if she was happy- i could go on doing that. “What time did you leave” she whispered in a hoarse voice – rescuing me from my reverie. “10ish” i replied. It all flooded back to me then. She wouldn’t know what time i had left. She’d left with Tyler. It hurt to say it but i wanted answers- even if those answers would torture me ““i saw you leave with Tyler” i said and looked down cutting off my view to her face. There was silence for a minute until she said “why do you care”. I looked up in anger- how she dare say that! I loved her more than anything else in the world. She was everything to me- my every thought. But what i saw broke me down. Made me see not red. But made me want to protect her again. Her hands where in her face her body shaking like she was crying. Sobbing actually. Bruises colouring her arms. I got off the chair and sat on my knees in front of her. I pulled her hands from her face and held them in mine. I looked as deep into her beautiful brown eyes as i could manage- trying to drill it into her. “I love you” i said. My voice thick. She held my hands tighter- a pained expression covering her face. Her eye caught my attention. It was bruised. I knew instantly who’d done it – i remembered all the times she’d come back from his place- her lip bust on, bruises on her arms. I rubbed her eye with my thumb. It was swollen. I could feel her wincing underneath my finger tips. This was too much to handle- how could anyone hurt something so lovely, so precious. I felt some relief though- she was here with me, i would never let him touch her again. I felt sick as i imagined him harming her. I couldn’t help the broken cry of pain that exited from my mouth “what has he done to you” i whispered- running my hands over her face. I examined her gently. Running my hands over her shoulders and her arms. She winced a little when i touched bruises. It made me wince to- just to see her in pain for a fraction of a second. I swore to myself in that moment. I would never let anyone hurt her again. I wouldn’t let Jacob black touch her. I would keep her safe- i wouldn’t let anyone injure her in any way. She was too good. Too precious to deserve that. I looked up at her- her head hanging in shame. ”you know how i feel about you.” I whispered and dropped my hands to rest on her knees. “Never let anyone treat you like that Bella. Ever! I won’t watch anyone hurt you i can’t”. I put my face in my hands- the images of him harming her filling my mind. I felt her fingers wrap around my wrist. And pull one arm free of my face. She ran her soft fingers over the scars from when i was hurting myself i couldn’t even think of a way to explain it to her- she would think i was insane – she would leave here. Never wanting to come back. She brushed her finger tips over my wrists softly tracing the indentations in my skin “what are these” she whispered. Her eyes worried. Confused. I looked down ashamed. I should be able to hold myself together- that’s what she needed right now. Not someone who is an emotional wreck. I couldn’t tell her the truth it would scare her. It would hurt her. “Accident” i managed to choke out. She began to sob when i said this realising im sure – what i had done. She grabbed my face in between her hands. Her eyes tortured. I felt so guilty. She shouldn’t hurt because of me. I loved her more than that. She looked deep into my eyes. Her brown eyes smouldering. “You can tell me” she whispered tenderly, she had the most trustful expression on her face ever. I knew i could tell her, but it would hurt her. I chose to be honest with her- it was a matter of time before she found out anyway. “I found out you loved me too. All this time” i reconsidered that a little – considering she’d just slept with Tyler “or you did at least”. I hung my head in shame. I expected her to be horrified; i couldn’t look her in the eyes. She must have truly believed i was insane now- to think i would go to such extremes. “Oh Edward” she wailed, heartbroken. She wrapped her arms around me. I stood up – pulling her with me as she sobbed into my chest. I wrapped one arm around her back to comfort her- and one hand on the back of her head. As if to keep her there. She wrapped her arms around me too- sobbing into my shirt. “Im so sorry” she whimpered. I knew right now i needed to comfort her- i had caused this. “Shh its ok, I’m here” i chanted holding her tight in my arms. And pressed my lips to her hair. I knew i was probably taking advantage of the situation much more than i should. But this may be my only chance- it had always been my dream to hold her in my arms this way. To show her affection. She rubbed my back as i did – it felt so different to all the other times I’d embraced her. All the times i embraced Tanya- and all my other girlfriends. It felt like he was made to be in my arms. I got the hand that was resting on her hair and placed it against