Paaaart 3!
It’s already evening as Mac’s ready. He needs something new to distract so he turns his mobile phone on.
’11 missed calls’ Stella’s tried to phone him! Should he… No… Too painful. He just sits on his couch and looks on his mobile phone. Suddenly his door rings. He stands up fast but then he stops and looks in a mirror. He looks terrible! He hasn’t taken a shower and his eyes are sad and empty. He wears a old t-shirt and jogging trousers. No matter… Whoever stands in front of the door wouldn’t see him for a long time. He just wants to be alone. With this thoughts he opens the door. Stella! Damn it! What should he say now?
“Hi Mac.”
Damn he blushed.
“Hi… Why are you here?” He tries his best to sound relaxed.
“I… I phoned you and you didn’t answer. I… I need to… I started to worry.”
Something in her eyes tells him that something was wrong with her.
“Hmm… Do you want to come in?”
“Yes… I heard you weren’t at work today?”
“No. You heard? Weren’t you, too?”
“Well… Yes. Mac? You don’t look good… Did something happen?”
YES! Something happened. Something terrible! He wants to tell her everything but… What will she think about him? He slept with Peyton!
He just nods. She doesn’t ask him what happened, that surprises him. He looks straight in her green eyes which were always so happy and powerful. But not today. They are sad and angry. Does she know?! No… She can’t.
“Stella… Why are you here? What happened?”, he sounds very worried, not only because of her sadness but also because of his fear she could know something.
She don’t answer, just looks on the floor. She just stands there in his living-room. So sad but so beautiful same time. A little tear makes its way over her cheek and Mac comes closer carefully. He wants to comfort her. But how could he? He doesn’t even know why she’s so sad. He just knows why he’s so sad and suddenly he just wants to cry, too.
“Stella… Talk to me.” Damn Peyton said that this morning, too.
“Won’t be angry with me?”, her voice isn’t strong, it shakes.
“Why should I be angry?” So it’s something really terrible. She knows that he’s not very often angry…
“I… I told you about the date with Adam…”
No! NO! They can’t be a couple!
“Mac… I… I made a big mistake!”
No! NO!
“I wasn’t able to control myself! I…”
Much more tears now. She tries her best to calm down but fails. Suddenly she gets angry. Her face is so angry. Green eyes full of rage. Tears of rage. He still don’t know how to comfort her.
“I’m such a big idiot! I… I… He was so nice… He told me he loves me.”
No! Adam!
“I think I was a little bit drunken and… damn we had sex.”
A pain runs through his whole body. Makes him gasp for air.
“Don’t look so scared Mac! I know it was a mistake! And I regret it believe me!”
Slowly his brain starts to work again. Pictures appears. Stella. With Adam. In bed. He tries hard to make them disappear.
Stella slides down on a wall of his apartment and sits down on the floor. Still looking so sad and broken. He thinks he has looked like her this morning, too. Lots of tears of sadness and rage. He sits down next to her. Still not able to talk. Slowly his speech comes back. How could he comfort her? Does he really want to comfort her? Doesn’t she deserve it to be angry with herself? No! They aren’t a couple so she could have sex with whoever she wants.
“Stella… Stop crying. No reason to cry.”
“No reason?! Mac?! I had sex with Adam! Adam! Adam Ross! No reason to cry? This is a reason to cry!”
If she would know… He did something more terrible than sex with a colleague.
“Why am I so stupid?”
“Believe me I’m much stupider!”
“Oh really? What did you do? Didn’t go to work because you had a hangover or so ?!” She laughed ironic.
“No…” Oh god why did he start to talk about that?!
“So what did you do?”
“I… I… I had sex with Peyton…” He talks quietly, hoping she wouldn’t understand him.
“What?!” No it was her turn to look scared and surprised.
“You did what?”
“Damn you understood it. I don’t want to repeat. I’m not really proud about that.”
Silence. Two sad and angry people side by side on the floor, staring somewhere without seeing something. Both of them regret what they did. Only because they didn’t do that with feelings? Or do they love someone else? Do they want to have sex with someone else?
It’s already evening as Mac’s ready. He needs something new to distract so he turns his mobile phone on.
’11 missed calls’ Stella’s tried to phone him! Should he… No… Too painful. He just sits on his couch and looks on his mobile phone. Suddenly his door rings. He stands up fast but then he stops and looks in a mirror. He looks terrible! He hasn’t taken a shower and his eyes are sad and empty. He wears a old t-shirt and jogging trousers. No matter… Whoever stands in front of the door wouldn’t see him for a long time. He just wants to be alone. With this thoughts he opens the door. Stella! Damn it! What should he say now?
