It was with a heavy heart that I left Forks. It pained me to think that I would never see her lovely face again, never hear her tinkling voice -for I am determined to fight all the demons inside me. – I am determined to stay away. I won’t ruin her, even her family, even her Jacob. I realized I love her too much to cause her pain. I agonized over the fact that I was merely created to bring her pain.
I realized I could never go back to my coven. I knew I would be dead the instant I stepped into the castle and once I'm gone, they would come up with another devious and intricate plan against the Cullens. I would merely be just an experiment who failed. No, I couldn’t have that. I’ll let them think I was still laying the bait. I don’t know how long they would be satisfied with my excuse. Somehow I have to meet Edward and give him my warning. But that would have to wait. I have to forget about his daughter first.
With no particular plan, I wandered around. Often, a war would wage inside me.
Just a short visit to Forks wouldn’t hurt her.
Just a glimpse of her face that’s not too much to ask.
NO! Isn’t loving her torture enough?
So, I continued to jump to one place to another until I found New Hampshire and Dartmouth. Its charming serenity somehow reminded me of Forks. I decided to stay. I enrolled myself. I forged a lot of documents and charmed my way through the interviews until I found myself accepted. Why am doing this? I once thought. I realized I needed normalcy. This would be something I would do if I were normal, if I were human enough.
I was taking an evening stroll, on my way to my favorite spot, a quaint little garden at the back of an old building, when I heard a familiar tinkling laugh.
I stood frozen on the spot in front of a dormitory.
Could it be?
NO…
“I think we could be really good friends, Jenny.”
Her voice… How many nights have I dreamed of hearing it once again?
NO! NO! NO!
“Let’s eat out.”
It was like demons trying to strangle my throat. Will I never escape? Is she taunting me? Haven’t I stayed far away? Why did she have to be here? We can not be in one place at the same time.
Anger boiled inside me. She has no idea of the torment she has caused me, no idea at all.
She has no idea of the anguish I felt.
But then again, even though angered, I found myself following her once again. I couldn’t deny the fact that I wanted to see her face.
I could not keep my eyes away from her. I wanted to drown myself with her loveliness. I couldn’t look away when our eyes met. I could almost taste the electricity in the air with the tip of my tongue.
She seemed to recognize me…How could she? She doesn’t know I exist until now.
I felt her fear.
Good. She should be.
I felt her curiosity.
She can’t know me, not the real me.
I felt her…wait…she can’t be…is she really drawn to me? Almost like she was attracted...
Half of me rejoiced. There’s still hope.
Half of me waged war towards the tiny spark of hope I felt.
You wanted her safe right? Stay away…
I clenched my fists. Do I have to go to the other side of the globe just to keep her safe? I winced as I realized that I could do just that. I would do everything to keep her safe.
* * *
I followed her to her dormitory then went to my favorite garden. I lifted the violin and nestled it on my shoulder then rested my chin on it. I closed my eyes, the bow poised in midair above the strings. I saw her beautiful face flashed before me. I was lost in the intensity I never knew before. I poured my heart out to the melody unraveling itself to me. It sang of the joy of realizing love, the sorrow of crushed hope, the torment of trying to forget.
The melody of the violin filled the air. I hope it would reach her so she would know that I would trade everything so that I could be with her…So that I could love her freely… So that I would be free of my obligation…
I bowed my head and continued to play my violin. It cried a lament of unrequited love.
A sonata for Renesmee.
* * *
The Sonata is vivid on my head. I wish I had my violin with me. I was caught up with my reveries, I wasn’t able to sense him until he stood in front of my tree.
“Where is she? Tell me!” Jacob growled. He was flanked by two gigantic werewolves. The sandy one whimpered while the grey one bared its pointed teeth to me.
“Where is she?” Jacob shouted. I could see he’s about to lose control.
I jumped from the branch to the ground, landing softly in front of him.
“What are you talking about?”
“Nessie’s gone!”
The sonata inside my head abruptly turned into a sound of Renesmee’s bloodcurdling screams. Cold water was poured to my entire body. I couldn’t breathe. Could it be possible that they have found out already?
“NOOOO!!!!”
I realized I could never go back to my coven. I knew I would be dead the instant I stepped into the castle and once I'm gone, they would come up with another devious and intricate plan against the Cullens. I would merely be just an experiment who failed. No, I couldn’t have that. I’ll let them think I was still laying the bait. I don’t know how long they would be satisfied with my excuse. Somehow I have to meet Edward and give him my warning. But that would have to wait. I have to forget about his daughter first.
With no particular plan, I wandered around. Often, a war would wage inside me.
Just a short visit to Forks wouldn’t hurt her.
Just a glimpse of her face that’s not too much to ask.
NO! Isn’t loving her torture enough?
So, I continued to jump to one place to another until I found New Hampshire and Dartmouth. Its charming serenity somehow reminded me of Forks. I decided to stay. I enrolled myself. I forged a lot of documents and charmed my way through the interviews until I found myself accepted. Why am doing this? I once thought. I realized I needed normalcy. This would be something I would do if I were normal, if I were human enough.
