Chapter 4
My night with Jacob was fantastic. Better then fantastic. I couldn’t had imagined losing my virginity any better, and with a better person.
However I would be lying through my teeth if I didn’t say I was still sore. It’s not like everyone talks about, or seen on TV. But now that I’ve experienced it, I fully understand why couples keep their sex life private. Last night was just Jacob and I, no one else, our love shown in physical form. When I was ten my mother spilled the bird and the bee's talk. I wasn’t really fused on the whole concept, merely due to the fact that I was only 10, sex wasn’t even on my mind, but taking into account I had to mature quite early, I guess my mother thought it worth to get it over and done with. Her talk never really came in handy anyway. I mean attending American High School you pretty much hear and learn it all from teenage talk. I think parents forget that.
And Charlie hasn't shown away signs of his knowledge about last night, which I plan to keep that way, no father wants know that part of his daughters life, and as if we could forget, my father is trained to shoot and carry a gun. Don’t wanna take any chances.
Jacob was sweet the whole time, the way men are supposed to be with their partners. Gentle and soft, nothing could take his eyes off me. I can’t forget the fact that he said he loved me a forgettable amount of times. Could you really ask for more for your first time?
Jacob and I released after we finished that forgot the one most important thing, I mean what were we thinking? We forgot about the condom, we were kicking ourselves. I wasn’t worried, I’ve taken sex ed at least once a semester of each year of high school to know that I was way past ovulation on my current cycle and get a high risk of falling pregnant. Still I could pinch myself, we were just so wrapped up in each other, with it being the first time we’ve seen the other naked.
Jacob was allowed to sleepover and to my surprise, Charlie wasn’t one to hover, so he didn’t really care to see evidence that Jacob stayed on the sofa. I suppose it just goes to say that Dad trusts me on the matter. He shouldn’t.
Getting out of bed was the worst, I was physically and mentally exhausted. Just my luck, it’s Friday, I’d do anything to steal more blanket, roll over and get an extra few hours, the world was out to get me. A little dramatic but everyone hates that feeling. And to make it just that little much worst, we had slept in. We were late for school.
"Jacob wake up!, We slept in! We’re so late. "I nudging him convulsing his shoulder.
He moaned and groaned his way out his of sweet dream. But finally gave in.
I forcefully rolling myself out of bed, come on Bella, get yourself together, quickly. Picking up the clothes I had picked out last night and rushing over the mirror that hung in the bathroom.
There was a note on the mirror.
"Bella, sorry I didn’t wake you, but you looked so sweet, Don’t worry I rang the school and said that you’re going to have the day off due to assignment catch up, I owed you one. Use the time wisely. Next time, keep Jacob on the sofa, it makes my day go round that easily.
Love Dad.
" P.S Billy said that he wanted Jacob at school, so get his giant butt going”
Oh my goodness. This one of those moments where you’re inner child comes out and you feel like calling out “Sucker!”To the kid who has to school and poke your tongue out to rub it in just the little bit more. Strange how Jacob made me feel like a teenager, it’s been a while. Living in Arizona I was always the adult, always reminding mum to pay the bills and doing the laundry and getting tyres on the cars.
With Jacob in my life, I couldn’t possibly complain about anything in my life.
"Jacob, are you dressed and ready yet?"
He dragged his feet in his crinkled clothes from last night. If anyone was home, I swear they call the walk of shame. Wearing the clothes from the night before. My clothes were still on the floor beside my bed, I made a mental note to put them in the dirty clothes basket before Charlie gets back.
"Come on, let’s go!, I gripped onto his hand and forced him downstairs and into my truck. Still rubbing his eyes. He looked knackered, staying up all night.
I decided to go to school anyway. I needed to the study notes, sounds nuts I know, a teenagers passes up a day off school.
"Ok bye Jacob," he leaned in for a goodbye kiss, I accepted.
His school wasn’t very big, due to the small population in the Quileute Reservation. But Jacob had no problem in making a lot of friends.
Two boys stood out front, seemed to be waiting for him, Jacob approached them and tackled them.
"Goodbye Bells, love you " He turned and waved.
Putting the car back in gear and zoomed, well the fastest the truck could go, down the main road and into the school parking lot.
In my efforts and shock I managed to make it to Biology without falling over the hallway in my hurry to make it time to second period.
"Sorry, Mr Melina." I drifted to my usual loner seat. Due to my strangeness and still being new it made complete sense that I’ve been my own lab partner the last couple of months, I liked it that way, I was good at biology, so I didn’t need a lab partner anyway.
Today was different, looked up to see a boy I have never seen before sitting in the opposite chair at my table.
