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“Nes, please hold still.” I said, struggling with the zipper on her jacket. She was absolutely wired and jumping all over the place. “Tell everyone I said hi.” I forced a smile and glanced up to Edward's impatient face, my back turned to Jacob who was sitting smugly at the kitchen table. I walked to the end of the walkway, holding Renesmee's tiny hand in mine. “You behave and don't give Grammy Esme a hard time.” I was referring to the last time we were there and Renesmee decided it was alright to color in Esme's sketch book. I gave her a quick kiss on her forehead and handed her over to Edward, who picked her up swiftly in his arms. He was faster, and she got distracted easily, asking repeatedly the name of every plant she walked by. I could see in his eyes that he was not impressed. He turned away, taking a couple steps. I reached my hand out, grabbing his arm gently. He only turned his head slightly so that I could see his profile.
“I'll talk to him.” I whispered, watching as he closed his eyes, nodding and then they were gone. I stared at the opening in the woods where they disappeared. The sun briefly crawling over the top of the tree line, a combination of mist and warmth hitting my face. I reached up with both hands, rubbing my temples at the headache I felt should be there.
I slowly turned around, hesitating before I opened the front door. I found Jake, now sitting propped up on the counter, practically swallowing an apple whole. He saw my expression and changed his own immediately.
“Jake” I sighed, folding my arms across my chest. “Jake, you can't...”
“Bella, Don't give me that.” He mumbled, his mouth full of chewed apple. “You of all people should understand. You flew off to Italy for crying out loud. ITALY!” He shouted, throwing his arms up and he jumped down from the counter with a loud thud.
“Yeah! To save him!” I yelled back protectively. “Renesmee doesn't need to be saved. Edward and I will be there.”
“Exactly.” His voice dropped, along with his eyes. “but what about me. I'm losing two of the most important people in my life. Who's going to save me?” He crossed the room and sat at the table, sinking into the chair.
“Jake..” I whispered, suddenly overcome with emotion. I pulled out the chair next to him, sitting down.
“As much as I love you, Bella, you can't take her away from me. As silly as that sounds...” He paused to sigh. “I can't live without her.” His fidgeting hands pressing down the seams of his pants repeatedly.
These words touched my unbeating heart, causing some sort of reaction, a tightening in my chest. I reached out, taking his warm hand in mine, gently squeezing.
“Oh Jacob.” My voice quivered. “I know exactly how you feel. As much as you didn't like him, I knew there was no way I could live without him, even if I tried to for a while, it wouldn't have lasted.”
“This is a little bit different.” He said, his voice taking on a slightly harsh tone. “There is no moving on when you imprint.. No exceptions.”
I released his hand, leaning back in my chair, thinking about the present situation. I listened to his uneven breathing. Watching his shoulders rise and fall with each breath. I hadn't noticed he had cut his hair. I tried to think back to when this happened. I couldn't remember. The entire house was quiet except for the old clock that hung above the fireplace, counting off the silent minutes.
He shifted suddenly in his seat, grasping my hand in his as he stared at me with desperate eyes.
“I - am not - staying.behind.” He said firmly, emphasizing each word.
“What about school?”
“They have schools in Alaska” He shrugged.
“What about Billy?”
“He has Rachel, and he understands.”
“What about the pack?
“They have Sam.”
“What about....Charlie?” The tightening pressing against my chest increased as I struggled to get out what I originally wanted to ask.
“What about Charlie?” He asked, confused.
“You're practically a son to him. You visit him daily. What if he gets lonely?” I watched his eyes crease as he slowly grinned.
“Charlie will get along just fine, he has Sue. He survived before us, and he'll survive after us.” He said calmly. I watched his eyes wander, as if in thought. “I'll probably have to come home more often than I planned. Bella, he's going to be fine.”
I let out the rest of the air I had been holding in my lungs as I slouched in my chair. I quickly went over the whole conversation in my head in a matter of seconds, wonder how it all changed. Five minutes ago I was set on telling him he had to stay in Forks and now I was practically ready to help him pack.
“I'll have to talk to Edward about this.” I said, shaking my head
“3 against 1” He muttered under his breath.
“Whats that?” I asked, pulling from my own thoughts again.
“I said thanks.” Jake said grinning as he practically jumped out of his chair, heading for the door. “See yah later Bells.” He shouted halfway down the walkway, and then I was alone again.
I knew Edward wasn't going to be happy.