I was taking an evening stroll, on my way to my favorite spot, a quaint little garden at the back of an old building, when I heard a familiar tinkling laugh.
I stood frozen on the spot in front of a dormitory.
Could it be?
NO…
“I think we could be really good friends, Jenny.”
Her voice… How many nights have I dreamed of hearing it once again?
NO! NO! NO!
“Let’s eat out.”
It was like demons trying to strangle my throat. Will I never escape? Is she taunting me? Haven’t I stayed far away? Why did she have to be here? We can not be in one place at the same time.
Anger boiled inside me. She has no idea of the torment she has caused me, no idea at all.
She has no idea of the anguish I felt.
But then again, even though angered, I found myself following her once again. I couldn’t deny the fact that I wanted to see her face.
I could not keep my eyes away from her. I wanted to drown myself with her loveliness. I couldn’t look away when our eyes met. I could almost taste the electricity in the air with the tip of my tongue.
She seemed to recognize me…How could she? She doesn’t know I exist until now.
I felt her fear.
Good. She should be.
I felt her curiosity.
She can’t know me, not the real me.
I felt her…wait…she can’t be…is she really drawn to me? Almost like she was attracted...
Half of me rejoiced. There’s still hope.
Half of me waged war towards the tiny spark of hope I felt.
You wanted her safe right? Stay away…
I clenched my fists. Do I have to go to the other side of the globe just to keep her safe? I winced as I realized that I could do just that. I would do everything to keep her safe.
* * *
I followed her to her dormitory then went to my favorite garden. I lifted the violin and nestled it on my shoulder then rested my chin on it. I closed my eyes, the bow poised in midair above the strings. I saw her beautiful face flashed before me. I was lost in the intensity I never knew before. I poured my heart out to the melody unraveling itself to me. It sang of the joy of realizing love, the sorrow of crushed hope, the torment of trying to forget.
The melody of the violin filled the air. I hope it would reach her so she would know that I would trade everything so that I could be with her…So that I could love her freely… So that I would be free of my obligation…
I bowed my head and continued to play my violin. It cried a lament of unrequited love.
A sonata for Renesmee.
* * *
The Sonata is vivid on my head. I wish I had my violin with me. I was caught up with my reveries, I wasn’t able to sense him until he stood in front of my tree.
“Where is she? Tell me!” Jacob growled. He was flanked by two gigantic werewolves. The sandy one whimpered while the grey one bared its pointed teeth to me.
“Where is she?” Jacob shouted. I could see he’s about to lose control.
I jumped from the branch to the ground, landing softly in front of him.
“What are you talking about?”
“Nessie’s gone!”
The sonata inside my head abruptly turned into a sound of Renesmee’s bloodcurdling screams. Cold water was poured to my entire body. I couldn’t breathe. Could it be possible that they have found out already?
“NOOOO!!!!”
when Bella first meets Edward he is trying his best to stay away from her and Jacob is trying to get closer to her when Edward and Bella goes out and Edward leaves her Jacob finds her in the forest and takes her home to charlie then in eclipse Jacob tells Bella he loves her and kisses her witched cause Bella to punch him and she breaks her hand then calls Edward to take her to Carlise and in breaking dawn Jacob came to viste Bella as a gift but it goes bad and Sam Seth Embery toke Jacob home an then when Bella has Reneesme Jacob tries to kill Reneesme but instead imprinted on her and in Breaking Dawn part 2 Bella's a vampire and finds out Jacob imprinted witch mad her mad and let me just say that it was just funny
I sang this song in choir my sophomore year maybe it will help you keep strong and have faith in Robsten
The Rose,
Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed,
Some says love it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it hunger is an endless aching need
It's the one who won't be taken who can not seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying never that learns to live;
When the night has been to lonely and the road seems to long and you think that is only for the lucky the strong;
Just remember far the winter snow, lies the seed that with the suns love becomes the rose the rose
The Rose,
Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed,
Some says love it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it hunger is an endless aching need
It's the one who won't be taken who can not seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying never that learns to live;
When the night has been to lonely and the road seems to long and you think that is only for the lucky the strong;
Just remember far the winter snow, lies the seed that with the suns love becomes the rose the rose
Kristen Stewart, who shot to fame as Bella Swan in "The Twilight" films and is the title character in "Snow White and the Huntsman", jumped to the top of Forbes.com's annual list of highest-paid actresses.
The 22-year-old earned an estimated $34.5 million (£22 million) from May 2011 to May 2012 and pushed Angelina Jolie into fourth place.
Cameron Diaz, who had a surprise hit with “Bad Teacher”, came in second with $34 million.
“She (Stewart) is an up-and-coming star. She is earning a lot of money from one of the most successful franchises of all time. This is who you would expect to see right now,” said Dorothy Pomerantz, Forbes Los Angeles bureau chief.
“This year you are seeing somebody young and at the brink of potentially great stardom sitting on the top of the list.”
The 22-year-old earned an estimated $34.5 million (£22 million) from May 2011 to May 2012 and pushed Angelina Jolie into fourth place.
