I'd always had some hope inside me, hope that shined like the brightest star, because that was just me. Yuri Satomi. I knew there was hope; that little light at the end of the long tunnel that kept someone walking, that hand always pulling you up when you don't know what to do anymore?
Well. That hope, if there ever was some inside me, was gone. Forever gone.
I guess I should start from the very beginning, my story, when I had first met Duncan.
I pounded on the carpeted floor. I was eleven, and really, really annoyed. I sobbed, long and deep, my blonde streak falling into my tear-stained eyes. "Stop it..." I managed, trying to push the twelve-year-old boy in front of me away. "Go away, Duncan."
"I won't go away," he insisted. "I just wanted to say hi!"
"Go AWAY!" I shouted, hitting him in the face, flinching as he drew back.
"Sorry, Yuri!" He gasped. "I said I was sorry."
I growled. "You are not sorry. You were never sorry. Leave me alone."
I stared into his eyes, feeling some of me sadness vanish, and it was abruptly replaced by wonder and a weird longing.
"Dammit, Duncan," I whispered. "Go away."
"Forget it, Yuri!" He snapped, and he ran away, and I had no idea what he was up to.
My knees crumpled, and I fell to the ground, sobbing. My cheek brushed a dandelion, and I groaned. A single, clear teardrop spattered on my blue sweater, and I gave in to myself, lying there. I didn't think I could do anything else. He had done that to me, Duncan had hurt me, maybe for life. He... he said that he didn't care about me anymore. We were best friends, and then he just said it, out of nowhere, leaving me hanging.
I lay there until my favorite teacher, Ms. Lyrine, found me there, and brushed my tears off my face. "Kiyuri?"
I tried to speak, but I coughed instead to keep from crying.
"Kiyuri."
I sobbed.
"What did Duncan do?"
"It's all his fault," I murmured. "He said..."
I paused. "Go on," Ms. Lyrine urged.
"He said that I wasn't his best friend anymore. He said that he didn't care about me. He said that he would by happy if I died!"
"I didn't," Duncan murmured, and I realized that he was there, behind my teacher.
"You did!" I screamed. "You said you..."
"I know what I said, Yuri. I didn't mean it!"
"Stop it. Go away."
"Duncan, why did you say that to Kiyuri?"
"I said I didn't mean it!" Duncan argued.
"Do not EVER say that again, if you didn't mean it, Duncan."
I blinked, and the tears threatened to overflow.
"Alright, ma'am," Duncan gave in.
I smirked.
"Thank you, Duncan." Ms. Lyrine's voice was soft. "There, now. Are you okay, Yuri?"
No,, I almost said. No way. How do you expect me to be OKAY?!
But all I did was nod. What else could I do?
Ms. Lyrine patted my hair. And she left, leaving me and Duncan.
"Yuri, why won't you believe me?"
"Because I don't." I shivered.
Duncan sniffed. "Why don't you?"
"Because that's all you are." My voice was dangerous. "That's all you want, power. You don't care about anyone, Duncan. Not me, not anyone."
"That's not true!" He protested. "Yuri!"
I avoided staring into his eyes, so that wouldn't distract me.
"It's true," I snarled. I'd never been easy to forgive someone. "And you know what, Duncan? I don't care, either. I don't care if you go away, if you disappear from this world forever."
It wasn't true, obviously, but at that moment, I just wanted to hurt him. I would do anything.
He patted my head, and I stared at him. "What?"
"Yuri..."
"I said, what?" I demanded.
"I care, Yuri," he said seriously.
"I don't," I snapped.
Duncan sighed. "I'll leave you, Yuri. If you want."
"Go away forever. Do that, and I'll be happy."
He smiled. "Not likely, Yuri."
"Go away!" I repeated, with more emphasis.
And he did, leaving me there, along, my face buried in the long grass, wishing I was dead.
Well. That hope, if there ever was some inside me, was gone. Forever gone.
I guess I should start from the very beginning, my story, when I had first met Duncan.
I pounded on the carpeted floor. I was eleven, and really, really annoyed. I sobbed, long and deep, my blonde streak falling into my tear-stained eyes. "Stop it..." I managed, trying to push the twelve-year-old boy in front of me away. "Go away, Duncan."
