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By my recent standards I'd say this was a pretty quick update.....things start to pick up a little bit here and im still struggling to find the time to write but im trying my best not to be too slow.
I know I said there would be around 6-10 more chapter but that was because I was going to do shorter chapters and quicker updates but I've decided to stick to longer chapters and of course that would mean slower updates...but the story is coming to an end soon, id say a few more chaps to go...but it'snot quite over yet...!
Hope you like this chapter...
It took some time for Chuck to come up with an explanation to why he had boiled over at dinner and as far as Nate was concerned it was just a matter of time before Marcus would have had to face the wrath of Chuck. It was obvious to Nate that Chuck didnt like sharing his toys, but that was nothing new. He had helped Chuck get cleaned up, making sure that the cut on his upper cheek under his left eye was cleaned and that his right hand which had suffered cuts to his knuckles was bandaged up.
He didnt press Chuck for more information accepting that the reason he had attacked Marcus was because he simply didnt like or trust him and he hated the fact that he had Blair wrapped around his little finger. He had also advised Chuck that maybe staying at his hotel room for at least tonight would be desirable in order to avoid Blair and give her some time to cool off, but of course Chuck was adamant that there was no way he would leave Blair alone in the house with Marcus.
Meanwhile Marcus was in his shower getting cleaned up whilst outside his room in the hallway Blair tried to fill Serena in on what had just happened, trying to explain to her that Chuck had simply gone mad for no apparent reason.
"Come on Blair, there must be something, some reason why Chuck would assume that Marcus would take you on the dinner table!" exclaimed Serena. She had been getting nowhere so far with Blair who had just claimed that Chuck was in a jealous rage for no apparent reason and had no right to act the way he did at dinner.
"He's crazy! He thinks that he can just own me or something, he takes one look at me and Marcus getting along and he just has to attack him like that! You saw him! Marcus is innocent, he was nothing but a gentleman until he was ambushed by that animal!" she frowned, she knew that maybe Serena deserved the truth and that maybe the reason Chuck had acted in such a way was because he had seen her kissing Marcus, but it still didn't give him the right to behave so violently in public.
"Look maybe Chuck has a point about Marcus, we hardly know him and it's as if you," she paused as the question bubbled in her mind, she just needed to know, "do you...like him?" she finally managed to spit out.
"What! He's insane! I mean I know I did, well im not sure but I just dont know any more, things have changed, he act's like my worst enemy," she continued, closing her eyes and thinking back to their most recent encounters, "and then he's all over me, touching me, doing things to me that no one else has ever...ugh and he'll say the crudest things and I guess it turns me on," she was smiling giddily now and Serena watched her in shock, "and then he'll act all loving and buy me a diamond necklace!" she continued before being interrupted by Serena.
"Marcus bought you diamonds and he touches you?!" she exclaimed in surprise.
"What? Who Marcus!?" she put her hand to her lips as she suddenly realised who Serena thought she had been talking about.
"Yes? I was asking about Marcus! Wait? Who were you referring to?" Serena asked becoming slightly confused.
"Oh God...I was talking about Chuck...you meant Marcus?" Blair turned bright red at realising that she had just unnecessarily revealed a whole lot of information.
"Yes, I was asking if you liked Marcus...wait you and Chuck have been...Chuck bought you a diamond necklace?" asked Serena, suddenly curious for clarification.
Blair became embarrassed and managed to change the subject by answering Serena.s initial question, "Serena," she laughed dramatically, "I do not like Marcus, not like that!" she laughed whilst blushing.
"you do! Blair you're blushing! You like him!" squealed Serena, "you cant! What about Chuck? No wonder he was so angry!" she exclaimed as Blair recoiled at hearing someone else decipher her feelings so openly.
"No! S, I dont like Marcus like that! If I did I would have felt something when he kissed me!' she blabbered on trying to convince her friend otherwise, "I didnt even feel anything, I haven't even thought about it until now and if Chuck hadn't walked in then I totally would have told him off for catching me off guard and kissing me like that!' she finished and waited as Serena stood in silence with her jaw dropped in shock, "what?" asked Blair innocently.