Cameron Diaz, who had a surprise hit with “Bad Teacher”, came in second with $34 million.
“She (Stewart) is an up-and-coming star. She is earning a lot of money from one of the most successful franchises of all time. This is who you would expect to see right now,” said Dorothy Pomerantz, Forbes Los Angeles bureau chief.
“This year you are seeing somebody young and at the brink of potentially great stardom sitting on the top of the list.”
Touch me I'm cold, unable to control
Touch me I'm golden and wild as the wind blows
And tumbling, tumbling, don't go fascination
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
Let me come closer, I'm not your shadow
With our eyes shielded from the oncoming count
It's not hard for us to say what we should not
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
Touch me I'm cold, unable to control
Touch me I'm golden and wild as the wind blows
And tumbling, tumbling, don't go fascination
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
Let's get lost
Let's get lost
Let's get lost
Let's get lost
Touch me I'm golden and wild as the wind blows
And tumbling, tumbling, don't go fascination
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
Let me come closer, I'm not your shadow
With our eyes shielded from the oncoming count
It's not hard for us to say what we should not
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
Touch me I'm cold, unable to control
Touch me I'm golden and wild as the wind blows
And tumbling, tumbling, don't go fascination
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
Let's get lost
Let's get lost
Let's get lost
Let's get lost
An innocent child in New Orleans
A simple girl from simple means
Walked the rails
Rode her thumb
She hitched a ride with everyone
The regular, she’d rearrange
The girl knew how to chop and change
Chop and change (Ooo)
Chop and change (Yeah)
Chop and change (Oh, oh, oh)
Chop and change (Yeah) alright
Took a job working late
Jacking cars from out of state
She found no love in this town
So she’d never mess around
Had no luck, but ain’t it strange
The girl knew how to chop and change
Chop and change (Oh, oh)
Chop and change (Come on, come on, come on, come on yeah)
Chop and change (Chop and change)
Chop and change (Oh)
Alright
A simple girl from simple means
Walked the rails
Rode her thumb
She hitched a ride with everyone
The regular, she’d rearrange
The girl knew how to chop and change
Chop and change (Ooo)
Chop and change (Yeah)
Chop and change (Oh, oh, oh)
Chop and change (Yeah) alright
Took a job working late
Jacking cars from out of state
She found no love in this town
So she’d never mess around
Had no luck, but ain’t it strange
The girl knew how to chop and change
Chop and change (Oh, oh)
Chop and change (Come on, come on, come on, come on yeah)
Chop and change (Chop and change)
Chop and change (Oh)
Alright
Other lives, always tempted to trade
Will they hate me for all the choices I made
Will they stop when they see me again
I can’t stop now I know who I am
Now I’m all yours, I’m not afraid
And you’re all mine, say what they may
And all your love I’ll take to the grave
And all my life starts now
Tear me down, they can’t take you out of my thoughts
Under every scar there’s a battle I’ve lost
Will they stop when they see us again
I can’t stop now I know who I am
Now I’m all yours, I’m not afraid
And you’re all mine, say what they may
And all your love I’ll take to the grave
And all my life starts
I’m all yours, I’m not afraid
And you’re all mine, say what they may
And all your love I’ll take to the grave
And all my life starts
Starts now
Will they hate me for all the choices I made
Will they stop when they see me again
I can’t stop now I know who I am
Now I’m all yours, I’m not afraid
And you’re all mine, say what they may
And all your love I’ll take to the grave
And all my life starts now
Tear me down, they can’t take you out of my thoughts
Under every scar there’s a battle I’ve lost
Will they stop when they see us again
I can’t stop now I know who I am
Now I’m all yours, I’m not afraid
And you’re all mine, say what they may
And all your love I’ll take to the grave
And all my life starts
I’m all yours, I’m not afraid
And you’re all mine, say what they may
And all your love I’ll take to the grave
And all my life starts
Starts now
Up with your turret
Aren’t we just terrified
Shale, screen your worry
From what you won’t ever find
Don’t let it fool you
Don’t let it fool you, down
Down’s sitting round
Folds in the gown
Sea and the rock below
Cocked to the undertow
Bones, blood and teeth erode
With every crashing node
Wings wouldn’t help you
Wings wouldn’t help you, down
Death is around
Prayer in your smile
You barely are blinking
Wagging your face around
When’d this just become
A mortal home
Ahhhh
Won’t, won’t, won’t, won’t
Won’t let you talk me
Won’t let you talk me, down
Will pull it taut
Nothing now
Aren’t we just terrified
Shale, screen your worry
From what you won’t ever find
Don’t let it fool you
Don’t let it fool you, down
Down’s sitting round
Folds in the gown
Sea and the rock below
Cocked to the undertow
Bones, blood and teeth erode
With every crashing node
Wings wouldn’t help you
Wings wouldn’t help you, down
Death is around
Prayer in your smile
You barely are blinking
Wagging your face around
When’d this just become
A mortal home
Ahhhh
Won’t, won’t, won’t, won’t
Won’t let you talk me
Won’t let you talk me, down
Will pull it taut
Nothing now