“Hi Mac.”
Damn he blushed.
“Hi… Why are you here?” He tries his best to sound relaxed.
“I… I phoned you and you didn’t answer. I… I need to… I started to worry.”
Something in her eyes tells him that something was wrong with her.
“Hmm… Do you want to come in?”
“Yes… I heard you weren’t at work today?”
“No. You heard? Weren’t you, too?”
“Well… Yes. Mac? You don’t look good… Did something happen?”
YES! Something happened. Something terrible! He wants to tell her everything but… What will she think about him? He slept with Peyton!
He just nods. She doesn’t ask him what happened, that surprises him. He looks straight in her green eyes which were always so happy and powerful. But not today. They are sad and angry. Does she know?! No… She can’t.
“Stella… Why are you here? What happened?”, he sounds very worried, not only because of her sadness but also because of his fear she could know something.
She don’t answer, just looks on the floor. She just stands there in his living-room. So sad but so beautiful same time. A little tear makes its way over her cheek and Mac comes closer carefully. He wants to comfort her. But how could he? He doesn’t even know why she’s so sad. He just knows why he’s so sad and suddenly he just wants to cry, too.
“Stella… Talk to me.” Damn Peyton said that this morning, too.
“Won’t be angry with me?”, her voice isn’t strong, it shakes.
“Why should I be angry?” So it’s something really terrible. She knows that he’s not very often angry…
“I… I told you about the date with Adam…”
No! NO! They can’t be a couple!
“Mac… I… I made a big mistake!”
No! NO!
“I wasn’t able to control myself! I…”
Much more tears now. She tries her best to calm down but fails. Suddenly she gets angry. Her face is so angry. Green eyes full of rage. Tears of rage. He still don’t know how to comfort her.
“I’m such a big idiot! I… I… He was so nice… He told me he loves me.”
No! Adam!
“I think I was a little bit drunken and… damn we had sex.”
A pain runs through his whole body. Makes him gasp for air.
“Don’t look so scared Mac! I know it was a mistake! And I regret it believe me!”
Slowly his brain starts to work again. Pictures appears. Stella. With Adam. In bed. He tries hard to make them disappear.
Stella slides down on a wall of his apartment and sits down on the floor. Still looking so sad and broken. He thinks he has looked like her this morning, too. Lots of tears of sadness and rage. He sits down next to her. Still not able to talk. Slowly his speech comes back. How could he comfort her? Does he really want to comfort her? Doesn’t she deserve it to be angry with herself? No! They aren’t a couple so she could have sex with whoever she wants.
“Stella… Stop crying. No reason to cry.”
“No reason?! Mac?! I had sex with Adam! Adam! Adam Ross! No reason to cry? This is a reason to cry!”
If she would know… He did something more terrible than sex with a colleague.
“Why am I so stupid?”
“Believe me I’m much stupider!”
“Oh really? What did you do? Didn’t go to work because you had a hangover or so ?!” She laughed ironic.
“No…” Oh god why did he start to talk about that?!
“So what did you do?”
“I… I… I had sex with Peyton…” He talks quietly, hoping she wouldn’t understand him.
“What?!” No it was her turn to look scared and surprised.
“You did what?”
“Damn you understood it. I don’t want to repeat. I’m not really proud about that.”
Silence. Two sad and angry people side by side on the floor, staring somewhere without seeing something. Both of them regret what they did. Only because they didn’t do that with feelings? Or do they love someone else? Do they want to have sex with someone else?
... "It stops: Stella Bonasera "....
URGENT!.-I opened and read:
"Stella, you will be transferred this week,of course,if you want !and that you will be the new department head .I hope your answer on Wednesday at 14:00.
Sincerely Brigham Sinclair"
--
I froze, did not know the answer, Mac and me had to talk to about it, uncertainty was already driving me crazy...
Until I took courage and decided to talk to mac.
and then I turned, I saw blue eyes staring at me with a look of doubt and the only thing I could say was:
-[b]MAC ?!
Continues... :)
URGENT!.-I opened and read:
"Stella, you will be transferred this week,of course,if you want !and that you will be the new department head .I hope your answer on Wednesday at 14:00.
Sincerely Brigham Sinclair"
--
I froze, did not know the answer, Mac and me had to talk to about it, uncertainty was already driving me crazy...
Until I took courage and decided to talk to mac.
and then I turned, I saw blue eyes staring at me with a look of doubt and the only thing I could say was:
-[b]MAC ?!
Continues... :)