"I won't go away," he insisted. "I just wanted to say hi!"
"Go AWAY!" I shouted, hitting him in the face, flinching as he drew back.
"Sorry, Yuri!" He gasped. "I said I was sorry."
I growled. "You are not sorry. You were never sorry. Leave me alone."
I stared into his eyes, feeling some of me sadness vanish, and it was abruptly replaced by wonder and a weird longing.
"Dammit, Duncan," I whispered. "Go away."
"Forget it, Yuri!" He snapped, and he ran away, and I had no idea what he was up to.
My knees crumpled, and I fell to the ground, sobbing. My cheek brushed a dandelion, and I groaned. A single, clear teardrop spattered on my blue sweater, and I gave in to myself, lying there. I didn't think I could do anything else. He had done that to me, Duncan had hurt me, maybe for life. He... he said that he didn't care about me anymore. We were best friends, and then he just said it, out of nowhere, leaving me hanging.
I lay there until my favorite teacher, Ms. Lyrine, found me there, and brushed my tears off my face. "Kiyuri?"
I tried to speak, but I coughed instead to keep from crying.
"Kiyuri."
I sobbed.
"What did Duncan do?"
"It's all his fault," I murmured. "He said..."
I paused. "Go on," Ms. Lyrine urged.
"He said that I wasn't his best friend anymore. He said that he didn't care about me. He said that he would by happy if I died!"
"I didn't," Duncan murmured, and I realized that he was there, behind my teacher.
"You did!" I screamed. "You said you..."
"I know what I said, Yuri. I didn't mean it!"
"Stop it. Go away."
"Duncan, why did you say that to Kiyuri?"
"I said I didn't mean it!" Duncan argued.
"Do not EVER say that again, if you didn't mean it, Duncan."
I blinked, and the tears threatened to overflow.
"Alright, ma'am," Duncan gave in.
I smirked.
"Thank you, Duncan." Ms. Lyrine's voice was soft. "There, now. Are you okay, Yuri?"
No,, I almost said. No way. How do you expect me to be OKAY?!
But all I did was nod. What else could I do?
Ms. Lyrine patted my hair. And she left, leaving me and Duncan.
"Yuri, why won't you believe me?"
"Because I don't." I shivered.
Duncan sniffed. "Why don't you?"
"Because that's all you are." My voice was dangerous. "That's all you want, power. You don't care about anyone, Duncan. Not me, not anyone."
"That's not true!" He protested. "Yuri!"
I avoided staring into his eyes, so that wouldn't distract me.
"It's true," I snarled. I'd never been easy to forgive someone. "And you know what, Duncan? I don't care, either. I don't care if you go away, if you disappear from this world forever."
It wasn't true, obviously, but at that moment, I just wanted to hurt him. I would do anything.
He patted my head, and I stared at him. "What?"
"Yuri..."
"I said, what?" I demanded.
"I care, Yuri," he said seriously.
"I don't," I snapped.
Duncan sighed. "I'll leave you, Yuri. If you want."
"Go away forever. Do that, and I'll be happy."
He smiled. "Not likely, Yuri."
"Go away!" I repeated, with more emphasis.
And he did, leaving me there, along, my face buried in the long grass, wishing I was dead.
*confessanails*
scout:*sighs* hard decision... NOT goodbye aj
mike:i vote off owen for bdeing a fat a** even when small
ilana:mrph...i want camielle off...she is planning to kick me off for kicking off courtney she is lovesick over her i mean i don`t want to get elemanated but i want camielle out i,m not ready to go home yet
*end of confessanails*
*votting gym*
chris:the 1st vote is for owen
owen:huh okay
chris:1 vote aj
aj:what
scout:i said not
chris:but you said aj
scout & aj:grrrr
chris:2 votes owen
owen:yea move on
chris:1 vote gwen
gwen:what how
chris:1 vote izzy
izzy:i know who did this grrr
chris:2 votes gwen
gwen:what the heck
mike:yea
chris:3 votes owen
owen:well it look like i,m out
izzy:a kiss before you go
owen:ok
chris:no time *thoughs owen out* what will happen next time on total drama reloaded
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plz put all confessanails in commnets
scout:*sighs* hard decision... NOT goodbye aj
mike:i vote off owen for bdeing a fat a** even when small
ilana:mrph...i want camielle off...she is planning to kick me off for kicking off courtney she is lovesick over her i mean i don`t want to get elemanated but i want camielle out i,m not ready to go home yet
*end of confessanails*
*votting gym*
chris:the 1st vote is for owen
owen:huh okay
chris:1 vote aj
aj:what
scout:i said not
chris:but you said aj
scout & aj:grrrr
chris:2 votes owen
owen:yea move on
chris:1 vote gwen
gwen:what how
chris:1 vote izzy
izzy:i know who did this grrr
chris:2 votes gwen
gwen:what the heck
mike:yea
chris:3 votes owen
owen:well it look like i,m out
izzy:a kiss before you go
owen:ok
chris:no time *thoughs owen out* what will happen next time on total drama reloaded
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plz put all confessanails in commnets
Bridgette:I was puddy in his hands and it was a mess!
