Dear reader,
if youāre reading this, youāre one of my closest friends. You literally mean the world to me, and I never want to lose you. I feel like we belong together, it wasnāt an accident that we met.
Well, first if youāre reading this, you should know that this was supposed to be a birthday letter. I was so worried that I was going to be late of course, thatās me I guess. Iāve made mistakes and disappointed you for a long time, havenāt I? Multiple things Iāve done and Iām so ashamed now. I havenāt been the perfect friend but thatās assumed isnāt it? You havenāt been perfect either, but I didnāt want perfect. I call you āperfectā a lot because I canāt find any other word to describe you. I wanted a friend like you, canāt you see that? I wanted you and I got you. I know you feel insecure and doubtful about yourself a lot,and every compliment I give you, youāll disagree with, but you can never disagree with the fact that I wanted someone like you and I got someone better. Iām so blessed and I will never stop thanking you for how amazing you are and I will never stop trying to make you happy.
I know Iāve thanked you a lot, Iāve written articles and said a million compliments. Iām writing this right now, I wish I could do so much more. But itās 12:00 a.m as I write this, and Iām putting a lot into this. Just recently, I wrote an article of 10 reasons why I think youāre unique and special. Iām so proud of that, you see, because now you can see for yourself all the reasons why I love you.
I said I disappointed you. You may have disagreed with that. Maybe you remembered? The one thing that really stands out in my mind, that hurts me everyday, was the promise I broke. It wasnāt just a promise, I gave you my word that I wouldnāt do that again, we promised each other, and I broke it. I had the audacity to do that? I know youāve forgiven me, but I could have lost you. I see it in my scars everyday, and I feel the mistrust you have in me now because of my actions. I know that I let you down, I feel it and see it everyday. But in a few years, Iām going to get a tattoo that says āDonāt break the promise you gave to a queenā just to remind me. Iām sorry again by the way.
But I donāt want to make you sad, birthday girl. I know it seems like Iām trying but Iām not, I just want to be honest I guess.
I worry about you a lot you know, but I know that youāre okay or you will be. I know that youāre life has been so difficult but thatās why I respect you. More than anything, I want you to open your heart and accept yourself completely. I know thatās so tough to do, but I know you will. And you have to tell your story to others, okay? It would make me so happy if you did, because through your story, I found strength and respect and hope. They would too.
This is just words, isnāt it? I want to give you the world but all I can give you is this. I try to do everything I can and I always will, to make you proud. You mean so much to me and you need to know that. I try everyday to be what you are already to me: Amazing and beautiful.
I donāt want you to be scared okay? I know you are sometimes and itās going to be that way, but I just want you to be open to the oppurtunities that are gonna come for you. This is your last āteenagerā birthday and I know thatās frightening but thatās also kind of awesome and I want you to dwell on that. I disagree with the saying āa positive mind will give you a positive lifeā because thatās not true for any of us, but it will give you a positive view of life. So for all the frightening things to come, think about the positive impact itāll give you and dwell on that instead.
Iāve said before why you mean so much to me, and Iām not going to repeat myself here, but you remember my reasons, right? I hope so. I hope you remember what I think of you even if itās hard to feel it.
You are my big sister and youāre my role model. Thank you. Just THANK YOU!
I know you hurt a lot, and I donāt promise happiness, I wish I could. But your a queen and youāll find your king, I swear, even if I have to punch him in the face and drag him to youš And you will always try, I know that. Youāre a survivor and you will survive.
So Iām sorry this is short and not what Iād like, but Iām just happy to know you. I know you love me most, but I love you with a kind of love I canāt place, and one thatās irreplaceable. I donāt want you to forget that. Ever :) x.
Happy birthday queenš
if youāre reading this, youāre one of my closest friends. You literally mean the world to me, and I never want to lose you. I feel like we belong together, it wasnāt an accident that we met.
Well, first if youāre reading this, you should know that this was supposed to be a birthday letter. I was so worried that I was going to be late of course, thatās me I guess. Iāve made mistakes and disappointed you for a long time, havenāt I? Multiple things Iāve done and Iām so ashamed now. I havenāt been the perfect friend but thatās assumed isnāt it? You havenāt been perfect either, but I didnāt want perfect. I call you āperfectā a lot because I canāt find any other word to describe you. I wanted a friend like you, canāt you see that? I wanted you and I got you. I know you feel insecure and doubtful about yourself a lot,and every compliment I give you, youāll disagree with, but you can never disagree with the fact that I wanted someone like you and I got someone better. Iām so blessed and I will never stop thanking you for how amazing you are and I will never stop trying to make you happy.
I know Iāve thanked you a lot, Iāve written articles and said a million compliments. Iām writing this right now, I wish I could do so much more. But itās 12:00 a.m as I write this, and Iām putting a lot into this. Just recently, I wrote an article of 10 reasons why I think youāre unique and special. Iām so proud of that, you see, because now you can see for yourself all the reasons why I love you.
I said I disappointed you. You may have disagreed with that. Maybe you remembered? The one thing that really stands out in my mind, that hurts me everyday, was the promise I broke. It wasnāt just a promise, I gave you my word that I wouldnāt do that again, we promised each other, and I broke it. I had the audacity to do that? I know youāve forgiven me, but I could have lost you. I see it in my scars everyday, and I feel the mistrust you have in me now because of my actions. I know that I let you down, I feel it and see it everyday. But in a few years, Iām going to get a tattoo that says āDonāt break the promise you gave to a queenā just to remind me. Iām sorry again by the way.
But I donāt want to make you sad, birthday girl. I know it seems like Iām trying but Iām not, I just want to be honest I guess.
I worry about you a lot you know, but I know that youāre okay or you will be. I know that youāre life has been so difficult but thatās why I respect you. More than anything, I want you to open your heart and accept yourself completely. I know thatās so tough to do, but I know you will. And you have to tell your story to others, okay? It would make me so happy if you did, because through your story, I found strength and respect and hope. They would too.
This is just words, isnāt it? I want to give you the world but all I can give you is this. I try to do everything I can and I always will, to make you proud. You mean so much to me and you need to know that. I try everyday to be what you are already to me: Amazing and beautiful.
I donāt want you to be scared okay? I know you are sometimes and itās going to be that way, but I just want you to be open to the oppurtunities that are gonna come for you. This is your last āteenagerā birthday and I know thatās frightening but thatās also kind of awesome and I want you to dwell on that. I disagree with the saying āa positive mind will give you a positive lifeā because thatās not true for any of us, but it will give you a positive view of life. So for all the frightening things to come, think about the positive impact itāll give you and dwell on that instead.
Iāve said before why you mean so much to me, and Iām not going to repeat myself here, but you remember my reasons, right? I hope so. I hope you remember what I think of you even if itās hard to feel it.
You are my big sister and youāre my role model. Thank you. Just THANK YOU!
I know you hurt a lot, and I donāt promise happiness, I wish I could. But your a queen and youāll find your king, I swear, even if I have to punch him in the face and drag him to youš And you will always try, I know that. Youāre a survivor and you will survive.
So Iām sorry this is short and not what Iād like, but Iām just happy to know you. I know you love me most, but I love you with a kind of love I canāt place, and one thatās irreplaceable. I donāt want you to forget that. Ever :) x.
Happy birthday queenš