I've been watching NCIS since I was 11 and I've shipped Tony and Ziva since I was 12. I've grown up with them.
There have been times in my life where I've thought that I didn't think I could carry on. But through it all, they have always been there. You may say that it's pathetic to be so emotionally invested in something fictional (and I probably would've said that before I saw them together), but when you love your OTP as much as I love mine, you don't really care.
Ziva arrived after Kate died but as soon as she came I realised that something special was going to happen. You can't have a first meeting like that and not have something come of it, right? When they stood outside that hotel and she opened up to him about her sister's death, I legitimately got butterflies in my stomach. She'd only just met him and THIS was happening?! It just further confirmed my suspicions.
After 11 episodes, they became my ultimate OTP. I'd never loved (and still don't) a ship more. I'd never seen so many facets to a relationship before in such a small period of time. We'd seen their passionate side, their protective side, their flirty/banter side, their angry side. I'd felt so many emotions. It was like my heart had been pumped with this ship and I couldn't stop it.
In Season 4, my heart broke. It was like my heart had been ripped from my chest and I was so angry and disappointed and all these emotions that I didn't know existed.
Tony and Ziva make me feel so many emotions and it's so exciting and soul destroying and I'm still sitting here waiting because that feeling I got (and still get) each week, waiting for an amazing scene is still one of the biggest rushes ever. It's like adrenaline.
When you wait for something for six years and still have hope? That's when you know you truly love it.
When they have a scene, I feel like I'm right there along with them. That eye!sex scene in the bullpen? I could feel the emotions they were feelings, that electricity was going through me. The elevator scene in Swan Song? I felt comforted and safe. The moment when Tony saw Ziva for the first time in Truth or Consequences? I felt rescued too, because without them, I was lost and everything felt okay again when he found her.
I felt it.
I met the girls back in 2009 after the Season 6 finale. I was heartbroken back then, too. We'd just had basically had the first biggest confirmation that our ship was definitely endgame and yet my shipper heart had been metaphorically strangled.
There were only a few of us back then and the spot was basically dead. We all supported each other and their postivity made me think postitively too.
What I love about our fandom is that when people get onboard the ship, they rarely jump. They may spread themselves out over a few interlacing ships, but Tiva is always at the forefront for most.
The people have definitely made me love the ship even more. I love talking to the girls and Nic about the latest events and just knowing that you've gained friends for life just makes it so much more worthwhile.
What I'm really trying to say is... Tony and Ziva have made me feel things that no other ship has or ever will. I've laughed until I've cried, cried until I've laughed, been heartbroken and just had the goofiest grin for no reason. I literally couldn't (and probably wouldn't be) live without them. I couldn't stop loving them, even if I wanted to.
They've made me realise that, no matter how messed up you are, someone will see your potential and love you for exactly who you are. There is someone out there who believes in you and trusts you with their life.
Someone who will always have your back.
There have been times in my life where I've thought that I didn't think I could carry on. But through it all, they have always been there. You may say that it's pathetic to be so emotionally invested in something fictional (and I probably would've said that before I saw them together), but when you love your OTP as much as I love mine, you don't really care.
Ziva arrived after Kate died but as soon as she came I realised that something special was going to happen. You can't have a first meeting like that and not have something come of it, right? When they stood outside that hotel and she opened up to him about her sister's death, I legitimately got butterflies in my stomach. She'd only just met him and THIS was happening?! It just further confirmed my suspicions.
After 11 episodes, they became my ultimate OTP. I'd never loved (and still don't) a ship more. I'd never seen so many facets to a relationship before in such a small period of time. We'd seen their passionate side, their protective side, their flirty/banter side, their angry side. I'd felt so many emotions. It was like my heart had been pumped with this ship and I couldn't stop it.
In Season 4, my heart broke. It was like my heart had been ripped from my chest and I was so angry and disappointed and all these emotions that I didn't know existed.
Tony and Ziva make me feel so many emotions and it's so exciting and soul destroying and I'm still sitting here waiting because that feeling I got (and still get) each week, waiting for an amazing scene is still one of the biggest rushes ever. It's like adrenaline.
When you wait for something for six years and still have hope? That's when you know you truly love it.
When they have a scene, I feel like I'm right there along with them. That eye!sex scene in the bullpen? I could feel the emotions they were feelings, that electricity was going through me. The elevator scene in Swan Song? I felt comforted and safe. The moment when Tony saw Ziva for the first time in Truth or Consequences? I felt rescued too, because without them, I was lost and everything felt okay again when he found her.
I felt it.
I met the girls back in 2009 after the Season 6 finale. I was heartbroken back then, too. We'd just had basically had the first biggest confirmation that our ship was definitely endgame and yet my shipper heart had been metaphorically strangled.
There were only a few of us back then and the spot was basically dead. We all supported each other and their postivity made me think postitively too.
What I love about our fandom is that when people get onboard the ship, they rarely jump. They may spread themselves out over a few interlacing ships, but Tiva is always at the forefront for most.
The people have definitely made me love the ship even more. I love talking to the girls and Nic about the latest events and just knowing that you've gained friends for life just makes it so much more worthwhile.
What I'm really trying to say is... Tony and Ziva have made me feel things that no other ship has or ever will. I've laughed until I've cried, cried until I've laughed, been heartbroken and just had the goofiest grin for no reason. I literally couldn't (and probably wouldn't be) live without them. I couldn't stop loving them, even if I wanted to.
They've made me realise that, no matter how messed up you are, someone will see your potential and love you for exactly who you are. There is someone out there who believes in you and trusts you with their life.
Someone who will always have your back.