He had bronze colour hair and powder white flawless skin. He was a super model. No more words could be used to describe him other than that he looked like a sculpted God. I heard Angela whimper, I girl I only knew from the homeroom role, behind me.
"Now class, this is revision, treat it as you will, you can chat or do the work, independent, it’s just the question. How much do you want to pass this exam?" Mr, Melina addressed. When he finished the whole class raged in conversation. He didn’t actually expect seventeen years old to actually choose homework over talking and procrastination.
The Boy glared at me, his eyes were burning a hole over my cheeky. Oh god, Do I say something?
"Hello, I’m Edward Cullen, you're Bella?" His voice was like soft velvet. I stumbled to grasp myself. Bella don’t mess this up. You want friends right?
"Ahh yeah" I said in my untrained sociable voice, he winced once he heard me.
"Is today your first day" I said without thinking. Oh my god, I wish I had a certain mind capability called control! I was screwing it all up. Oh course it was his first day you idiot.
I gave up and shifted in my seat and opened one of my flagged pages of my text book.
"Yes it is, my family just moved here from Alaska" He replied. I was amazed that he continued our failed conversation.
Oh crap, do I say something back? Do I trust myself to reply? I will most likely embarrass myself again.
I just smiled. Was that enough? Now is the time where I wish that I had stayed home.
* * * * * * * *
"Hey Bella, I know this is sudden, but look, do you mind if my family and I sit with you? I assure you that you will get along with my sisters, well maybe one of them, it’s just that well, we are new and we have no idea what we are doing?" He said with smouldering eyes. How could I say no? He was so intriguing.
"Ahh sure, but I just don’t have any friends” Oh my god did I just say that! Can I please hide under a desk and never come out. Well let’s face it, the only reason why he’s asking me is because he thinks I’ve got a actual group of friends with whom I sit with at lunches.
He just laughed, oh thank goodness; he just goes along with my awkwardness. I just hope that he wasn't laughing at my sense of being a loser.
I continued to walk down the opening at the end hallway; it led to the cafeteria, Edward at my side.
"So Bella, how long have you lived in forks?" Alice asked. Alice was Edward youngest sister, and we instantly clicked. She was easy to talk to, unlike his other siblings I quickly learnt.
Edward had all his four siblings at enrolled Forks high, they claimed to be all adopted, so the news that all of them dated each other didn’t shock me. Alice’s boyfriend Jasper Hale looked like he was in pain the entire lunch period, not sure what his deal is.
His older sister Rosalie, the fraternal twin to Jasper, was accompanied by Edward’s older Brother Emmett. This left Edward single out of them all.
"Umm, a couple of months ago, I moved to live with my Dad, I used to live in Arizona with my Mum"
I felt a small nudge from within my pocket. It was my cell.
I opened it, the screen light and announced a message from Jacob Black; "I will never forget last night baby, I love you so much.xx "
I couldn’t help but blush, almost forgetting that the Cullen’s were still sited next to me.
"What was it?" Edward asked silently.
"Oh, it’s my boyfriend Jacob,"
A gasp came from Alice, her eyes zoned out, her face frighten me. Her clutched the table in a flash tightened to the point you could almost see her beautiful manicured nails dig significantly in the wood.
"Alice, are you ok? Do you need help?" I noted, everyone straightened up in their sits. But no-one seemed concerned for her health, like they were used to it.
Then she was back to normal, still shock in her eyes. She blinked it off, I still noticed her mind still in thought.
"I'm fine Bella, I get really bad headaches a lot, and I forgot to take my medication today." She sighed, returned to her bottled water, not drinking just fiddling with the lid. Strange.
What the hell just happened?
None of them were without food; I just sat with my lemonade, hardly touched.
"So you have a boyfriend Bella? What’s he like?” Edward persisted. His questions shocked me. Was I really that interesting? For the last couple of days, I had started to think that I wasn't worth getting to know, and that the only person who liked to know about me was Jacob and Charlie.
"Ahh, yeah, He goes to the school on the reservation though, down at La push, he is really nice and looks after me" I didn’t think they needed that much information or that some of them ever cared, even Edward for that matter, I was just answering his question.
I bet they are already planned to ditch after the play. I noticed that they were still passing glance back and forth, like they were talking in their minds. Was I missing something? Did I hear the question right?
"What class do you have next Bella?" Edward asked again, trying to draw attention from me to his glances to Alice and Jasper.
His so called interest was warming to me nevertheless. Maybe I wasn't as weird in his eyes as I was in mine.
Remembering my time-table, I had a grimly session of double English to finish off the day. Honestly Bella, why didn’t you take the day off?
"English, it’s a double, what a joy" I said glumly. His face picked up in a half smile, what was funny about that?
"Oh great, so do I, Do you mind if I sit with you, again?"
