Chapter 27
*for those of you who have forgotten, it's night time! For the next three chapters! All the same night! FUN TIMES!:D*
(Gwen's P.O.V.)
"WHY?!" I screamed into my pillow that was Leshawna's legs. Duncan had just tried to talk to me, and a camera man was right over his shoulder. Not wanting Chris to catch me bawling on tape, and not wanting to talk to Duncan, I had shrieked and pulled the covers over my head.
"Just let it out, girl, let it all out..." Leshawna said soothingly.
I began rambling about how much I had told Duncan. I ranted and cried until it all didn't make sense. I felt like such an idiot... I knew from the first day at that damn camp, he'd never fall for a girl like me... I mean, we were best friends, but I guessed that I had been getting my hopes up. I knew it couldn't have been real. It was too good to be true. He still liked...
The door opened abruptly, and in came Courtney. I immediately tried to calm down, but it hardly worked.
One look at me, and Court's face looked suddenly guilty and sad.
"Guys, let me talk to Gwen alone, please..." she said quietly.
"I don't trust you, Courtney." growled Beth, crossing her arms.
"Don't do anything to her or I'll but you in a whole lot of pain!" threatened Leshawna.
"Okay, Cindy! Bye Gwen!" Lindsay chirped obliviously.
Courtney facepalmed. "Lindsay, my name is Courtney, remember? The C.I.T.?" she said kindly.
"Oh dear lord: not this CIT crap again," groaned Leshawna.
With my breathing getting steadier, Leshawna whispered in my ear, "Be careful, Gwen." then left with Beth, Lindsay, and Izzy.
Now it's just me and Courtney.
I sat up in my bunk, wiping my eyes, still sniffling and holding back more tears.
She sat down on the bottom bunk across from mine, and looked at me sadly.
"Gwen, I... I feel so guilty..." she began. "Duncan had told me you two had broken up when I got with him again..."
"We're broken up now! Take him for all I care!!" I shouted as I felt a few tears go down my face.
"Well I don't want him," said Courtney coldly.
"Wh-Wha...?"
"I don't want him!" The brunette looked up at me seriously. "Seeing him do this to you made me realize he's a self centered, lying player."
We sat in silence for a while.
"You don't want him..." I murmured, wiping my eyes again. Courtney looked at me with a sad smile.
"I know a song that fits this situation perfectly. You wanna sing a song with me, Gwen?"
"I hate singing. I only like listening to heavy metal bands." I glared at her through my tear-blurred eyes.
"You sure?" She seemed very sincere.
Reluctantly, I said, "F-Fine. I'll join in if I feel like it." I crossed my arms and stared at the floor.
Courtney began.
"You look so dumb right now,"
"HEY!" My head snapped up to look at her.
"No, no, no, not you. She's talking about a boy. Let me continue:
You look so dumb right now,
Standing outside my house,
Trying to apologize.
You're so ugly when you cry, so please" -she made a 'Talk-to-the-Hand' gesture- "just cut it out.
And don't tell me you're sorry, 'cause you're not.
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught..."
She blushed and stopped singing. "The song" she said, "is about how Rhianna's boyfriend cheated on her, and she found out, so she's telling him he's just been putting on a show, and he's not actually sorry for cheating. He's only sorry for himself, that he let himself get caught with the other girl." She blushed more. "Guilty,"
I sat there, speechless. The song fit so well. I don't even know what to say in this narration thing, that's how speechless I am.
"Courtney..." I finally said. "I forgive you."
Her face lit up with happiness. "You mean it?" she asked.
"Yeah," I smiled at her.
Courtney kept from her bunk and hugged me tight.
"OUFF!" I grunted. Hugging her back, I looked at the door and saw Leshawna, Beth, Lindsay, and Izzy. Leshawna and Izzy gave me a weirded out smile, Beth glared at Courtney unforgivingly, and Lindsay was talking with the cameraman behind Beth.
"Oh Gwen, is there anything I can do to make it up to you?" Courtney asked, releasing me.
"Have your lawyers sue him!" Izzy laughed maniacally.
