EDWARD CULLEN.
I was running toward my house. Not running really, because I put no effort into moving my legs. I wanted to see Alice. I wanted her to tell me every detail about Bella. I would have simply asked her over the phone, but I wanted to see for myself in Alice's mind. How was she? Had she moved on? Did she mention me? Had she forgotten me, as I had asked her to? I wondered if she looked any differant. It was silly to think that there would be much change in one year, but she was human. It felt like her life was slipping furthr away every second. Alice had already seen her, why couldn't I? No, stop it. You can't see her. You made a promise, I told myself. I had promised that she would never see me again. I had made no promise about me seeing her...No. No. If I saw her, I would not be able to leave again. If I saw her I would break my promise....Wouldn't I?...Yes. I would. I felt like I was going mad. How long could I keep this up? Debating with myself day after day, hour after hour...second after second...It felt an eternity since I had seen her. Did it feel the same to her? How much had she changed? Had she changed at all? In my head, I saw Bella. Beautiful, pale, blushing scarlet at some maddening thing that I would never know. The memory of her scent burned my throat, but even thirsty as I was, I did not care. Her scent was more lovely than anything I had ever smelled. Frecia. I missed it. I missed everything though. Not a moment went by when I did not think of her. Her hair, her eyes, warm touch, her lips...How beautiful she looked in her blue blouse, especially when she would blush. There was nothing more beautiful, and I could not get the image out of my mind. I felt like I might callpse on the forest floor. I could not live like this. But I had to. As long as Bella was alive, I had something to live for. I should move more quickly...I thought to myself. The faster I move, the sooner I can see Bella's face. It would be far from complete, just a memory, but I needed it dearly. I started moving a bit faster, at least having something to look forward to. I heard a scream in the distance, from my family's house. It was a voice I would know anywhere. I ran as fast as I could. Could it really be her? No, I must have misheard. Or perhaps I was going insane, in the litteral sense. But it sounded like her. I was about three miles out now, and I could hear thoughts from the house.
No, stop. Stop, Alice. Her mental thought was pained. She had her eyes shut, so I could not see, but I could feel what she was tasting. Bella's blood. There was no doubt in my mind. I was furious in an instant. What in the world was going on?! Why in the hell was Alice biting Bella!?! I ran faster than I ever had. Alice's opened her eyes and let go of Bella, panting in strain. She ran across the room to Jasper for a moment. I could hear Bella screaming in agony. Begging to be killed. Someone was going to die, but it would not be Bella. Alice calmed herself, and ran back to Bella, pinning down for flailing arms. She muttered reassurances in her ear.Bella stopped screaming, and I paniced. No! Was she okay? Bella!
"It will be over soon. Alice promised. No! Alice had not simply lost control and biten Bella. I could see in her mind. She and Bella had planned this. She was turning her into a vampire!
"NO!" I roared in fury, to no one. I burst through the doors of the house, not pausing to greet my family, or to ask what was happening. I barely even registered them. I burst through the doors, running to Bella's side in an instant. She was so beautiful, even in this moment of pure horror, I had to notice. Bella. She was here. And she was in agony. Her screams stopped, and paniced. Was she okay?
"What's going on!? BELLA!" I could hear my voice echoing through the room. No one said anything. Alice froze in shock.
"ALICE! What Happened?!" I touched Bella's face, tried to sooth her. In her mind, she was running through the past few minutes. Trying to stop herself. Bella telling her why she was ready. That it didn't matter what I thought, it wasn't my choice. Carlisle agreeing.
Shut up! Alice told herself, trying to think of something else. I looked away from her, back to Bella. She whimpered and closed her eyes tightly. She was trying to keep quiet? Why?
"Bella? Bella? Oh, no. Bella." I was as much pain as I'm sure she was. I wanted to cry, but I couldn't.
"ALICE!" I roared in fury. "What. Happened?!" I said each word distinctly through my teeth, trying not to rip her head off. I knew the answer, but I need to say it. How could she let this happen? How could she listen to Bella? Bella always wanted what was worst for her.
"Edward..." Alice breathed, not knowing what to say, imagening how I felt, looking at her visions. Bella a vampire. I would have been so enraged, but I was there, too. I was holding her. We were smiling. I leaned down to kiss her. The vision ended. I was shocked, and elated. I tried to stop myself. This was not good. I would have Bella-the thoguht sent feelings of pure joy through me-but at what cost? Her soul? My happiness was not worth that. She deserved better. "YOU DIDN'T!" I screamed at her. I started towards her, to kill her. Jasper was in front of her protectively.
Don't. He thought in a snarl. I would have to fight him to get to her. Alice was stand there, not worried in the least. She knew how this would end. I barely moved before Bella let out a cry of pain. I turned back to her. Nothing mattered more than her, not even getting revenge on who had done this to her. I was in agony. If there was anything I could do to lessen her pain, I would. But there wasn't I could not suck the venom out like last time. There was already too much in her bloodstream. It was too late. If I could cry, I would have. All my worse nightmares were coming true. I turned her head as softly as I could, trying desperately not to put her in any more pain. I saw the bitemarks, and I had to control my discust for Alice. I touched it lightly, not believing what I was seeing. Bella let out a cry of pure agony at the top of her lungs. I jerked my hand away as fast as I could. She was falling off the bed. I lifted her softly-it felt amazing to touch her again-and placed her in the middle of the bed. I sat on the pillow close to her head, being very careful not to justle her. I looked into her eyes once again, stroking her face. She was looking at me. Though she was in excursiating pain, she would not tear her eyes off me.
"It's okay, Bella," I tried to sooth her. I felt like I was being strangled. It came out in my voice.
"Edward..." Jasper muttered, bring my attention to him. I looked over to him. He was telling me to pay attention. He was showing me Bella's emotions. She was in hell, but she also felt overwhelming simpathy mixed with a differant pain. She felt worse because of me. She was hurt from seeing me in so much pain. I had to control myself. It felt impossible to act as though this were a normal day, but it was what Bella needed, so I controlled my expression as best I could. I looked back to her. Her eyes studied my expression briefly. My eyes flickered to Jasper. I had not fooled her. SHe was too good at reading my expression. I tried harder, taking all the signs of pain and rage I felt off my face. She felt better, but confused. Her feelings quickly switched to nothing but the pain. And restraint. She was holding back, for fear of hurting me. I wished she wouldn't. If it made her feel better to make me feel worse, I would gladly take it. In Jasper's mind, I saw that there was a bit of relief from the pain. It eased ever-so-slightly, but it was an enormous relief to her. She closed her eyes and drifted to sleep.