Serena shoved Blair playfully, "you said nothing happened! You said Chuck started that fight for no reason!" Serena cried in annoyance.
"Well that's hardly a reason!" explained Blair.
"B! You kissed Marcus and Chuck saw you! He's your husband and I thought you guys were working things out! Way to go and throw a spanner in the works!" complained Serena as Blair crossed her arms across her chest in defence.
"Chuck and I are nothing! He had no right to start a fight with my guest! He treats me like I mean nothing and then he gets angry when other men pay attention to me! That's not fair!" defended Blair.
She had tried to make thing work with Chuck and she couldn't accept the fact that on one hand Chuck wouldn't express his feeling to her through words yet on the other hand he became possessive when seeing her becoming close to another man. It was simply unfair in Blair's eyes.
Serena could clearly see what was happening and was baffled as to how Blair couldn't see that Chuck was jealous of Marcus because he had real feeling for Blair. Although she also knew that it was up to Blair and Chuck to figure things out themselves and they needed to do this soon before they made things more complicated.
"Look Blair, Chuck doesn't like Marcus, that's obvious right?' Blair nodded, "well how would you like it if Chuck got close to a woman whom you hated and you saw him kissing that woman? I can imagine you would be inclined to rip her hair out for trying to ruin things for you and Chuck. Right?" she waited for Blair's response but Blair simply looked to the ground and avoided answering her.
"Well im sure you know the answer to that regardless of whether you want to share it with me. It's up to you Blair, you an overlook Chuck's actions and try and work things out with him."
"We've tried and failed many times S. Maybe it's just not meant to be. I haven't told you this before but...Chuck and I have, in the past, considered a divorce." she almost whispered and Serena looked at her sadly.
"You would really do that?" she asked.
"To save our friendship, yes. Chuck means a lot to me and this marriage is destroying our friendship." she looked away from her friend to hide the sadness in her eyes.
Deep down she was desperate for their marriage to work out but at the same time she couldn't ignore how their friendship had suffered under the circumstances and Marcus would always be a part of her life now, there was no way she could desert her new friend after he had found her.
So if Chuck couldn't deal with her friendship with Marcus then distancing herself from Chuck sooner rather than later would be the best option for both of them.
"B, are you sure?" questioned Serena, placing her hand on Blair's arm for comfort and Blair smiled in return.
"It's for the best," she looked towards Marcus's room, "I'm going to go check up on him." she said before hugging Serena goodbye and going into Marcus's bedroom.
Serena and Nate had said their goodbye's and left the house as evening became night. Chuck was still moping around in the kitchen contemplating what would happen between himself and Blair after his jealous outburst at dinner. He knew she would be furious but he was sure that he would be able to get her forgiveness eventually, if that was really what he wanted. After all it wasn't like she trusted him at all any more and at times it seemed she was a whole different person, definitely not the Blair he had grown up with and recently....fallen for?
She clearly didn't like him any more, or maybe she did judging by the way she had kissed him the other day. She was just so complicated to figure out and so difficult to break. At moments he was sure that she wanted him and then she would do something like kissing Marcus and running to his side to make him think otherwise.
He just couldn't be sure who she was any more, maybe he should just throw in the white flag and give up the fight, after all she had been causing him so much stress lately and he missed the relationship they used to have before things messed up.
Just as he trying to make sense of his feelings he caught her reflection in one of the kitchen windows in front of him. He slowly turned to face her as she leaned in the door frame.
"We need to talk." she said calmly before tying the ribbon of her robe tighter and walking away. Chuck watched after her for a moment before stumbling to his feet and following her into the lounge.
He watched as she sat down on the sofa and patted the space beside her for him to join her. He figured that the fact she wanted him directly beside her was a good sign so he immediately strode towards her and sat down, their legs touching.
