Dear Fang
I am sorry to say that I wont remember you that way. I can't seem to remember you in a tux. Such a un-Fang like moment. I don't want to remember you like that. Pretending to be something that your not. I want to remember you flying, free. I hope you stay free. And if I remember you flying I can imagine that you are flying back to me.
I spent nearly a year being sensible, doing the right thing. Not for me, But for the flock. Actually that is what I have done my whole life. Put my self behind the flock. Then one day I decided that I could give my self this one thing, the thing I wanted most in the world. You. It ended up being the best and the worst thing I ever did.
I chose you.
I got you.
And then…
I lost you.
I remember the feeling when I decided to let you in. I remember the feeling when I realized I loved you. I remember the feeling when I lost you… It's indescribable. I remember when I got you back and then… I lost you again. But I wouldn't take any of it back. Not the pain, the sorrow the heart wrenching feeling whenever I think about you, the happy times, the laughs and the smiles we have shared. And even if the smiles, the happy times and putting my self first led to all of the pain I wouldn't swap it for the world.
I can understand why you left. And I know that if it were me then I would have done the same thing. I couldn't stand to be with someone I love knowing that it was putting them in danger. But the thing is that it isn't me, not this time. This times its you in Danger. And it isn't me who has to make the decision. But it is me who has to live with it. Every day. And I still hope that you will come back to me, no matter the consequences. Every day.
I was sad after I read your letter. That's an understatement
Then I was angry
God, I am still angry
But I have simmered down, I am still angry but I can see past that. See the reason you left. I can understand it. Doesn't mean I like it.
I could promise you that I will be a leader
That I can be Max and a leader
But in the end I know it wouldn't be enough.
Because I love you
I cant help but be focused on you when were together
And one time I might slip up. Not be the leader I need to be, and I can't face those consequences.
They say that if you love something, then you have to let it go and then if it is truly yours it will come back to you. I Swear Fang if in twenty years you aren't back and cant honestly say that it was all worth it, then erasers and Itex wont be the least of your trouble. Which is why I am going to try my hardest to fix things, to 'save the world'. Because when all of this is over it wont matter that 20 years isn't up, I will be at your doorstep.
But that's the thing. We don't know. You don't know and I don't know. I don't know whether you will come back. But I will get you back. Because I am Maximum Ride and I don't give up a fight. That's what my life is one big fight. I fight for my life and I fight for the ones I love. We all do.
One day we can be happy Fang but for now we are fighting for it.
I can't promise you that we will meet again in 20 years. Because I am fighting for it now and I don't honestly think that I can wait that long. Wait that long to be happy.
I love you enough to let you go. And I trust you enough that you will come back.
So here's my promise to you. When the world is saved. And it will be, you leaving has given me even more motive to do so. I'll meet you at the top of that cliff where we first met the hawks and learned how to fly with them. You know the one. Once the world is saved. If were Alive. I'll be there waiting for you. You can bet on it.
We will have fought for our happiness and won.
I don't believe in saying good-bye so…
Until I see you next.
I love you.
Max
I am sorry to say that I wont remember you that way. I can't seem to remember you in a tux. Such a un-Fang like moment. I don't want to remember you like that. Pretending to be something that your not. I want to remember you flying, free. I hope you stay free. And if I remember you flying I can imagine that you are flying back to me.
I spent nearly a year being sensible, doing the right thing. Not for me, But for the flock. Actually that is what I have done my whole life. Put my self behind the flock. Then one day I decided that I could give my self this one thing, the thing I wanted most in the world. You. It ended up being the best and the worst thing I ever did.
I chose you.
I got you.
And then…
I lost you.
I remember the feeling when I decided to let you in. I remember the feeling when I realized I loved you. I remember the feeling when I lost you… It's indescribable. I remember when I got you back and then… I lost you again. But I wouldn't take any of it back. Not the pain, the sorrow the heart wrenching feeling whenever I think about you, the happy times, the laughs and the smiles we have shared. And even if the smiles, the happy times and putting my self first led to all of the pain I wouldn't swap it for the world.
I can understand why you left. And I know that if it were me then I would have done the same thing. I couldn't stand to be with someone I love knowing that it was putting them in danger. But the thing is that it isn't me, not this time. This times its you in Danger. And it isn't me who has to make the decision. But it is me who has to live with it. Every day. And I still hope that you will come back to me, no matter the consequences. Every day.
