"Sometimes love isn't enough"
Those were the last words I ever heard Jacob Black say. At first, I didn’t care. For three years I didn’t care. I was too dark and thirsty to care about any of my past. I almost forgot some of it. I almost forgot him.
It’s been ten years and those fears of mine came true. The Volturi wanted me to join them and I refused. But they didn’t play nice. No, they didn’t, not at all. Instead of letting me walk away, sorry that I had refused their offer, they gave me an ultimatum. Either I joined them or the Cullen’s died. This time, they didn’t find a way out. This time...I lost everybody. I was forced to watch as Alice’s body was torn to pieces. I saw Edward’s guilty eyes as he whispered goodbye to me before they murdered him before my eyes. Then Jasper, then Esme, then Carlisise...and last was Rosalie.
“Kill me,” I had been freed after they were murdered. I didn’t run away though. I simply fell to the ground; all the supernatural strength in the world couldn’t hold me together now. “Please,” I begged the Volturi, “Kill me.”
“Sorry,” Jane walked up to me. “That would spoil everything.”
I was set free and I would have exposed myself and force the Volturi to kill me, but they responded with another threat. “If you do anything stupid, not only will you die, but so will everyone you ever cared about.”
“You already did that.” I had told them.
“We mean Charlie, Renee, and Jacob Black.” Jane smiled at me.
If I thought the heartbreaking pain coursing through my body couldn’t get any worse, I was completely wrong. It felt like somebody was stabbing my heart repeatedly, and crushing my soul with a hammer. This vampire body was not unbreakable by any means.
As I sat there writhing in emotional pain so strong it was physical, my heart reminded me of someone. Every memory, so perfectly clear, was dancing across my mind. Jacob. I was down at La Push, and Jacob was telling me stories of the cold ones; vampires. Just as soon as that memory coursed through me, I was somewhere else. I was recklessly driving the motorcycle Jacob fixed for me. Then, I was walking with Jacob through the woods, looking for the place Edward had taken in the past. So many...so much...I can’t handle it.
“I do believe our job is finished here.” I heard somebody whisper, but I was too far gone to tell just who it was. It was probably Jane though. She really had it out for me.
48 HOURS LATER
I don’t remember exactly what happened after I slipped away from reality. I don’t remember hallucinating or replays of old memories. I just remember being alone. Completely and utterly alone. Then I snapped back. I don’t know what brought me back, but when I came to, my thoughts were centered on Jacob.
Numbness took over, and the pain although close, felt so very far away. I knew this numbness could wear off in an instant, but for the time being I didn’t think about that. I focused on the task at hand; finding Jacob Black. I was in Italy, so I needed to get to Forks. After that, I’d make my way to La Push, and...And...And what? What was I going to do?
How was I supposed to go to Billy’s house, ask for Jake...who might be at college or living somewhere else, and if by some miracle Jake is there, what do I say? “Jake, I was right. That night before my wedding, I was right. They came. They killed him. They killed all of him.
Jake you told me that it would be okay. That you’d fix me...are you still mine?”
Mine. After all this time, I still felt like he was mine. Being with -- no, I couldn’t think his name -- made me forget that, but now that he was gone, it all came rushing back. It seemed inconceivable that Jacob Black didn’t belong to me; soul and body. But I knew, deep down I knew, that more than likely he had already imprinted.
I didn’t know if I could bear that.
I found my way to an airport, took the first flight to the U.S. I could catch and worked my way from there. I wasn’t sure if swimming would have went faster, but it seemed like flying was taking literally forever.
Forever. That word sent me spiraling down. That was the whole point, or rather most of the point, of me becoming a vampire; so I could spend forever with Edward Cullen and his family. It all seems like such a waste now. If I’d have just left him alone in the beginning. He warned me that I should leave him alone. Why didn’t I? It’s all my fault. And with that thought, the sweet numbness fades away, and I can’t feel pain attacking.
I wrapped my arms around myself, hugging the pain tightly away. It didn’t work.
“Are you cold, miss? You look awfully pale. Is there anything I can get you?” I heard the flight attendant speaking to me, but it was nearly impossible to acknowledge her.
“I...I am fine, thank you.”
“Okay. If you need anything at all, just --”
“I said I’m fine.” I hissed.
I’m fine. Just freaking fine, never mind the fact that my heart is bleeding, I’ve been separated from my family and from my soul mate.
As the people on the plane fell asleep, I looked out the window. “Edward,” I whispered, “Why’d you have to leave me?”
I wondered where he was now. Wherever he was, he was somewhere. Despite everything he may have believed, there is no possible way that Edward could just cease to exist. I refused to believe that.