Chouras:Ooh ya!
Bridgette:When I was really close to winning sucsess!
Chourus:Ooh ya!
Bridgette:I tried to fit 2 men in my soul!
Chourus:Ooh ya!
Bridgette:I ended up stuck on a pole!
Both:Stuck stuck stuck shouldof looked worse of luck!Stuck,stuck to a pole!Stuck!
Bridgette:He almost kissed when he went on a sled!
Chourus:Ooh bad!
Bridgette:And that jerk just when on ahead!
Chourus:Ooh a!
Bridgette:While here I am still stuck to a pole!
Both:Stuck stuck stuck really sucks worst of luck!Stuck,stuck to a pole!Stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck!Stuck to a pole...
Bridgette:Oh crap!
Both:...Stuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!YA!
Chouras:Ooh ya!
Bridgette:When I was really close to winning sucsess!
Chourus:Ooh ya!
Bridgette:I tried to fit 2 men in my soul!
Chourus:Ooh ya!
Bridgette:I ended up stuck on a pole!
Both:Stuck stuck stuck shouldof looked worse of luck!Stuck,stuck to a pole!Stuck!
Bridgette:He almost kissed when he went on a sled!
Chourus:Ooh bad!
Bridgette:And that jerk just when on ahead!
Chourus:Ooh a!
Bridgette:While here I am still stuck to a pole!
Both:Stuck stuck stuck really sucks worst of luck!Stuck,stuck to a pole!Stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck!Stuck to a pole...
Bridgette:Oh crap!
Both:...Stuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!YA!
Chris: Alright the votes have been counted. And the loser is. LARA! Sorry, but uh, I kinda saw it coming so uh. BYE, BYE!
Lara: *sighs* *closes eyes* Fine, I'll leave.
Lara, goes in a car with candy and gifts in it. Chris put those in there so the losers would feel better about losing.
Chris: Kay, now that the elimination ceremony is over were going to add new members to Total Drama LIFE!
Please welcome, Penny and Jakob!
Jake: Uhh, it's JAKE.
Chris: Whatever. I'm going to put you two on the Screaming Liars' team so you'll be having a great time because they're winning! *giggles* Alex Leonard you will be on the Loving Cheaters team.
Alex L: *in confessional* OH MY F*CKING GOD!!! How am I gonna prove to Bree I REALLY like her? *screams like a girl*
Chris: *in confessional* Yeah..... I kinda wanted that to happen to him. *laughs* Until the next episode of Total Drama LIFE!!!
Lara: *sighs* *closes eyes* Fine, I'll leave.
Lara, goes in a car with candy and gifts in it. Chris put those in there so the losers would feel better about losing.
Chris: Kay, now that the elimination ceremony is over were going to add new members to Total Drama LIFE!
Please welcome, Penny and Jakob!
Jake: Uhh, it's JAKE.
Chris: Whatever. I'm going to put you two on the Screaming Liars' team so you'll be having a great time because they're winning! *giggles* Alex Leonard you will be on the Loving Cheaters team.
Alex L: *in confessional* OH MY F*CKING GOD!!! How am I gonna prove to Bree I REALLY like her? *screams like a girl*
Chris: *in confessional* Yeah..... I kinda wanted that to happen to him. *laughs* Until the next episode of Total Drama LIFE!!!