She immediately felt the heat that radiated from his body and how hers reacted to his closeness. She was caught up in his eyes as his hand reached up to brush a curl of hair from her cheek to behind her ear and she turned her face away from him to break the intimate mood that had enveloped them from such a small gesture. She couldn't deny how he made her feel and how a single touch could send her trembling in ecstasy, but right now wasn't about their bond, it was about saving their friendship.
"Chuck," she finally whispered as he retracted his hand from her face, "I cant do this any more." she finished and he shook his head in response.
"Blair, me neither, I dont want us to fight any more." he added, he couldn't lose her, not over another guy. If it meant fixing things between them then he would put an end to the fighting, he would change for her.
"I dont want to be angry with you all the time, I care about you. A lot." she smiled.
He smiled back taking her hand into his and rubbing his thumb across her knuckles lovingly, "I care about you too Blair, more than you know." He smiled at her, knowing that this conversation would be momentous.
All she had to do was admit her true feeling for him and he would take a risk and commit to her. It was a risk because he had never believed in relationships before and the only way he would commit to Blair fully would be if she loved him.
He wasn't certain that he would be able to love but if she loved him then he would ignore his own insecurities and take the plunge with her and he would let himself love her with all his heart.
"Chuck, I dont want to lose what we used to have." she continued, he seemed to finally be on the same page as her. They were making progress at last, she cared too much for him to allow their differences ruin their friendship and if that meant sacrificing her hopes for their marriage to work out to save their friendship then that was what she would have to do.
"I agree, I dont like the fighting, I cant lose you Blair." he admitted.
"I want us to be friends forever." she added.
"Of course, that's a given." he replied.
"Yeah, we're better off as friends anyway." she said whilst smiling and Chuck's confusion caused him to let go of her hand.
"Friends? As in just friends?" he asked trying to make sense of where the conversation was headed.
Blair stood up abruptly and turned away from him to avoid his gaze for a moment in order to compose herself.
She turned back to him and continued, "things dont seem to be working between us, we were better off as just friends." she emphasised.
Chuck stood up and stalked right up to her, "what do you mean! Everything was fine before that piece of..." he stopped short of the insult, huffing in anger before finishing his sentence, "ever since that Marcus guy turned up things were fine between us! All we need to do is get rid of him." he explained and watched her expression change to one of hope to one of anger.
"How dare you blame everything on Marcus! You're the problem here! Marcus has done nothing but be a perfect gentleman and a good friend to me!" she yelled in frustration.
"He has officially messed things up between us! Why are you so defending of him! Its like you're obsessed...almost as if you're smitten with him!" he accused looking at her suspiciously as Blair blushed and looked away.
"Please." she huffed, "that's ridiculous!" she insisted innocently trying to avoid his gaze.
Chuck scoffed in surprise, "oh my God! You are! You're fucking crushing on him! That's what all this is about! You're choosing that imposter over me!" he shouted angrily and she backed away from him, partly out of fear and partly in reaction to his accusation about her feelings for Marcus.
Could she really like Marcus? She had never really thought about it before but he did have a certain charm about him, but she couldn't like him, they were just friends, right?
"What is your problem! Do you always have to argue with me!" she tried to put the focus back on them and avoid the subject of Marcus the best she could.
"He has you right under his thumb why cant you see that?! We can just get rid of him and you can forget about your feeling for him, i'll pretend as if they never existed!" he offered, desperate for her to choose him.
There was no way he could lose her, especially not to Marcus. "No! You're wrong! Me and Marcus are simply friends! I dont want to fight with you any more! We need to salvage what we still have, our friendship, that's if even that still exists!" she explained.
"I want him out! Now!" he shouted, the sooner he could get rid of Marcus the more likely it would be for him to be able to fix things with Blair once and for all.
"No! All you care about is controlling everything to get what you want! Well listen up Chuck you cant control me! You'll never break me and Marcus apart no matter how much you try and it would be best for everyone if we..." she paused to think twice about what she was about to say and then she remembered how much saving their friendship meant to her and how much their marriage was destroying them, "we need to get a divorce." she quickly blurted out much to Chuck's shock.
