The Stars in My Eyes-Chapter 1/3
A/N: I already have two stories in-progress but I just feel the need to get this one out of my system. I hated the last episode of Gossip Girl, so this is just a way of venting my frustration. All the events in the last episode have happened; this is just my way of how I would like to see it go down. Enough said. Here’s chapter 1 of 3.
What the fuck had he just done? Had he really just slept with Vanessa Abrams? He actually hated the bitch; he had just been so forlorn after seeing Blair with Nate. But that was no excuse to do this, he actually felt disgusted with himself at the moment.
He rolled over on his side and bumped into another body. So the bitch was still here, he needed to get rid of her immediately. He jumped out of bed.
“You need to get out of here instantly. What happened last night was a mistake.”
Vanessa propped herself up on her elbows, the sheet covering her slipping past her shoulders and exposing her. Chuck shuddered in revulsion. She grinned back at him. “What’s the matter with you? Last night, everything was fine and if you really did want me gone, we wouldn’t have had sex three times last night.”
“I only had sex with you because Blair wasn’t available.” He sneered. “But let me tell you right now, how much I regret it. I forgot how much I hate you and this all started because we were trying to make Blair and Nate jealous. Remember?”
Vanessa grabbed the sheet back and covered herself; she hadn’t expected him to be so angry. “Okay. Let’s forget what just happened here and figure out a way for you to get Blair and for me to get Nate.”
“What is it that you have in mind?” He asked.
Vanessa smiled. “The same thing that we have been doing. We’ll pretend that we’re a couple and it will make them insane with jealously. Eventually. I’m sure they’ll be going to Serena’s party next week and we have to make sure that we’re there too.”
Chuck tried to think, but his mind was blank. “Serena’s party?”
She sighed. “Yeah, Serena is throwing a party for everybody that’s a senior and will be going to college. We’re both seniors and so are Blair and Nate, so we just have to pretend to be a couple until they both realize that they don’t want to be with each other but rather with us.”
He weighed his options, but found that he had none other than this scheme. “Fine, I’ll do it. But there will be no sex under any circumstances. Are you sure that you didn’t drug me last night, because that’s the only way that I would sleep with you.”
She rolled her eyes at him. “Very funny, Bass. You know it’s not like I wanted to sleep with you either, I was just depressed about Nate.”
Chuck sauntered back over to her. “We’re in agreement then. Let’s go break them up.”
Blair smoothed her white skirt down her legs as she sat down. She still couldn’t get the image of Chuck and Vanessa kissing out of her mind. She knew she shouldn’t be mad since she was back with Nate. But she still couldn’t help feeling a little betrayed. He had just come to her a few weeks ago saying that he still wanted her, but now everything was so fucked up again. They just couldn’t get it right.
Chuck Bass was her past, and Nate Archibald was her future. If she was honest with herself, she would admit that she wished it was the other way around. She had to stop thinking about him and his dark brooding eyes, sensual mouth, and incredible body that he hid under his three piece suits or she was bound to go insane.
She was lost in her thoughts, until she felt Nate shaking her. “Blair, have you heard anything that I’ve been saying?”
Blair looked at him. “I’m sorry; it’s just been a long week. What were you saying?”
“I was just asking you if you thought getting back together was the right thing to do.”
She looked down at her hands as she answered him. “I don’t really know, Nate. Let’s be honest with each other, we both know that we don’t feel any real passion for each other. But I think that’s what we both need right now, we need to be in a relationship that’s safe and comfortable.”
He pushed his bangs off his forehead before asking, “Are you still in love with Chuck?”
“Yes.” She admitted without preamble.
“Then what are we doing, Blair? You’re in love with Chuck and I really don’t know how I feel about Vanessa. So what are we doing together? Why aren’t you fighting for Chuck?”
She stood up and walked over to the window. “Those are all very good questions, Nate. And the answer is I’m tired. I’m so physically exhausted from fighting for Chuck, he wants me one week and then the next he doesn’t. I can take his mood swings anymore and he’s hurt me too many times to count. I just want to feel good about myself for once and we’re friends Nate, so what’s the big deal?”
He stood up and followed her to the window, and wrapped her in his arms. She leaned her head against his shoulder. “Okay, Blair. I can see your point, but I have one condition.”
“If one of us wants to end this relationship, then there are no arguments from the other. This will never work otherwise.”
Blair turned around and smiled at him. “You’ve got yourself a deal, Archibald.”
“So what is the point of this party tonight, S?” Blair asked her, as they were sitting around sipping some lattes.
“It’s just something that I thought would be really fun for us seniors, kind of like a going away party before college.”
“Sounds like it could be interesting. Who’s coming?” She asked the question innocently, but she had an ulterior motive for asking.
“You, Nate, Dan, Penelope, Iz, Hazel, and a whole bunch of kids from school.” Serena glanced at her quickly before continuing, “And Chuck is going with Vanessa.”
“What? They’re dating?”
Serena cursed herself for opening her big mouth. “Yeah, apparently they are. I’m sure it’s nothing though, Blair.”
Blair bruised her lip because she was biting it so hard. “I thought he hated her.” She said in a small voice.
Serena reached over to grasp her hand. “I thought that you were over him, B. I mean, you were with Nate again, aren’t you?”
She looked down at the floor. “It’s never going to happen, Serena. I am never going to be able to get over Chuck. The thing with Nate is more of a friendship. We’re just going to be there for each other.”
