14. Forgotten
I slammed on the braked and stared into her liquid gold eyes. Every thing about her has changed. She looked more like a vampire then before. Her skin had a high, gloss, Glow to it, her eyes were more liquidly, her face was better chiseled, but most of all the fact that I could see her. I was never able to physically see her before. I was staring into a beautiful high school picture of me, And quite frankly it scared the hell out of me.
“What are you doing here?” I stammered. She smiled smugly and within a blink of an eye, she was sitting in the passenger side.
“What did you do to your hair, Edward will hate it. How long do you have to wait till it can go back?” she shrieked her face curved up into this beautiful sculpted face of hatred.
I touched a lock of my hair “Alice likes it. And so do I. ” I said standing up to the teenage me.
“Yes its nice and all but there is no way you can get Edward back with that. He prefers brunette, i.e. why he and Tanya never worked out.” She rolled her eyes. “Well God, your already late to the Dogs party” I didn't move. “Drive Isabella” she has in a haughty tone. I put the car in Drive and slowly drown down the road.
“What is it that you wanted to talk about?” I said after the silence killed me.
“You woke me up this afternoon, as soon as you saw Alice you thought of what you looked like as a vampire, so I when and redid myself.” She said gesturing to her body.
“No I didn't.” I said quickly but she ignored me. “Why can I see you then?”
“ I already told you. You wanted to see your self. God live with it.” She rolled her eyes then opened her mother to speak again the perfect wind chimes of her voice scared me
“Then when you wondered how much of me has been in your life. If I were the really reason you like so many Cullen related things. And well I did. I wasn’t about to let you forget about what would have been. I am your subconscious. The little devil whispering in your ear when you found Aly. When you found the great deal for the Jeep Cherokee. The Baseball Tickets you always seem to win when you call in. all of it was Me.” she smiled.
I was going 15 mph for the last 5 minutes. Someone behind me honked their horn I sped up just a bit. “Then what now?” I said.
“And now that you’re going to see Edward Thursday. I think you should let me see him.”
“What?!?” I exclaimed. As I drove into La Push.
“I can have you do it willingly or forcefully. Try me” she smiled and disappeared.
I sat in the car for second, willingly or forcefully? What could she do? I got out do the car and opened the door. My mind was wrapping around things 3 days form now and 5 minutes ago. But some how I put smile on my face as I saw everyone’s mouth drop.
My hair, right I forgot. “Hey everyone sorry I'm late my appointment ran a bit late.”
“Bella I love it” Leah stood up and walked to me. She ran her fingers through it. I was slightly panicked; I hope Alice’s sent blew away on the ride over.
“Thank you” slowly everyone in the room got back to normal, commenting me as I walked into living room.
“Bella still not here?” Nicole asked from behind me.
“No I'm right here.” I turned around and smiled. She gasped.
“You beautiful brown locks what happened. You know Jake is going to make so many jokes. ” She laughed.
“Make jokes about what?” Jake walked into the room and stared laughing.
My cheeks went red. “Is it that bad?” I asked when Jake wouldn’t stop laughing.
“You’re a blond Bells.” He said mid laugh. “Did they bleach away your brain too.”
“What is it with you and blonds anyway” Leah asked. “Come on, Bella, let’s see what Charlie and Alison think.” Jacob couldn’t stop smiling as I walked to the back room.
“Mommy” Alison called as soon as I stepped thought the threshold.
“Bella” Charlie said abruptly. He tilled his head to the side. “Something wrong, your blond.” Charlie stuttered. I picked Aly up.
“Yeah dad I'm fine, just something new.” I smiled
“I like it.” Alison said. “Its like Talking Taylor.”
“I mean I like it, it was just a shock, that’s all. It makes you look more tan.” He commented. I laughed.
“Thanks dad.” I smiled at Sue who was setting the table with food. “Hi Sue ”
“Hi Bella, I like the hair.” she smiled up at me and continued to work.