"What?" he asked in bewilderment.
"A divorce. It's best for both of us." she repeated whilst turning away from him.
"You mean what's best for you and Marcus! Is that what this is? You want me out so you can get with him?" he yelled at her.
He couldn't believe that she was actually choosing Marcus over him and asking for a divorce. "This has nothing to do with Marcus! It's to salvage our friendship! This marriage is ruining us and the only way we can fix it is to get a divorce and remain friends, like I said before I care about you and I want you in my life." she explained calmly looking him straight in the eye.
She was sure that she would be able to convince him because eventually he would realise that she was right.
"Is this about that stupid arrangement we had? It was a joke, I mentioned divorce in haste I didn't actually ever want one." he defended, moving closer to her in an attempt to change her mind, "I still dont." he finished.
"It would fix things. I want a divorce Chuck." she repeated, there was no way she would let him convince her otherwise.
"Blair...this is all his fault! He ruined things for us and now you're running away from me and right to him!" he sighed in defeat turning away from her and whispering loud enough for her to hear, "I cant believe this!"
"Stop blaming him!" she cried, "this is your fault! You messed things up for us but im willing to forgive you and stay friends but we need this divorce. We can wait for a month or so in order not to shock the press, we can still make it look like we drifted apart." she thought that maybe they could follow through on their arrangement after all and engineer a drama free divorce for the public eye.
"What so that people wont think you've been cheating on me with you little gentlemanly friend?" he accused, if she wanted a divorce so badly then why not just do it straight away he thought.
"No, it's not like that, I jut thought we could do this the way we agreed during our arrangement." she tried to explain.
"I dont think so. That arrangement wasn't made with the pretence that you would end up leaving me for another man. You wont get a penny from me." he snarled in anger and she shook her head in discontent.
"I dont need a your money Chuck I have plenty of my own." she retorted with a slight smirk on her face. He recoiled in anger at the realisation that she was right. She didnt need him and she wasn't going to suffer one bit from this divorce.
He had no arsenal, no ammunition, maybe it was time to give up, she had won. "And I am not leaving you for Marcus! For God's sake Chuck this has nothing to do with him. This is about us. I want us to be friends like we used to be. I care about you so much and you mean the world to me, probably more than anyone else," she confessed, her eyes filling with tears because it was true, she cared about Chuck more than she cared about anyone else, she was sure at some point that she may have even loved him but their marriage would end up destroying them, that's why she had to do this.
But he needed to know that she had no feelings for Marcus and that she cared only for him and that their friendship meant the world to her, "we can go back to being friends Chuck, we can work on that, I still want you in my life." she finished whilst placing her hand on his arm. He flinched and pulled his arm away from her, much to her shock. She looked at him with fear in her eyes as he snarled at her and stormed off out of the room and away from her.
Blair wiped the tears that had escaped her eyes and tried to focus on what had just happened. Chuck was angry, that was never a good thing but she relied upon the fact that maybe after a while he would realise that she was doing the right thing. She was going to stick to her decision and call her lawyer in the morning. Or maybe she would just wait a while to request divorce papers until it was absolutely necessary, she had no idea as to whether that was because she wanted the reality to settle in before she took the plunge or whether the truth was that she couldn't bare to divorce Chuck because she was afraid it would mean losing him forever. She would wait, at least for a little while.
Chuck had consumed himself in his work after the dinner disaster, making sure to avoid Blair and especially Marcus the best he could. Blair on the other hand had become closer to Marcus as they had been spending more time with each other and he had been helpful in listening to her rants about Chuck advising her and supporting her decision to get a divorce.
However Blair had been having second thoughts about leaving Chuck for good. She had never wanted a divorce and knew that it was something Chuck would never want either. She was also afraid of her reputation and public image being ruined through a messy divorce and even though her and Marcus were just friends she knew the city well enough to know how the papers would accuse her of cheating.