Chapter 28
(Courtney's P.O.V.)
I left the trailer, happy with my new friendship I had established with Gwen. I had asked her if I could make it up to her somehow, but she said maybe later. The other girls joined us and we talked for a while. I had a good time.
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I was ready to tell Duncan off. Gwen is so much nice than I had thought, and having him break her heart was unacceptable.
Behind the dude's trailer, I found Duncan where I had left him. He was examining the rubber ducky Gwen had thrown at him.
"You jerk," I sneered. Duncan jumped to his feet , frightened. He whipped his head around to look at me. "Don't do that to me, woman!"
"How could you break Gwen's heart like that?! I may not have thought that I'd feel bad for her ever before, but when I saw her face..." I let my scowl fade. I sighed, exasperated. "I can't believe I made someone cry like that. I felt so guilty. And you should feel guilty too! You're the one who tricked Gwen in the first place! She put all of her trust in you. All of her love. And you blew it off because you thought of her as a pretend doll! Your play thing! That's what you wanted me to be like! Y'know, I used to want to change you so you'd be my dream guy. But I realize now, if I want to change you to be my dream guy, you aren't my dream guy! And you wanted to change me so I'd be like Gwen! What does that say to you?!"
We sat in silence.
Duncan finally spoke up. "... Nothing. I wanna date you, not Gwen. Are you an idiot for not realizing that by now?!"
"YOU'RE the idiot! You liked everything about Gwen, not me! How Gwen acts is your vision of your dream girl, right?!"
"Yeah..."
I stood there, looking at him. He was so dense and insensitive. "So why isn't Gwen your dream girl?" I said softly. Duncan stayed silent. Then he walked into the woods.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
He didn't reply.
Chapter 29
(Duncan's P.O.V.)
I thought about what Courtney said as I trudged through the forest to the bridge, where Gwen and I had our first kiss. Like that even matters.
(Gwen's P.O.V.)
Turning to Leshawna, I said, "I'm gonna go take a walk."
"Girl, you need to go to sleep. It's late. Don't stay up any longer!"
"I'll be back soon, don't worry."
We did our special handshake, and I left for the bridge. Where Duncan and I had our first kiss. I wondered if he still cared. Or ever cared.
I looked all around me to see if there were any cameras. There weren't, so I pressed on through the forest.
When I got to the bridge, I sat down on the guard rails, looking at the river that passed underneath it. A lot had taken place today.
I found out Duncan never really liked me.
I became friends with Courtney.
I t doesn't seem like much, but that is a lot, considering who and what I am to those two.
I heard footsteps approach, then a stifled gasp. I looked to my right. Shit...
To avoid him, I hopped back onto the bridge and walked in the opposite direction.
"Gwen," he said.
Something in my body stopped me. I turned around to face Duncan, trying to hold back my tears.
(Duncan's P.O.V.)
I stopped Gwen before she could leave. Looking at her face was almost... Painful. I saw all of the tear stains on her cheeks.
I'm not saying I feel guilty. I only pleaded guilty ONCE, and that was when Mom threatened to take away Scruffy if I didn't do time in prison.
Gwen's expression looked... dead. Wh-whatever.
"Gwen..." I said again. "I'm... I'm sorry I tricked you."
She just stared at me with the same expression. "What does it matter now? I can't just forgive you for this..."
"Is it really my fault that I didn't expect you to really like me that much?! Nobody's ever liked me like that!"
"Courtney and I BOTH liked you that much! Ever since season one, we liked you that much! Emphasis on the past tense!"
She pushed past me then ran back towards the set. I looked off after her. Then I heard a cough from the bushes.
"God DAMMIT, man!" I shouted. I leaped at the bush and landed on a person, but it wasn't McClean. It was a blonde-haired intern with an orange sweatshirt and a camera in hand. She looked scared out of her wits.
Groaning, I stood up and sat on the bridge muttering. "Damn Chris and all of his damn interns..."
The world is gonna hate me even more when they see that footage of me fighting with Gwen. I'm still not saying I feel guilty. Because I don't.