I made my way back to the living room and sat leaned on the chair Jake was sitting at. Alison walked over and sat in his lap.
“Ew Bella what did you do to your hair.” Seth turned his face up at me. I shrugged. “I don't like it.” He smiled apolitically.
I smiled back at him as he walked away. Ok so every one doesn’t like Blond Bella, not my fault.
“Wow Bella,” Quil walked in to the house and saw me first. He opened his mouth though speak to me but closed it the he surged and gave me a hug.
“Fish is ready.” Sue called. Everyone made there way to the kitchen. The food was great, the company was great, but I continued to thing about Thursday. Am I ready to see all of them? And if I wasn’t is that what Bella Cullen meant by willingly or forcefully. Like if I tell her to take over. Or if I stutter, or even worse faint will she come in. The sunset before I knew it and it was time to say bye. The drive home was quiet.
I got Alison into bed, and walked around the house for a while. I finally I took a seat in the living room by the phone. I called Alice I wasn’t sure what to say if she picked up but I knew I would have to saw something.
“Hi Bella, how are you doing”
“Hey Alice, I was just calling… I'm good thought.” I had no reason why I was calling.
“Of course your good” her voice said sarcastically.
“I guess I just wanted to hear you voice before I when to bed,”
“Aw do you want me to come over?”
“No” I said quickly I knew some one was out side watching over me tonight. “That’s fine, I have work tomorrow and I would never get to sleep with you around.” I laughed nervously.
“Is something wrong?”
Very perceptive Alice. “Not really I'm just fighting with 18 year old self these days.” I laughed again, Bella Cullen is only 18 what does she know that I don't.
“Oh ok. Do you want me to stay on the line till you go to sleep?” she asked angelically.
“No I'll let you go, just, um… Thursday if I'm strange just know I'm not controlling myself.” I said in an unsure voice.
“What do you mean by that Bella?” she questioned.
“I love you Alice see you in 3 days.”
“Sweet dreams Bella.” She kissed into the receiver and hung up.
I slammed on the braked and stared into her liquid gold eyes. Every thing about her has changed. She looked more like a vampire then before. Her skin had a high, gloss, Glow to it, her eyes were more liquidly, her face was better chiseled, but most of all the fact that I could see her. I was never able to physically see her before. I was staring into a beautiful high school picture of me, And quite frankly it scared the hell out of me.
“What are you doing here?” I stammered. She smiled smugly and within a blink of an eye, she was sitting in the passenger side.
“What did you do to your hair, Edward will hate it. How long do you have to wait till it can go back?” she shrieked her face curved up into this beautiful sculpted face of hatred.
I touched a lock of my hair “Alice likes it. And so do I. ” I said standing up to the teenage me.
“Yes its nice and all but there is no way you can get Edward back with that. He prefers brunette, i.e. why he and Tanya never worked out.” She rolled her eyes. “Well God, your already late to the Dogs party” I didn't move. “Drive Isabella” she has in a haughty tone. I put the car in Drive and slowly drown down the road.
“What is it that you wanted to talk about?” I said after the silence killed me.
“You woke me up this afternoon, as soon as you saw Alice you thought of what you looked like as a vampire, so I when and redid myself.” She said gesturing to her body.
“No I didn't.” I said quickly but she ignored me. “Why can I see you then?”
“ I already told you. You wanted to see your self. God live with it.” She rolled her eyes then opened her mother to speak again the perfect wind chimes of her voice scared me
“Then when you wondered how much of me has been in your life. If I were the really reason you like so many Cullen related things. And well I did. I wasn’t about to let you forget about what would have been. I am your subconscious. The little devil whispering in your ear when you found Aly. When you found the great deal for the Jeep Cherokee. The Baseball Tickets you always seem to win when you call in. all of it was Me.” she smiled.
I was going 15 mph for the last 5 minutes. Someone behind me honked their horn I sped up just a bit. “Then what now?” I said.
“And now that you’re going to see Edward Thursday. I think you should let me see him.”