At the end of the day getting a divorce seemed to be the only way to save her friendship with Chuck but at the same time it had the potential to ruin her reputation. She had decided to wait on requesting divorce papers in the hope that Chuck would come around to the idea and try to engineer a divorce where she wouldn't be accused of cheating with her living in friend Marcus and it would seem that the decision was mutual.
It was times like this that she wished she could escape, maybe if she hadn't destroyed her Torpedo ring she could have jumped a portal to get out of the struggle of a life she was living right now. That reminded her of the dreams she used to have before they came to this world, where she had seen signs and visions of this world being the perfect world and the one and only place the four of them would find true happiness. She remembered how much faith she had once had in her dreams, enough to destroy her Torpedo ring. Things had changed so much since then, she had changed. Would the Torpedo destroying Blair be doing what she was doing now, running away from her responsibilities, resorting to divorce? Would leaving Chuck find her true happiness?
She was happy when Chuck and her were getting along, she had been truly happy until Marcus had showed up and turned Chuck into a envious freak. Was Chuck really right about Marcus being the reason why things went to hell with them? Could she fix this without getting a divorce? She had fallen for Chuck, she had maybe even loved him and was dying for him to love her back and give their marriage a chance.
The truth was that leaving Chuck would hurt her more than the hurt caused by their strained relationship. Divorce would mean the end of what she really wanted, even if it would save their friendship, it would put an end to what she had really wanted, a marriage with Chuck. She had tried to explain this to Marcus but he didnt see eye to eye with her, as far as he was concerned Chuck was bad news and she had made the right decision in asking for a divorce and he said he was sure she wouldn't regret it and that he would stick with her through everything.
Heartache seemed to have a good effect on Chuck when it came to his business, he had put everything into his job recently, working harder than ever in an attempt to block out his pain. He couldn't believe Blair actually wanted a divorce, all because of that sorry excuse of a human being Marcus! He hadn't trusted the guy since day one and was sure that he had caused Blair to turn against him, she had fallen under some spell and thought Marcus was some sort of angel sent from the heavens. He scoffed in disgust at the thought of Blair referring to Marcus as a gentleman. Bullshit, Marcus was a fraud and Chuck knew it, he would prove it and catch him out no matter what it took, Marcus may have taken Blair away from him but there was no way he was going to let him have the last laugh. He would show Blair that she was wrong in trusting that creep and choosing Marcus over him, she would regret the day she divorced Chuck for the rest of her life. All he needed was a plan. That was his speciality. Step one would be to take matters into his own hands, he knew what he had to do, even if it would break his heart.
The next day at twilight Chuck, after he had made all the adequate preparations, had decided it was time to take the initiative, after all this was what Blair had wanted. He had everything in order and he was more determined than ever to destroy Marcus and if Blair ended up being collateral damage then so be it. She was the one who had asked for a divorce. He looked around what used to be "their" bedroom after he had done what he needed to do, collecting his things and walking down the stairs towards the lounge where he knew Blair would be sitting, reading as she usually did in the evenings.
He looked at her in the low light, he could see the side of her delicate face, absorbed in her novel, she hadn't even noticed him enter the room. He sucked in a breath, he hadn't even said anything yet but he could already feel the tension bubbling and the moment he saw her beautiful face he knew his heart would tear up at the prospect of leaving her and maybe never seeing or touching her again. He choked back his emotions and looked to the ground, hoping his opening sentence wouldn't affect her that much.
"I'm....leaving." he murmured to her and her head snapped around to face him, she thought maybe he was joking or playing some game, but then she saw the look in his eyes, he was leaving.
She put down her book and her glass of champagne and moved towards him slowly, she could already feel herself trembling, "What do you mean?" she asked almost in a whisper, hoping that he just meant he was going out to work or something and would be coming back later.