My night with Jacob was fantastic. Better then fantastic. I couldn’t had imagined losing my virginity any better, and with a better person.
However I would be lying through my teeth if I didn’t say I was still sore. It’s not like everyone talks about, or seen on TV. But now that I’ve experienced it, I fully understand why couples keep their sex life private. Last night was just Jacob and I, no one else, our love shown in physical form. When I was ten my mother spilled the bird and the bee's talk. I wasn’t really fused on the whole concept, merely due to the fact that I was only 10, sex wasn’t even on my mind, but taking into account I had to mature quite early, I guess my mother thought it worth to get it over and done with. Her talk never really came in handy anyway. I mean attending American High School you pretty much hear and learn it all from teenage talk. I think parents forget that.
And Charlie hasn't shown away signs of his knowledge about last night, which I plan to keep that way, no father wants know that part of his daughters life, and as if we could forget, my father is trained to shoot and carry a gun. Don’t wanna take any chances.
Jacob was sweet the whole time, the way men are supposed to be with their partners. Gentle and soft, nothing could take his eyes off me. I can’t forget the fact that he said he loved me a forgettable amount of times. Could you really ask for more for your first time?
Jacob and I released after we finished that forgot the one most important thing, I mean what were we thinking? We forgot about the condom, we were kicking ourselves. I wasn’t worried, I’ve taken sex ed at least once a semester of each year of high school to know that I was way past ovulation on my current cycle and get a high risk of falling pregnant. Still I could pinch myself, we were just so wrapped up in each other, with it being the first time we’ve seen the other naked.
Jacob was allowed to sleepover and to my surprise, Charlie wasn’t one to hover, so he didn’t really care to see evidence that Jacob stayed on the sofa. I suppose it just goes to say that Dad trusts me on the matter. He shouldn’t.
Getting out of bed was the worst, I was physically and mentally exhausted. Just my luck, it’s Friday, I’d do anything to steal more blanket, roll over and get an extra few hours, the world was out to get me. A little dramatic but everyone hates that feeling. And to make it just that little much worst, we had slept in. We were late for school.
"Jacob wake up!, We slept in! We’re so late. "I nudging him convulsing his shoulder.
He moaned and groaned his way out his of sweet dream. But finally gave in.
I forcefully rolling myself out of bed, come on Bella, get yourself together, quickly. Picking up the clothes I had picked out last night and rushing over the mirror that hung in the bathroom.
There was a note on the mirror.
"Bella, sorry I didn’t wake you, but you looked so sweet, Don’t worry I rang the school and said that you’re going to have the day off due to assignment catch up, I owed you one. Use the time wisely. Next time, keep Jacob on the sofa, it makes my day go round that easily.
Love Dad.
" P.S Billy said that he wanted Jacob at school, so get his giant butt going”
Oh my goodness. This one of those moments where you’re inner child comes out and you feel like calling out “Sucker!”To the kid who has to school and poke your tongue out to rub it in just the little bit more. Strange how Jacob made me feel like a teenager, it’s been a while. Living in Arizona I was always the adult, always reminding mum to pay the bills and doing the laundry and getting tyres on the cars.
With Jacob in my life, I couldn’t possibly complain about anything in my life.
"Jacob, are you dressed and ready yet?"
He dragged his feet in his crinkled clothes from last night. If anyone was home, I swear they call the walk of shame. Wearing the clothes from the night before. My clothes were still on the floor beside my bed, I made a mental note to put them in the dirty clothes basket before Charlie gets back.
"Come on, let’s go!, I gripped onto his hand and forced him downstairs and into my truck. Still rubbing his eyes. He looked knackered, staying up all night.
I decided to go to school anyway. I needed to the study notes, sounds nuts I know, a teenagers passes up a day off school.
"Ok bye Jacob," he leaned in for a goodbye kiss, I accepted.
His school wasn’t very big, due to the small population in the Quileute Reservation. But Jacob had no problem in making a lot of friends.
Two boys stood out front, seemed to be waiting for him, Jacob approached them and tackled them.
"Goodbye Bells, love you " He turned and waved.
Putting the car back in gear and zoomed, well the fastest the truck could go, down the main road and into the school parking lot.
In my efforts and shock I managed to make it to Biology without falling over the hallway in my hurry to make it time to second period.
"Sorry, Mr Melina." I drifted to my usual loner seat. Due to my strangeness and still being new it made complete sense that I’ve been my own lab partner the last couple of months, I liked it that way, I was good at biology, so I didn’t need a lab partner anyway.
Today was different, looked up to see a boy I have never seen before sitting in the opposite chair at my table.
He had bronze colour hair and powder white flawless skin. He was a super model. No more words could be used to describe him other than that he looked like a sculpted God. I heard Angela whimper, I girl I only knew from the homeroom role, behind me.