Don’t worry, I heard his voice whisper in my ear as clearly as if he were sitting right beside me, everything will be okay.
“Edward!” I gasped.
Go find Jacob, his voice whispered firmly.
For a moment, I was thrilled. Then, I remembered, this happened before. Edward wasn’t really talking to me. It was just a delusion.
Those were the last words I ever heard Jacob Black say. At first, I didn’t care. For three years I didn’t care. I was too dark and thirsty to care about any of my past. I almost forgot some of it. I almost forgot him.
It’s been ten years and those fears of mine came true. The Volturi wanted me to join them and I refused. But they didn’t play nice. No, they didn’t, not at all. Instead of letting me walk away, sorry that I had refused their offer, they gave me an ultimatum. Either I joined them or the Cullen’s died. This time, they didn’t find a way out. This time...I lost everybody. I was forced to watch as Alice’s body was torn to pieces. I saw Edward’s guilty eyes as he whispered goodbye to me before they murdered him before my eyes. Then Jasper, then Esme, then Carlisise...and last was Rosalie.
“Kill me,” I had been freed after they were murdered. I didn’t run away though. I simply fell to the ground; all the supernatural strength in the world couldn’t hold me together now. “Please,” I begged the Volturi, “Kill me.”
“Sorry,” Jane walked up to me. “That would spoil everything.”
I was set free and I would have exposed myself and force the Volturi to kill me, but they responded with another threat. “If you do anything stupid, not only will you die, but so will everyone you ever cared about.”
“You already did that.” I had told them.
“We mean Charlie, Renee, and Jacob Black.” Jane smiled at me.
If I thought the heartbreaking pain coursing through my body couldn’t get any worse, I was completely wrong. It felt like somebody was stabbing my heart repeatedly, and crushing my soul with a hammer. This vampire body was not unbreakable by any means.
As I sat there writhing in emotional pain so strong it was physical, my heart reminded me of someone. Every memory, so perfectly clear, was dancing across my mind. Jacob. I was down at La Push, and Jacob was telling me stories of the cold ones; vampires. Just as soon as that memory coursed through me, I was somewhere else. I was recklessly driving the motorcycle Jacob fixed for me. Then, I was walking with Jacob through the woods, looking for the place Edward had taken in the past. So many...so much...I can’t handle it.
“I do believe our job is finished here.” I heard somebody whisper, but I was too far gone to tell just who it was. It was probably Jane though. She really had it out for me.
48 HOURS LATER
I don’t remember exactly what happened after I slipped away from reality. I don’t remember hallucinating or replays of old memories. I just remember being alone. Completely and utterly alone. Then I snapped back. I don’t know what brought me back, but when I came to, my thoughts were centered on Jacob.
Numbness took over, and the pain although close, felt so very far away. I knew this numbness could wear off in an instant, but for the time being I didn’t think about that. I focused on the task at hand; finding Jacob Black. I was in Italy, so I needed to get to Forks. After that, I’d make my way to La Push, and...And...And what? What was I going to do?
How was I supposed to go to Billy’s house, ask for Jake...who might be at college or living somewhere else, and if by some miracle Jake is there, what do I say? “Jake, I was right. That night before my wedding, I was right. They came. They killed him. They killed all of him.
Jake you told me that it would be okay. That you’d fix me...are you still mine?”
Mine. After all this time, I still felt like he was mine. Being with -- no, I couldn’t think his name -- made me forget that, but now that he was gone, it all came rushing back. It seemed inconceivable that Jacob Black didn’t belong to me; soul and body. But I knew, deep down I knew, that more than likely he had already imprinted.
I didn’t know if I could bear that.
I found my way to an airport, took the first flight to the U.S. I could catch and worked my way from there. I wasn’t sure if swimming would have went faster, but it seemed like flying was taking literally forever.
Forever. That word sent me spiraling down. That was the whole point, or rather most of the point, of me becoming a vampire; so I could spend forever with Edward Cullen and his family. It all seems like such a waste now. If I’d have just left him alone in the beginning. He warned me that I should leave him alone. Why didn’t I? It’s all my fault. And with that thought, the sweet numbness fades away, and I can’t feel pain attacking.
I wrapped my arms around myself, hugging the pain tightly away. It didn’t work.
“Are you cold, miss? You look awfully pale. Is there anything I can get you?” I heard the flight attendant speaking to me, but it was nearly impossible to acknowledge her.
“I...I am fine, thank you.”
“Okay. If you need anything at all, just --”
“I said I’m fine.” I hissed.
I’m fine. Just freaking fine, never mind the fact that my heart is bleeding, I’ve been separated from my family and from my soul mate.
As the people on the plane fell asleep, I looked out the window. “Edward,” I whispered, “Why’d you have to leave me?”
