I don't know what to do anymore

Try reading religious books, praying /singing god, artwork, dancing, exercise and talking to god and wishing upon a star and see if u can also believe in god with love, devotion with your whole heart and be your own hero.
Always believe in god and you will see god will visit u and take u to neverland and if it doesn't work out well, u can have a better life by moving to a apartment and living with friends and find a job u love . See if it helps u dear , ok.

what is real what is fake? who is one to interpret . everyone amylases things differently. if a cup spills many will see different things. some will see a mess, some will see art, some will look at the direction of the mess, some will look at the time it happened, some will hope it didn't go any were else, others would leave it, n blame another, or just go get another.
if u see a rainbow, do u need another to tell u they see it too?
n what would u do if he did arrive to see, u.
ud have an awesome dream, but some of the memory u will not b able to keep, for the safety of the secret entrance)*
alike heaven , it can only b seen thru the eyes of a child. people can say some weird things as all see things alike the cup spill in a difrent way and a difrent angle. how many sides to a photo?
life is hard at first till u find the easy way. but stay calm, the answer is always right in front of one!
lifes too short to b sad,, what r u waiting for, at a bus stop that dosnt take busses anymore..
faith cant b given to another, alike thirst or hunger, it is owned. proudly. but get away from the tv, get out more, get a pet, but don't keep in cage, .
bproud of youself, pat urself on the back, chin up and soldier on, u r a believer. in time u will b rewarded, when u least expect it, but lighten up before u get cake to the face,, life is sort if ur not ready to do some study, theres a time for work and a time to party play. stay safe..*