lost faith :(

I have always loved and believed in Peter, I'm 14 now but I found fan pop when I was 12 and used to come on everyday! I had a journal for Peter but then my younger sister found it and made fun of me, when I'm annoying her, she blackmails me and threatens to tell my friends I believe in Peter Pan still. eventually I felt really embarrassed and noticed there were less people on here and just kind of gave up on Peter, I still talk to him sometimes when I'm sad but I really want to get back into talking to him and having bigger faith in him as I can feel myself growing up and its scaring me, does anyone have advice for strengthining my faith because I desperately want to, I used to get signs and stuff but dont anymore. I moved out of my childhood house and I'm worried he won't be able to find me (although I still live super close). Please please please give me some advice I'm so scared Peter hates me :((( also if anyone sees him could they tell him I still believe and I'm trying to be better with him!