I wondered where he was now. Wherever he was, he was somewhere. Despite everything he may have believed, there is no possible way that Edward could just cease to exist. I refused to believe that.
Don’t worry, I heard his voice whisper in my ear as clearly as if he were sitting right beside me, everything will be okay.
“Edward!” I gasped.
Go find Jacob, his voice whispered firmly.
For a moment, I was thrilled. Then, I remembered, this happened before. Edward wasn’t really talking to me. It was just a delusion.
29th December 2010
Hi! I am Mary Alice Brandon Cullen, but i prefer to be called Alice! my family is:
me
Jasper
Bella
Edward
Rosalie
Emmet
carlisle
Esme
and Renesmee(Nessie!)
The reason i got this diary was because nessie forced me into it. " Look auntie Alice! i bought this for you!" That mean little angel! nessie bought me this diary, and you can't say no can you! so really this is annoying, and i probably won't even do a second entry!Nessie also bought me a blue jacket. there was 2 tickets that came with it. the tickets were to go to this beach place. " auntie Alice! do you like this coat? you won't like the tickets! i will take them! Jasper and me just looked at each other when she said that. Anyway she is growing up so fast i feel depressed. God, 200 years old tomorrow! Yay! I have to go now thought bye!
Hi! I am Mary Alice Brandon Cullen, but i prefer to be called Alice! my family is:
me
Jasper
Bella
Edward
Rosalie
Emmet
carlisle
Esme
and Renesmee(Nessie!)
The reason i got this diary was because nessie forced me into it. " Look auntie Alice! i bought this for you!" That mean little angel! nessie bought me this diary, and you can't say no can you! so really this is annoying, and i probably won't even do a second entry!Nessie also bought me a blue jacket. there was 2 tickets that came with it. the tickets were to go to this beach place. " auntie Alice! do you like this coat? you won't like the tickets! i will take them! Jasper and me just looked at each other when she said that. Anyway she is growing up so fast i feel depressed. God, 200 years old tomorrow! Yay! I have to go now thought bye!
I'm sooo sooo sooo sorry i haven't posted in like forever but I have a MAJOR writer's block. I will try to post more of my Unspoken story when i do not have writer's block
sincerely,
kayla
srry for all the extra space
sincerely,
kayla
srry for all the extra space
Hello, My Name Is: Death
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Later that day, Jerek was visiting with Verona, and I was bored off my ass. I was wanting to talk to Tabra, but every time I approached him, he was suddenly busy. We had people on watch guard, and Shropee didn't need me to do anything, so I was bored. Very. Bored.
"I'm bored." I said to Holly who was walking past me.
"Like I care!" She snapped, and continued on her way.
"Well." I got to my feet, and started off to see how Verona's doing.
When I got to the bottom of the steps, Jerek ran out of the room. "I'll be back. I'm getting Shropee."
"Wait. What? Why?" I asked. "Is she okay?"
"She's awake." Jerek called over his shoulder, and I gasped.
Verona's awake? Verona's awake. Verona's awake.
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Later that day, Jerek was visiting with Verona, and I was bored off my ass. I was wanting to talk to Tabra, but every time I approached him, he was suddenly busy. We had people on watch guard, and Shropee didn't need me to do anything, so I was bored. Very. Bored.
"I'm bored." I said to Holly who was walking past me.
"Like I care!" She snapped, and continued on her way.
"Well." I got to my feet, and started off to see how Verona's doing.
When I got to the bottom of the steps, Jerek ran out of the room. "I'll be back. I'm getting Shropee."
"Wait. What? Why?" I asked. "Is she okay?"
"She's awake." Jerek called over his shoulder, and I gasped.
Verona's awake? Verona's awake. Verona's awake.
Hear out my tortured soul
For I have nowhere else to go
You captured my dead, frozen heart
Now yours and mine’ll never be apart
You took my breath away
And in my heart you’ll always stay
You are my life now
Believe me, for this I vow
My brave and trusting love
From the heavens above
I’ll do everything for you
And I’ll always be true
When you called out my name
My life had never been the same
You kept my feet on the ground
‘Cause my purpose had been found
Your chocolate brown eyes
Are honest and wise
Through them I could see
How you irrevocably love me
For I have nowhere else to go
You captured my dead, frozen heart
Now yours and mine’ll never be apart
You took my breath away
And in my heart you’ll always stay
You are my life now
Believe me, for this I vow
My brave and trusting love
From the heavens above
I’ll do everything for you
And I’ll always be true
When you called out my name
My life had never been the same
You kept my feet on the ground
‘Cause my purpose had been found
Your chocolate brown eyes
Are honest and wise
Through them I could see
How you irrevocably love me