One more reason I should never have met you
Just another reason I could never forget you
Down we go
The rooms spinning out of control
Lose myself in a chemical moment
White lights taking it's tole
That's just the way it goes
Come on, Stella would you take me home
She went and also got a blanket because she knew he was still going to be cold from that freezing shower she just threw him in.then she patiently sat on the couch waiting untill he came into the living room. As soon as he stepped in the living room she went for the attack.
"so now, why exactly is all this." she pointed at the empty alchol bottles then at him, "all my fault?" she questioned.
He sighed. "Stella, I was drunk. what more do you expect me to say than that?"
"I want an explanation and I know you have one. because even when you are drunk you think about what you say, the only difference between when you're drunk and sober is when you are sober you think about the consiquences of what you say and when you are drunk you just think about what you're feeling at that moment and let it out."
"finem you are correc in all of that but what does it matter if I think this is your fault or not? Soon you will not be here and you wont have to worry about taking care of me or cleaning up my messes. that is why you're leaving anyays. now isn't it?" He said a bit harshly.
"oh, so now we are getting to the point. You are mad at me because I am leaving you and everyone else behind? so since you know everything that I fell and think Mac, why not tell me this. What would stop me from leaving, what would you say that could possibly keep me here?" she asked him/
"You shouldn't need to hear anything from anyone. You should want to stay on your own because you know as well as I do that everyone here needs you and loves you and when you leave we are going to be a wreck not only because you are a key asset to the team but you are part of this disfunctional family and even though we all might not actually be family this is about as normal of a family life we all have!" he was now pacing around the room.
Stella stood in shock, she knew this was going to be hard for eveyone and him but she never really gave it a thought because if she did she wouldn't be able to leave.
"You're ruining it Mac, I was supppose to just leave and not have to think about how I would affect this team and our friends but now you just made it so much more difficult to leave." she sarted walking toward the door because she can't handle this, it's better this way.Her leaving would be the best thing for everyone.
He rushed up infront of her, blocking her path to the door,
"good, this isn't suppose to be easy for you when it's so damn difficult and painful for us! You're not getting off that easy." Mac replied sadly with a bit off anger mixed in with it.
"Oh just stop! Stop speaking for every damn person. For once tell me what you think of this and how you feel and stop hiding behind every other person we know!" She said angerily.
"fine! Every damn word I said I've meant is how I feel about you leaving, even though I am sure the team feels these things too but I feel them the most because you have been here for me so much and you are just going to throw all those moments to waste and leave? what the hell kind of shit is that? So what's the reason you are leaving, ar we not good enough anymore and why exactly did you come here, what did you expect?" He is getting restless and frustrated.
"I've never said any of that, so now you are just putting words in my mouth. So are you going to stop interrogating me for five fucking seconds and let me speak for myself or should I just walk out of your life just a quickly as you have assumed all these false things about how I feel and why I am doing this?" with that she tried to sidestep him but he once again blocked her.
Just another reason I could never forget you
Down we go
The rooms spinning out of control
Lose myself in a chemical moment
White lights taking it's tole
That's just the way it goes
Come on, Stella would you take me home
She went and also got a blanket because she knew he was still going to be cold from that freezing shower she just threw him in.then she patiently sat on the couch waiting untill he came into the living room. As soon as he stepped in the living room she went for the attack.
"so now, why exactly is all this." she pointed at the empty alchol bottles then at him, "all my fault?" she questioned.
He sighed. "Stella, I was drunk. what more do you expect me to say than that?"
"I want an explanation and I know you have one. because even when you are drunk you think about what you say, the only difference between when you're drunk and sober is when you are sober you think about the consiquences of what you say and when you are drunk you just think about what you're feeling at that moment and let it out."
"finem you are correc in all of that but what does it matter if I think this is your fault or not? Soon you will not be here and you wont have to worry about taking care of me or cleaning up my messes. that is why you're leaving anyays. now isn't it?" He said a bit harshly.
"oh, so now we are getting to the point. You are mad at me because I am leaving you and everyone else behind? so since you know everything that I fell and think Mac, why not tell me this. What would stop me from leaving, what would you say that could possibly keep me here?" she asked him/
"You shouldn't need to hear anything from anyone. You should want to stay on your own because you know as well as I do that everyone here needs you and loves you and when you leave we are going to be a wreck not only because you are a key asset to the team but you are part of this disfunctional family and even though we all might not actually be family this is about as normal of a family life we all have!" he was now pacing around the room.
Stella stood in shock, she knew this was going to be hard for eveyone and him but she never really gave it a thought because if she did she wouldn't be able to leave.
"You're ruining it Mac, I was supppose to just leave and not have to think about how I would affect this team and our friends but now you just made it so much more difficult to leave." she sarted walking toward the door because she can't handle this, it's better this way.Her leaving would be the best thing for everyone.
He rushed up infront of her, blocking her path to the door,
"good, this isn't suppose to be easy for you when it's so damn difficult and painful for us! You're not getting off that easy." Mac replied sadly with a bit off anger mixed in with it.
"Oh just stop! Stop speaking for every damn person. For once tell me what you think of this and how you feel and stop hiding behind every other person we know!" She said angerily.
"fine! Every damn word I said I've meant is how I feel about you leaving, even though I am sure the team feels these things too but I feel them the most because you have been here for me so much and you are just going to throw all those moments to waste and leave? what the hell kind of shit is that? So what's the reason you are leaving, ar we not good enough anymore and why exactly did you come here, what did you expect?" He is getting restless and frustrated.
"I've never said any of that, so now you are just putting words in my mouth. So are you going to stop interrogating me for five fucking seconds and let me speak for myself or should I just walk out of your life just a quickly as you have assumed all these false things about how I feel and why I am doing this?" with that she tried to sidestep him but he once again blocked her.