her check stroking her cheekbones until i found the point of her chin. I pulled her face up to look at me. I knew there would be no contracts tonight. No decisions made. Even if i spent only one night with her- i wanted her to know how i felt. I looked into her eyes for along moment looking for inspiration. “You’re the most important thing to me” i whispered. Tightening my arms around her “you always have, and you always will be” she looked at me for a second then determination clouded her features. She reached behind my head and knotted her fingers into my hair. And stood on her tip toes and pressed her lips against mine. My mind didn’t process what was going on at first my thoughts only warped around how amazing her lips felt against mine – so soft, unyielding. Tender. I broke away- this was wrong. She wasn’t in a good state of mind i didn’t want to be just another make out session for her. “What are you doing?” i whispered. Her eyes melted into mine. She looked upset. Yet determined. Her eyes intense “i love you Edward” she whispered passionately. I grabbed her face and kissed her. I loved her- more than anyone else in the world. How could i deny myself happiness for any longer? I pulled her closer to me – shaping myself around her body. I’d wanted to kiss her since i was about 10 years old. I couldn’t believe how lucky i was. I traced her features as i kissed her- running my fingertips over her beauty- just marvelling. She sighed contently as our lips parted and my breathing quickened and dropped my hands to the bottom of her back rubbing her spine comfortingly. She rushed her hands through my hair – moulding herself too me. She was all i wanted- all i concentrating on. She was struggling to reach my lips – so i grabbed her in my arms and lifted her up; she wrapped her legs around my waist. My lips left hers and i explored her, cheek, her jawline- her neck. Brushing my lips across her skin as gently as possible. I knew where this was headed it wasn’t a complete mystery. Keeping my arms tight around her body i starting going upstairs towards my room. She grabbed my face in her hands. And pulled my lips back to hers. Her breathing was getting heavy as she kissed me. We were in my room now i gently put her on my desk chair and unfasten her stronghold around my neck. “I want to show you something” i whispered. Knowing what that would be. I’d broken a picture of us. Months ago – i remembered that it had hurt her when she saw it. So i fixed it. It had been a way for me over these past seven weeks to remember the good times I’d had with her. I handed her it- tears welled in her eyes. She looked up at me peacefully “thank you” she whispered. I sat down on the bed and held my arms out for her to climb on my lap. “I love you” i whispered. And she wrapped her arms around my neck. I pulled her down on the pillows. And we took our relationship to the next level

I woke up in the early hours. I couldn’t get to sleep. I watched her face in unconsciousness. She looked so beautiful so at peace. I drifted listening to her soft breathing. I woke up again in the morning she twitched in my arms reaching for her phone. I was lying behind her holding her into my body- my head resting on her shoulder. Last night had been the best night of my existence- i couldn’t get enough of her- we were so sensitive to each others touch. It felt nothing like it had with Tanya, this time there was passion behind it, there was love. I ran my hands over her body above the sheet and kissed her shoulder. I looked over to the floor. Her dress from last night flung over my desk chair. “Good morning” i whispered. She turned round face me- and kissed the tip of my nose. “Good morning to you too”. She looked radiant- happy. I couldnt believe how lucky i was- her beauty had become even more intensified. Her gorgeous brown eyes burning into mine “you are so beautiful” i announced. She blushed and looked down – the white sheets casting an odd shadow on her bare back. I kissed the top of her head. “Just going to bathroom. Don’t move” i whispered in her ear. I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. I put on a pair of boxers why i was in there. And brushed my teeth. I heard her call “Edward your phones going off”. That was weird. I hadn’t been expecting any, although at the moment it seemed my world was empty of everything but her. There was silence from her. She didn’t respond. I walked back into my room and she was getting dressed. “Bella what’s wrong” i asked worried. Her expression was upset. Devastated even. “Im leaving” i wasn’t going to let her get away. I held her quickly in my arms... “No you’re not leaving me. Not again” i said- pain seeping into my voice. She sobbed against my chest trying to get free. “I love you Bella i promise you- i love you more than anything in the world”.


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