i heard her swollow loadly she faced away frim me she had only met my gaze onse what was on her mind?this was going to be hard there had never been a honneymoon like ours before and i didn`t know how this was going to go.
"i was wondering" i said slowly "if you would like to take a midnight swim with me?" i took a deep breathe "the water would be warm this is the kind of beach you approve of" the deep breath had done me good i felt a little better and my voise seamed to be carm anoth that beela wouldn`t know i was scared stiff.
"sounds nice" her voise broke.
"im sure you would like a humman minute or two it was a longe trip" i repliedlike i never noticed.
she just nodded.
slowly i leaned in and brushed my lips againsted her trooat just below her ear and whispered softly
"dont take to long mrs cllen" i chuckled she was finaly my wife.
she jumped a little at the sound of her name and i kissed down her neck to her shoulders "i`ll wait for you in the water" without another word i walked past her and headed for the french doors pullin my top of as i went.
i needed to cool of but how? my skin felt like it had busted into flames. i desided a swim could help. maybe. so i dived into the water not bothering to come up for air. while i swam i thought of the first time i realised i loved her. i sisn`t know how it happened how i fell for her it was a strange feeling. wonting to protect her, keep her from harm, how i use to melt when she ever she was near how if antthing happened to her how my dead heart would breake (if that was possible) how when she stared into my eyes i would go weak at the knees, how when she kissed me, wow i am so glad that jasper wernt hear with me now. he allready hates it when i think of bella that way.
i thought back to the hardest time of my exsistence, the time i left her it was the darkess time i have ever spent. i thought it would be the right thing to do that if she could live with out me then that would be for the best. i was wrong. she almost got killed because of me.
if i hadn`t left hen i could have stopped this happerning. sure i knew it was going to happen soon but for now i was sort of glad that this would be over soon, watching her feeling pain when i leave not knowing if she can protect herself.
i thought back to how i had missed something so inportant so deadly and how she had seen it before me how i had killed a vampire right infront of her and her not caring. how she had agreed to marry me, when we lay in the feild, me almost giving up. the way i felt about her.
i thought back to yesterday how she had emerged from the stairs flawless. how she had said i do and me knowing that i got to keep her for eternaty. she was mine. so why couldn`t i do this? why should i wait? i love her more then my own life more then anything i have ever known. i would do this. i should do this.
as i stared at the moon not bothering to swin now knowing that bella would be out soon i just stared ontill i heard it. she seamed to take two deep breaths before carry on walkin, i heard a muffled sound was she taking somethin or putting something on? she entered the water and followed it down to were i stood. she rested her hand on top of mine and stared at the moon to "beautiful" she said while i wound my fingers trew her.
"its alright " i turned to tell her i was unipressed by that but inpressed by something els. bella. " but i wouldn`t say beautiful with you stood there in compaission" i told her it was the truth she was the most beautiful thing i have ever seen and this will test my love for her.
she half smiled then slowly lifted her hand and placed it on my heart i shudded at the touch of her skin. my breathe was rougher now then i have heard it in ages.
"i promised we will try" i reminded her in a whisper my whole body tensed " but if i do anything wrong if i hert you you must tell me at onse" i was serious i didn`t wont to hert her more then i wont to lose her.
"dont worrie" she leaned her haid on to my chest "we belong together" she muttered she sounded so serious it must of been true and i knew that.
i wrapped my arms around her, and pulled her closer to me.
"forever" i told her and we had forever and i pulled her into deeper water.

i was hard to conserntrate while she was kissing me my senses told me to stop but my body told me to keep going. my hands tightened around her arms i could feel it but i couldn`t stop it. the pleasure was what emmett and jasper had said it was great. when i was over her i tried to hold my own weight as mush as possible. it was hard to think. i felt myself letting go of all i have fought to keep in so i had to do something but what? her blood was so much stronger then i have ever smelt it before and as she kissed my neck i could see myself bitting on her so i let it go on soemthing els. a pillow or two.

bella was a sleep across my chest while i tried to remember what had happened. i remember parts i remeber how it felt how phisical love was nothing i could ever imagine. i remember how i had nearly lost control how i was so close to bitting her to tasting her. but the pillows i had no idea what that was all about
as i llooked at her i finaly saw it the bruises the srollen lips the dark circles. what have i done?
i knew nothing like this could happen again no matter how much i wonted it to happen i couldn`t i shouldn`t i wouldn`t. i made myself promise not to hert her again, not to put her in danger again. and that was final.

i was day now the sun was just comming up and i sensed that bella had awaken she just stayed still. i desided to give her a little hint so i traced my fingers up and down her back tracing pattens in to her skin, she just stayed still ontil her stomach started to growl. she laughed.
"whats funny?" i asked her i was so curious to what could be so funny about this whole thinh, about me herting her. my hand still stroked her back, i felt her blush with colour i wonted to ask her what was the matter whay she was blushing but i thought better.
her stomach growled and she laughed again "you just carnt escaped being human for very long" she laughed a third time. i didn`t this wasn`t funny this was a desaster.

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