“What?!?” I exclaimed. As I drove into La Push.
“I can have you do it willingly or forcefully. Try me” she smiled and disappeared.
I sat in the car for second, willingly or forcefully? What could she do? I got out do the car and opened the door. My mind was wrapping around things 3 days form now and 5 minutes ago. But some how I put smile on my face as I saw everyone’s mouth drop.
My hair, right I forgot. “Hey everyone sorry I'm late my appointment ran a bit late.”
“Bella I love it” Leah stood up and walked to me. She ran her fingers through it. I was slightly panicked; I hope Alice’s sent blew away on the ride over.
“Thank you” slowly everyone in the room got back to normal, commenting me as I walked into living room.
“Bella still not here?” Nicole asked from behind me.
“No I'm right here.” I turned around and smiled. She gasped.
“You beautiful brown locks what happened. You know Jake is going to make so many jokes. ” She laughed.
“Make jokes about what?” Jake walked into the room and stared laughing.
My cheeks went red. “Is it that bad?” I asked when Jake wouldn’t stop laughing.
“You’re a blond Bells.” He said mid laugh. “Did they bleach away your brain too.”
“What is it with you and blonds anyway” Leah asked. “Come on, Bella, let’s see what Charlie and Alison think.” Jacob couldn’t stop smiling as I walked to the back room.
“Mommy” Alison called as soon as I stepped thought the threshold.
“Bella” Charlie said abruptly. He tilled his head to the side. “Something wrong, your blond.” Charlie stuttered. I picked Aly up.
“Yeah dad I'm fine, just something new.” I smiled
“I like it.” Alison said. “Its like Talking Taylor.”
“I mean I like it, it was just a shock, that’s all. It makes you look more tan.” He commented. I laughed.
“Thanks dad.” I smiled at Sue who was setting the table with food. “Hi Sue ”
“Hi Bella, I like the hair.” she smiled up at me and continued to work.
I made my way back to the living room and sat leaned on the chair Jake was sitting at. Alison walked over and sat in his lap.
“Ew Bella what did you do to your hair.” Seth turned his face up at me. I shrugged. “I don't like it.” He smiled apolitically.
I smiled back at him as he walked away. Ok so every one doesn’t like Blond Bella, not my fault.
“Wow Bella,” Quil walked in to the house and saw me first. He opened his mouth though speak to me but closed it the he surged and gave me a hug.
“Fish is ready.” Sue called. Everyone made there way to the kitchen. The food was great, the company was great, but I continued to thing about Thursday. Am I ready to see all of them? And if I wasn’t is that what Bella Cullen meant by willingly or forcefully. Like if I tell her to take over. Or if I stutter, or even worse faint will she come in. The sunset before I knew it and it was time to say bye. The drive home was quiet.
I got Alison into bed, and walked around the house for a while. I finally I took a seat in the living room by the phone. I called Alice I wasn’t sure what to say if she picked up but I knew I would have to saw something.
“Hi Bella, how are you doing”
“Hey Alice, I was just calling… I'm good thought.” I had no reason why I was calling.
“Of course your good” her voice said sarcastically.
“I guess I just wanted to hear you voice before I when to bed,”
“Aw do you want me to come over?”
“No” I said quickly I knew some one was out side watching over me tonight. “That’s fine, I have work tomorrow and I would never get to sleep with you around.” I laughed nervously.
“Is something wrong?”
Very perceptive Alice. “Not really I'm just fighting with 18 year old self these days.” I laughed again, Bella Cullen is only 18 what does she know that I don't.
“Oh ok. Do you want me to stay on the line till you go to sleep?” she asked angelically.
“No I'll let you go, just, um… Thursday if I'm strange just know I'm not controlling myself.” I said in an unsure voice.
“What do you mean by that Bella?” she questioned.
“I love you Alice see you in 3 days.”
“Sweet dreams Bella.” She kissed into the receiver and hung up.