"Now class, this is revision, treat it as you will, you can chat or do the work, independent, it’s just the question. How much do you want to pass this exam?" Mr, Melina addressed. When he finished the whole class raged in conversation. He didn’t actually expect seventeen years old to actually choose homework over talking and procrastination.
The Boy glared at me, his eyes were burning a hole over my cheeky. Oh god, Do I say something?
"Hello, I’m Edward Cullen, you're Bella?" His voice was like soft velvet. I stumbled to grasp myself. Bella don’t mess this up. You want friends right?
"Ahh yeah" I said in my untrained sociable voice, he winced once he heard me.
"Is today your first day" I said without thinking. Oh my god, I wish I had a certain mind capability called control! I was screwing it all up. Oh course it was his first day you idiot.
I gave up and shifted in my seat and opened one of my flagged pages of my text book.
"Yes it is, my family just moved here from Alaska" He replied. I was amazed that he continued our failed conversation.
Oh crap, do I say something back? Do I trust myself to reply? I will most likely embarrass myself again.
I just smiled. Was that enough? Now is the time where I wish that I had stayed home.
* * * * * * * *
"Hey Bella, I know this is sudden, but look, do you mind if my family and I sit with you? I assure you that you will get along with my sisters, well maybe one of them, it’s just that well, we are new and we have no idea what we are doing?" He said with smouldering eyes. How could I say no? He was so intriguing.
"Ahh sure, but I just don’t have any friends” Oh my god did I just say that! Can I please hide under a desk and never come out. Well let’s face it, the only reason why he’s asking me is because he thinks I’ve got a actual group of friends with whom I sit with at lunches.
He just laughed, oh thank goodness; he just goes along with my awkwardness. I just hope that he wasn't laughing at my sense of being a loser.
I continued to walk down the opening at the end hallway; it led to the cafeteria, Edward at my side.
"So Bella, how long have you lived in forks?" Alice asked. Alice was Edward youngest sister, and we instantly clicked. She was easy to talk to, unlike his other siblings I quickly learnt.
Edward had all his four siblings at enrolled Forks high, they claimed to be all adopted, so the news that all of them dated each other didn’t shock me. Alice’s boyfriend Jasper Hale looked like he was in pain the entire lunch period, not sure what his deal is.
His older sister Rosalie, the fraternal twin to Jasper, was accompanied by Edward’s older Brother Emmett. This left Edward single out of them all.
"Umm, a couple of months ago, I moved to live with my Dad, I used to live in Arizona with my Mum"
I felt a small nudge from within my pocket. It was my cell.
I opened it, the screen light and announced a message from Jacob Black; "I will never forget last night baby, I love you so much.xx "
I couldn’t help but blush, almost forgetting that the Cullen’s were still sited next to me.
"What was it?" Edward asked silently.
"Oh, it’s my boyfriend Jacob,"
A gasp came from Alice, her eyes zoned out, her face frighten me. Her clutched the table in a flash tightened to the point you could almost see her beautiful manicured nails dig significantly in the wood.
"Alice, are you ok? Do you need help?" I noted, everyone straightened up in their sits. But no-one seemed concerned for her health, like they were used to it.
Then she was back to normal, still shock in her eyes. She blinked it off, I still noticed her mind still in thought.
"I'm fine Bella, I get really bad headaches a lot, and I forgot to take my medication today." She sighed, returned to her bottled water, not drinking just fiddling with the lid. Strange.
What the hell just happened?
None of them were without food; I just sat with my lemonade, hardly touched.
"So you have a boyfriend Bella? What’s he like?” Edward persisted. His questions shocked me. Was I really that interesting? For the last couple of days, I had started to think that I wasn't worth getting to know, and that the only person who liked to know about me was Jacob and Charlie.
"Ahh, yeah, He goes to the school on the reservation though, down at La push, he is really nice and looks after me" I didn’t think they needed that much information or that some of them ever cared, even Edward for that matter, I was just answering his question.
I bet they are already planned to ditch after the play. I noticed that they were still passing glance back and forth, like they were talking in their minds. Was I missing something? Did I hear the question right?
"What class do you have next Bella?" Edward asked again, trying to draw attention from me to his glances to Alice and Jasper.
His so called interest was warming to me nevertheless. Maybe I wasn't as weird in his eyes as I was in mine.
Remembering my time-table, I had a grimly session of double English to finish off the day. Honestly Bella, why didn’t you take the day off?
"English, it’s a double, what a joy" I said glumly. His face picked up in a half smile, what was funny about that?
"Oh great, so do I, Do you mind if I sit with you, again?"
Edward and Bella in Biology
