I feel SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BAD!!!

for one: You are a true fan! Don't put yourself down like that. You realize that there are thousands of people that became a fan of Michael after he left us.
It's not bad to start liking an artist after they had died. There's nothing wrong with that.
Please don't feel bad, Michael dosen't want to see anyone feeling like this. You are a true fan.
If you love him, like we all do, no matter what weather it was his looks, his music, what he did to changer this world, or what kind of person he was, you are a true fan, don't let anyone tell you different. Don't tell me you can't look at this wonderful man, and say your not a true fan.
You love him like a fan dose and the love is really all you need

Healtheworld65. Honey I been a fan since I was 11 years old, now I'm 38. There were moments in my life that I had a though in my mind of his strange life style. But I did my research on his life and pay close attention to the lyrics of his music,he rote music from his heart,talented singers do that, they put their true filling in their work,and that was it! for me. When he Died I din't even cry! I don't know why, at the memorial I din't cry!, that din't make me a bad fan,I find out I am stronger than I though I was. I still can't cry over knowing that his dead, that doesn't mean that I don't love him, I always will, I'm broken hearted yes!! it hurts sometimes when I remember that his gone. Believe me you are not a bad fan, you love him and love can't be a bad thing. Be strong follow only the truth and most of all follow your hearth!! take care darling! ok

Don't feel bad because you did'nt know who Michael Jackson was befor i mean their are alot of people of who did'nt know who he was befor eaither but now they love him.so why beat your self up about not knowing who he was or not being his fan befor he died because it does'nt matter if you knew who he was then or now because all that really matters is that you know who he is now,your his fan,and you love him.so don't feel bad about not knowing who he was befor just be happy that you know who he is now and you love him.

yeah I feel guilty too I mean i've been a fan of him =( since I was little and seriously I feel bad cuz I didn't know about his comeback tour b4 he died =(.
and I simply forgot about him cuz of my education was in the way but when he died I had a bad feeling in my stomach and when I saw his music vids when they did a tribute to him all memories flash back to me.
I even wanna cry at his memorial but I didnt but when I ask mum if I can get a cd of his thats when the tears came out =(.
and now im more obsessed with him than ever but still I feel guilty :(.
I blame my mum though I mean she loves his music but not him =(.
I mean I love him and his music all together I just feel guilty cuz MJ is all I have in my mind now.
Im even starting to have alot of dreams about him and i just feel guilty to not knowing him alot.

I know exactly how you feel. The same thing happened to me. I didnt become a die hard fan until his death, but when you become a fan doesnt matter as long as you understand him now. :)


Foreveramjjfan(Alicia) :)

hey i've been a fan sense 1990 or 1991 and im 21 so i've loved mj for a long time my whole fam loves mj a lot so mj for ever

Its ok you are not alone. I was the same, like when Michael was alive I had no clue who he was until he had to go. When I heard his music I loved it so much. I love Michael Jackson. You are a true MJ fan. Dont say your not a true Michael fan because you are, I felt guily at first but I got over it. It doesnt matter when you started liking him. You are an MJ fan=)

We're living the same life, healtheworld65. It is like literally the exact same way for me. Then one day my mom played a cd and thought he was pretty cool. I just felt horrible and still do sometimes that i never got to be a fan of him when he was alive. Anyway my advice to you is to just TRY to get through it. There really isn't nothing for you to do to stop the pain, that'll always be there. but sometimes the feeling eases every now and then. You just have to know that he's with you. that's how i get through every day. i know it seems impossible that you'll ever get through this, but just remember that one day you and MJ will meet. know that there's light at the end of the tunnel. know that happines is on its way. i actually get excited when i think about the day we meet. so til then just keep listening to the music, watch the videos and learn the moves. and btw YOU ARE SO A TRUE FAN!!! don't listen to anyone who says otherwise!!!!
and another thing, look out for him on June 25, he might come around to all of us true fans :)

hehe don't feel bad,Michael loved you even before you were a fan. Your special you see:)
Not many people realise what a kind,senstive,loving man he was...you just have to be able to see things in his point of view to understand him. Your doing very well and you are a TRUE fan.
No-one could say anything bad about you,your a gift from God. Going back in time doesn't help always,just remember what counts is now,your living now. Just remember your a Mj fan and your all of our friends:)
xxxhugs

Your story is simillier to mine: before Mj's death I didn't know who he is, when I heard he died i felt weird. it was shocking and i could'nt believe it. since the day of his death i started love him, and few monthes ago I did a biography project about him. now he is the world to me, i won't g oa day without listenong to his songs and thinking about him.

and my advice for you is: it's realy doesn't metter if you became a fan of him before or after his death, don't listen to people who think you'r not a real fan. because you are! just like me :)