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Leyla-Liz said:
I rememeber when I found out that he had died, I was sick at home that day so I didn't go to school. and I'm glad I was sick, cause I wouldn't have to stop myself from crying in class. I felt like the world had stopped when I saw the news that morning, I just sat there...zoned out from the rest of the world, just hoping that It wasn't true. But of course it was, and I didn't really understand completely until the next day. he was gone, and I needed to let out my deep sadness. I remember crying for hours straight, still completely unsure of what had happened. I still sometimes cry just wishing that the world could see his beautiful smile again, and I cry because of how some people still side with the tabloids and what they made his life out to be. I hoped that people would show some more respect, and it makes me sad knowing that anyone couldn't like such a kind and beautiful hearted person. I am trying to stay strong knowing that it is impossible for any person so loving not to go to heaven yet it still kills me seeing all these videos of him, and his children. I miss him so much but I am also happy knowing that he is in a lovely place without having to worry about being labelled. He would have wanted me to live a happy life, yet it so so hard, when all you want to do is cry... I love seeing his smile, hearing his laugh and listening to his innocent sweet voice, just wish it never ended.
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