He inhaled deeply, he couldn't change his mind just because she looked a little upset, she made him do this. You said we could never work," he paused, he didn't want to blame it on her but she had driven him out and she needed to know that, "I cant keep waiting in the hope that maybe some day you'll choose me, you wanted me to stay away so I wont bother you any more." he couldn't help feeling guilty for his part in all of this, he had at times pushed her and maybe even mistreated her, in a way he pushed their relationship without ever telling her how he truly felt about her and maybe that was why she would never trust him or give herself to him.
"Chuck," she breathed, she knew she would start crying any second, but she didn't want him to leave, she wanted him to change but he never would, "I just.....I wanted you to...for us to..." she had no idea how to finish her sentence without coming out weak and needy and she needed to be strong if he was willing to just walk out on her so easily. Yes she had been the one to ask for a divorce and for him to leave but now that he was standing here telling her that he was leaving, it just made it all real and her heart clenched at the thought of actually losing him and having to divorce him.
"It doesn't matter any more, you were right about me, all the bad things you would say about me, it was all true, besides you have friends here anyway, Marcus, Jenny...you dont need me." He watched her shake her head and he had no idea what she meant by it, did she disagree, did she want him to leave?
She placed a hand on his shoulder and he flinched as if she had stung him so she quickly retrieved her hand and tilted her head to the ground unable to look him in the eye any more.
"Blair, I cant do this any more...I really am leaving." he reminded her willing her to just look at him. She lifted her head up hearing the emotion in his voice, hoping that it would be reflected in his eyes, and it was. She had no idea what made her do it but she reached a hand to his cheek and tilted her lips towards him, kissing him and sucking on to his lips hoping that it would have an effect on him. As her tongue delved into his mouth tasting him, he pulled away, for the first time he pulled away from her and it shocked her because she knew what it meant, it really was over this time. She turned abruptly away from him not wanting him to see the tears fall from her eyes.
"Blair," he whispered her name for the hundredth time, "did you even hear me...im leaving...you wont see me again." he just wanted her to say something about it, maybe tell him not to leave, tell him that they could work it out and that she would take his word for it when he told her not to trust Marcus, but she didn't. Blair kept facing her back towards him not bothering to turn around, she couldn't face him right now, not whilst he was about to walk out on her, she could hear him clearly, he was leaving and she couldn't stop him so what did he expect her to do, watch him whilst he walked out, she would never give him the satisfaction so she stood her ground and waited.
"Blair," she heard her name again for the hundredth time and waited for him to keep speaking as the tears continued to fall from her eyes, "i'm sorry for ever hurting you and I hope you're right about Marcus because I wont be around to protect you any longer..." she hated the fact that he would bring up Marcus again, why did he have to pretend that Marcus had anything to do with this, "i'm leaving" he said again, as if he needed to say it again, she had heard it the first bloody time.
She couldn't believe it was coming to this, he was actually leaving and she wouldn't see him again. What would people think, the media would go crazy with this story and her business would be affected, their breakup wasn't supposed to go like this. They were supposed to pretend that they were parting ways in a mutual understanding and remaining good friends, he wasn't just supposed to leave.
That was when she heard it.
The slamming of the door that meant Chuck was gone.
That was the moment her world fell apart, she fell to her knees in floods of tears not believing that he was actually gone. This had to be some sick game or a trick to get her to fall at his feet, she climbed to her feet and ran towards the foyer hoping that Chuck would just pop out from somewhere and shout happy April Fool's or something, even thought it wasn't April, but it was empty.
He was gone.
Thankyou for reading...ok im not sure what you'll think of this chapter...I guess it was kinda boring compared to the others but this is like the "dent" in the storyline where you think...ok has he really left? Where will things go from here?
but remember that Blair is left all alone with Marcus now and Chuck wont have any clue what will go on in the Bass house between Blair and Marcus.....but he does have a plan up his sleeve...hmmmm I doubt any of you will guess what's going to happen...but seriously just refrain from guessing because it would defeat the purpose of reading on!
Review please and let me know what you're thinking of the developments...did Chuck make the right decision? Does Blair deserve to be collateral damage if Chuck tries to destroy Marcus? Do you think Blair is falling in love with Marcus?