something I wrote a while back finding it remembering sitting on the bed thinking of u hearing u say *I love u* for the first time on the phone that night this is what came out of my heart and soul

*sitting here staring off in my own world
thinking of those words only 3
as something more?
something less?
will I ever know?
I could ppl yelling for me in the background
but I pay them no mind
the warmth and the feeling that is growing inside my heart
I fear it be ik it may not be real
oh plz let it be real
laying back on the bed still hearing ur voice
wondering what u look like
what color ur eyes...

I left this site for reasons that are understandable assholes on this site got to me abuse at home that eas devastating my emotioans and physical being so I decided to leave and let everyone think i was dead because I was close to it anyway no one wanted me and the ones that did lied and used me so I gave up.

Before I left I talked to one person who was going through something bad his gf was cheating and he needed someone so I stuck around to make him feel better friendship was bloomed then a spark in to a wonderful love we where hooked in love

Soon skyping was fun and we fell more in love...