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“Nes, please hold still.” I said, struggling with the zipper on her jacket. She was absolutely wired and jumping all over the place. “Tell everyone I said hi.” I forced a smile and glanced up to Edward's impatient face, my back turned to Jacob who was sitting smugly at the kitchen table. I walked to the end of the walkway, holding Renesmee's tiny hand in mine. “You behave and don't give Grammy Esme a hard time.” I was referring to the last time we were there and Renesmee decided it was alright to color in Esme's sketch book. I gave her a quick kiss on her forehead and handed her over to Edward, who picked her up swiftly in his arms. He was faster, and she got distracted easily, asking repeatedly the name of every plant she walked by. I could see in his eyes that he was not impressed. He turned away, taking a couple steps. I reached my hand out, grabbing his arm gently. He only turned his head slightly so that I could see his profile.
“I'll talk to him.” I whispered, watching as he closed his eyes, nodding and then they were gone. I stared at the opening in the woods where they disappeared. The sun briefly crawling over the top of the tree line, a combination of mist and warmth hitting my face. I reached up with both hands, rubbing my temples at the headache I felt should be there.
I slowly turned around, hesitating before I opened the front door. I found Jake, now sitting propped up on the counter, practically swallowing an apple whole. He saw my expression and changed his own immediately.
“Jake” I sighed, folding my arms across my chest. “Jake, you can't...”
“Bella, Don't give me that.” He mumbled, his mouth full of chewed apple. “You of all people should understand. You flew off to Italy for crying out loud. ITALY!” He shouted, throwing his arms up and he jumped down from the counter with a loud thud.
“Yeah! To save him!” I yelled back protectively. “Renesmee doesn't need to be saved. Edward and I will be there.”
“Exactly.” His voice dropped, along with his eyes. “but what about me. I'm losing two of the most important people in my life. Who's going to save me?” He crossed the room and sat at the table, sinking into the chair.
“Jake..” I whispered, suddenly overcome with emotion. I pulled out the chair next to him, sitting down.
“As much as I love you, Bella, you can't take her away from me. As silly as that sounds...” He paused to sigh. “I can't live without her.” His fidgeting hands pressing down the seams of his pants repeatedly.
These words touched my unbeating heart, causing some sort of reaction, a tightening in my chest. I reached out, taking his warm hand in mine, gently squeezing.
“Oh Jacob.” My voice quivered. “I know exactly how you feel. As much as you didn't like him, I knew there was no way I could live without him, even if I tried to for a while, it wouldn't have lasted.”
“This is a little bit different.” He said, his voice taking on a slightly harsh tone. “There is no moving on when you imprint.. No exceptions.”
I released his hand, leaning back in my chair, thinking about the present situation. I listened to his uneven breathing. Watching his shoulders rise and fall with each breath. I hadn't noticed he had cut his hair. I tried to think back to when this happened. I couldn't remember. The entire house was quiet except for the old clock that hung above the fireplace, counting off the silent minutes.
He shifted suddenly in his seat, grasping my hand in his as he stared at me with desperate eyes.
“I - am not - staying.behind.” He said firmly, emphasizing each word.
“What about school?”
“They have schools in Alaska” He shrugged.
“What about Billy?”
“He has Rachel, and he understands.”
“What about the pack?
“They have Sam.”
“What about....Charlie?” The tightening pressing against my chest increased as I struggled to get out what I originally wanted to ask.
“What about Charlie?” He asked, confused.
“You're practically a son to him. You visit him daily. What if he gets lonely?” I watched his eyes crease as he slowly grinned.
“Charlie will get along just fine, he has Sue. He survived before us, and he'll survive after us.” He said calmly. I watched his eyes wander, as if in thought. “I'll probably have to come home more often than I planned. Bella, he's going to be fine.”
I let out the rest of the air I had been holding in my lungs as I slouched in my chair. I quickly went over the whole conversation in my head in a matter of seconds, wonder how it all changed. Five minutes ago I was set on telling him he had to stay in Forks and now I was practically ready to help him pack.
“I'll have to talk to Edward about this.” I said, shaking my head
“3 against 1” He muttered under his breath.
“Whats that?” I asked, pulling from my own thoughts again.
“I said thanks.” Jake said grinning as he practically jumped out of his chair, heading for the door. “See yah later Bells.” He shouted halfway down the walkway, and then I was alone again.
I knew Edward wasn't going to be happy.
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