I was sad after I read your letter. That's an understatement
Then I was angry
God, I am still angry
But I have simmered down, I am still angry but I can see past that. See the reason you left. I can understand it. Doesn't mean I like it.
I could promise you that I will be a leader
That I can be Max and a leader
But in the end I know it wouldn't be enough.
Because I love you
I cant help but be focused on you when were together
And one time I might slip up. Not be the leader I need to be, and I can't face those consequences.
They say that if you love something, then you have to let it go and then if it is truly yours it will come back to you. I Swear Fang if in twenty years you aren't back and cant honestly say that it was all worth it, then erasers and Itex wont be the least of your trouble. Which is why I am going to try my hardest to fix things, to 'save the world'. Because when all of this is over it wont matter that 20 years isn't up, I will be at your doorstep.
But that's the thing. We don't know. You don't know and I don't know. I don't know whether you will come back. But I will get you back. Because I am Maximum Ride and I don't give up a fight. That's what my life is one big fight. I fight for my life and I fight for the ones I love. We all do.
One day we can be happy Fang but for now we are fighting for it.
I can't promise you that we will meet again in 20 years. Because I am fighting for it now and I don't honestly think that I can wait that long. Wait that long to be happy.
I love you enough to let you go. And I trust you enough that you will come back.
So here's my promise to you. When the world is saved. And it will be, you leaving has given me even more motive to do so. I'll meet you at the top of that cliff where we first met the hawks and learned how to fly with them. You know the one. Once the world is saved. If were Alive. I'll be there waiting for you. You can bet on it.
We will have fought for our happiness and won.
I don't believe in saying good-bye so…
Until I see you next.
I love you.
Max
Before I start I'd like to say something, there's talk about a movie. Now I don't know if that's true or just rumors but if it is that'd be awesome.
So if there is a movie I already have the perfect cast. First before you see my cast I think that Max should have blonde hair not brown but for the people who want Max to have brown hair I picked a brown haired Max too.
My cast is down there, please comment what you think :)
Nathalia ramos (blonde) as Max
Emily Browning (brown) as Max
Devon graye as Fang
Alex Pettyfer as Iggy
Sydney Park as Nudge
Kendall Schmidt as Dylan
The only people I need help with is Angel and Gazzy, please comment suggestions as for the rest of the cast you could check online for
more pics and tell me what you think.
Also I got nothing for Fang's gnag but when I do I will post it to you guys.
So if there is a movie I already have the perfect cast. First before you see my cast I think that Max should have blonde hair not brown but for the people who want Max to have brown hair I picked a brown haired Max too.
My cast is down there, please comment what you think :)
Nathalia ramos (blonde) as Max
Emily Browning (brown) as Max
Devon graye as Fang
Alex Pettyfer as Iggy
Sydney Park as Nudge
Kendall Schmidt as Dylan
The only people I need help with is Angel and Gazzy, please comment suggestions as for the rest of the cast you could check online for
more pics and tell me what you think.
Also I got nothing for Fang's gnag but when I do I will post it to you guys.
Nevermore was an amazing book. All of you who are saying you hated it is unnecessary. You would like it if you understood it. I think James Patterson should make another book or 2 because if he's going to talk about an island and an Maximum Ride era he should carry that through. Maximum Ride is such an amazing book series no other can compare. Nevermore shows the strength that the flock has. James Patterson is a genius 4 coming up with it. Everyone should read it. Also go FAXNESS because there soul mates. Nevermore is a cool twist in the book. I couldn't believe the ending. I want to know what happens with the mutants on the island. So,everyone read Maximum Ride. Also if you like this favorite and fan me.
I know you wanted Max and Fang to be together, and you guys totally HATE Dylan (Don't worry, I do too), but maybe Fang was right and leaving the flock really did help. Max does love Fang, and Dylan is just too... Personal. He's like a complete opposite of Fang, but is being different a bad thing? And Maya and Fang don't like each other! (If you're still on Fang, oops! Spoiler moment!) Is it that hard to believe that there can be FRIENDS in the world too?! ... Sorry, just expressing my inner thoughts here... :)