*for those of you who have forgotten, it's night time! For the next three chapters! All the same night! FUN TIMES!:D*
(Gwen's P.O.V.)
"WHY?!" I screamed into my pillow that was Leshawna's legs. Duncan had just tried to talk to me, and a camera man was right over his shoulder. Not wanting Chris to catch me bawling on tape, and not wanting to talk to Duncan, I had shrieked and pulled the covers over my head.
"Just let it out, girl, let it all out..." Leshawna said soothingly.
I began rambling about how much I had told Duncan. I ranted and cried until it all didn't make sense. I felt like such an idiot... I knew from the first day at that damn camp, he'd never fall for a girl like me... I mean, we were best friends, but I guessed that I had been getting my hopes up. I knew it couldn't have been real. It was too good to be true. He still liked...
The door opened abruptly, and in came Courtney. I immediately tried to calm down, but it hardly worked.
One look at me, and Court's face looked suddenly guilty and sad.
"Guys, let me talk to Gwen alone, please..." she said quietly.
"I don't trust you, Courtney." growled Beth, crossing her arms.
"Don't do anything to her or I'll but you in a whole lot of pain!" threatened Leshawna.
"Okay, Cindy! Bye Gwen!" Lindsay chirped obliviously.
Courtney facepalmed. "Lindsay, my name is Courtney, remember? The C.I.T.?" she said kindly.
"Oh dear lord: not this CIT crap again," groaned Leshawna.
With my breathing getting steadier, Leshawna whispered in my ear, "Be careful, Gwen." then left with Beth, Lindsay, and Izzy.
Now it's just me and Courtney.
I sat up in my bunk, wiping my eyes, still sniffling and holding back more tears.
She sat down on the bottom bunk across from mine, and looked at me sadly.
"Gwen, I... I feel so guilty..." she began. "Duncan had told me you two had broken up when I got with him again..."
"We're broken up now! Take him for all I care!!" I shouted as I felt a few tears go down my face.
"Well I don't want him," said Courtney coldly.
"Wh-Wha...?"
"I don't want him!" The brunette looked up at me seriously. "Seeing him do this to you made me realize he's a self centered, lying player."
We sat in silence for a while.
"You don't want him..." I murmured, wiping my eyes again. Courtney looked at me with a sad smile.
"I know a song that fits this situation perfectly. You wanna sing a song with me, Gwen?"
"I hate singing. I only like listening to heavy metal bands." I glared at her through my tear-blurred eyes.
"You sure?" She seemed very sincere.
Reluctantly, I said, "F-Fine. I'll join in if I feel like it." I crossed my arms and stared at the floor.
Courtney began.
"You look so dumb right now,"
"HEY!" My head snapped up to look at her.
"No, no, no, not you. She's talking about a boy. Let me continue:
You look so dumb right now,
Standing outside my house,
Trying to apologize.
You're so ugly when you cry, so please" -she made a 'Talk-to-the-Hand' gesture- "just cut it out.
And don't tell me you're sorry, 'cause you're not.
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught..."
She blushed and stopped singing. "The song" she said, "is about how Rhianna's boyfriend cheated on her, and she found out, so she's telling him he's just been putting on a show, and he's not actually sorry for cheating. He's only sorry for himself, that he let himself get caught with the other girl." She blushed more. "Guilty,"
I sat there, speechless. The song fit so well. I don't even know what to say in this narration thing, that's how speechless I am.
"Courtney..." I finally said. "I forgive you."
Her face lit up with happiness. "You mean it?" she asked.
"Yeah," I smiled at her.
Courtney kept from her bunk and hugged me tight.
"OUFF!" I grunted. Hugging her back, I looked at the door and saw Leshawna, Beth, Lindsay, and Izzy. Leshawna and Izzy gave me a weirded out smile, Beth glared at Courtney unforgivingly, and Lindsay was talking with the cameraman behind Beth.
"Oh Gwen, is there anything I can do to make it up to you?" Courtney asked, releasing me.
"Have your lawyers sue him!" Izzy laughed maniacally.
Chapter 28
(Courtney's P.O.V.)
I left the trailer, happy with my new friendship I had established with Gwen. I had asked her if I could make it up to her somehow, but she said maybe later. The other girls joined us and we talked for a while. I had a good time.
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I was ready to tell Duncan off. Gwen is so much nice than I had thought, and having him break her heart was unacceptable.
Behind the dude's trailer, I found Duncan where I had left him. He was examining the rubber ducky Gwen had thrown at him.
"You jerk," I sneered. Duncan jumped to his feet , frightened. He whipped his head around to look at me. "Don't do that to me, woman!"
"How could you break Gwen's heart like that?! I may not have thought that I'd feel bad for her ever before, but when I saw her face..." I let my scowl fade. I sighed, exasperated. "I can't believe I made someone cry like that. I felt so guilty. And you should feel guilty too! You're the one who tricked Gwen in the first place! She put all of her trust in you. All of her love. And you blew it off because you thought of her as a pretend doll! Your play thing! That's what you wanted me to be like! Y'know, I used to want to change you so you'd be my dream guy. But I realize now, if I want to change you to be my dream guy, you aren't my dream guy! And you wanted to change me so I'd be like Gwen! What does that say to you?!"
We sat in silence.
Duncan finally spoke up. "... Nothing. I wanna date you, not Gwen. Are you an idiot for not realizing that by now?!"
"YOU'RE the idiot! You liked everything about Gwen, not me! How Gwen acts is your vision of your dream girl, right?!"
"Yeah..."
I stood there, looking at him. He was so dense and insensitive. "So why isn't Gwen your dream girl?" I said softly. Duncan stayed silent. Then he walked into the woods.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
He didn't reply.
Chapter 29
(Duncan's P.O.V.)
I thought about what Courtney said as I trudged through the forest to the bridge, where Gwen and I had our first kiss. Like that even matters.
(Gwen's P.O.V.)
Turning to Leshawna, I said, "I'm gonna go take a walk."
"Girl, you need to go to sleep. It's late. Don't stay up any longer!"
"I'll be back soon, don't worry."
We did our special handshake, and I left for the bridge. Where Duncan and I had our first kiss. I wondered if he still cared. Or ever cared.
I looked all around me to see if there were any cameras. There weren't, so I pressed on through the forest.
When I got to the bridge, I sat down on the guard rails, looking at the river that passed underneath it. A lot had taken place today.
I found out Duncan never really liked me.
I became friends with Courtney.
I t doesn't seem like much, but that is a lot, considering who and what I am to those two.
I heard footsteps approach, then a stifled gasp. I looked to my right. Shit...
To avoid him, I hopped back onto the bridge and walked in the opposite direction.
"Gwen," he said.
Something in my body stopped me. I turned around to face Duncan, trying to hold back my tears.
(Duncan's P.O.V.)
I stopped Gwen before she could leave. Looking at her face was almost... Painful. I saw all of the tear stains on her cheeks.
I'm not saying I feel guilty. I only pleaded guilty ONCE, and that was when Mom threatened to take away Scruffy if I didn't do time in prison.
Gwen's expression looked... dead. Wh-whatever.
"Gwen..." I said again. "I'm... I'm sorry I tricked you."
She just stared at me with the same expression. "What does it matter now? I can't just forgive you for this..."
"Is it really my fault that I didn't expect you to really like me that much?! Nobody's ever liked me like that!"
"Courtney and I BOTH liked you that much! Ever since season one, we liked you that much! Emphasis on the past tense!"
She pushed past me then ran back towards the set. I looked off after her. Then I heard a cough from the bushes.
"God DAMMIT, man!" I shouted. I leaped at the bush and landed on a person, but it wasn't McClean. It was a blonde-haired intern with an orange sweatshirt and a camera in hand. She looked scared out of her wits.
Groaning, I stood up and sat on the bridge muttering. "Damn Chris and all of his damn interns..."
The world is gonna hate me even more when they see that footage of me fighting with Gwen. I'm still not saying I feel guilty. Because I don't.