“When you see him tonight, make sure you look you’re best, so Chuck knows what he gave up.”
Blair shook her head. “No, I can’t do that. It’s time that I tried to forget Chuck Bass but that doesn’t mean I’m not going to humiliate that bitch.”
The party was in full swing when Blair and Nate arrived. She scanned the guests to see if Chuck was there. She didn’t see him, and she sent up a little prayer of thanks at that. Maybe he would decide not to show. She had promised herself that she wasn’t going to dress up for him, but she was lying if she told herself she didn’t. She had chosen to wear a Herve Leger bandage dress, and Blair knew that she looked good. The dress was a cool grey slate color that brought out her eyes and it was skintight. Every time she moved, you could see all of her curves and she was actually hoping that she could parade in front of Chuck to show him what he was missing out on.
Nate had been speechless when he saw her tonight, and Blair took that as a sign that she looked pretty damn good. Not everything made Nate Archibald speechless. She grabbed a flute of champagne off a waiter’s tray and hesitantly brought it to her lips. Truth be told, she wasn’t that big on champagne but she had a feeling that she was going to need a lot of liquor to get through tonight.
Nate had gone over to Dan and so she was left all alone, still scanning the crowd for Chuck. Her eyes finally found him. He stared back at her with so much intensity that she thought she would melt on the floor in a puddle. He was on the second floor, and he looked amazingly well in his suit tonight. Chuck had his usual suit on but he had paired with a purple bowtie. Blair felt a smile come to her lips, she actually loved his bowties, they were just so Chuck.
They still were staring at each other, and she felt the familiar heat begin to creep back into her body. He could get her aroused with just a simple look, and she knew it would never be like that with anybody else. His eyes scanned down her dress and she saw him swallow past the lump in his throat. He obviously liked what he saw.
She felt her feet moving towards him, but what she saw next stalled her. She saw Vanessa sneak up behind him and kiss him. Blair felt a sinking feeling in her stomach, but she found that she couldn’t look away from the scene. Chuck finally broke the kiss and looked back at Blair, but she needed to get away before she embarrassed herself. So she turned around and fled to find an entrance to get away from him and Vanessa.
Chuck saw what was happening and flew down the stairs to stop her from leaving. He caught up with her just at the entrance.
“Hello, Chuck.” She noted that her voice was calm, and she was happy for that at least. But on the inside, she was feeling anything but calm.
He placed his hands on her hips. “You look absolutely beautiful tonight, Blair.”
She moved away from his touch. “Thank you.”
He stared at her for a few moments, but when she didn’t say anything else he started to feel exasperated. “Are you even going to talk to me?”
Blair lifted her eyes to his. “What is there left to say?”
Chuck ran his hand up to her arm. “There’s plenty. There always will be between us.”
“Alright, Chuck. You want to talk, then tell me what the hell you’re doing with Vanessa. I thought that you hated her.”
He sighed; this was not what he wanted to talk about. “I did hate her, but I kind of feel differently now. I guess I just got to know her and the rest of it kind of snuck up on me. I really like her though, Blair.”
She felt a fury at his words; she always thought that he would only feel that way about her. But it looked like now that he was into Vanessa. Blair had a sad smile on her face. “If this is what you want, then I’m happy for you Chuck.” She turned away from him but he grabbed her arm.
He had a defeated look on his face. “I can’t do this anymore, Blair. I do hate Vanessa. I really hate the bitch.”
“What are you talking about? You just told me that you were falling for her.”
“Well, I lied. It wouldn’t be the first time, would he?” Chuck asked. “I was only with Vanessa to try and break you up with Nate. It was all a plan, we thought that we would make you guys jealous and that would be the end of your fling. I can’t pretend to be with Vanessa anymore, it’s physically making me ill.”
Blair couldn’t find the words to even speak; she was so shocked by his admission. She felt a hopefully fluttering in her stomach.
Chuck cupped her face. “I’m sorry for the whole mess with Bart, Jack, and all of the rest. But I’m better now, I have gotten over it. I only want one thing now.”
“What’s that?” She asked breathlessly.
He smoothed his fingers over her cheek. “You. I want you, Blair. That’s all I ever wanted and I don’t think I’ll ever want anybody but you.”
She couldn’t help the smile that spread over her face and the giddiness that crept into her heart. She wrapped her arms around his neck. “”That’s what I want too. I want you so much, Chuck. Ever since that night in your limo, I haven’t been able to get you out of my mind and I don’t want to.”
He smiled back at her. A true smile, the smile he only shared with her. “That’s exactly how I feel too, Blair.” A frown spread across his face. “What about Nate?”
She shook her head. “Nate and I had an agreement, that’s all. We just wanted to be there for each other, but we’re only friends. That’s all we’ll ever be.”
Just as he dipped his head to kiss her, Vanessa crept up behind him and threw an arm around his neck.
Chuck pushed Blair to the side and then threw Vanessa off of him. “Get the fuck off me.” He spat in her face.
Vanessa pretended to look hurt, but then quickly composed her features. “You told her, didn’t you?”
Blair grabbed his hand and held on to it. “Yes, he told me. I just want to tell you myself, to stay the hell away from my man. Do you understand me?”
Chuck grinned at her words, but turned serious again when he heard what Vanessa said next.
Vanessa turned to Blair to speak. “He told you? Did he tell you everything? Did he tell you what happened last week?”
Blair gulped nervously; something else was going on here that she didn’t know.
“Don’t Vanessa! Don't ruin this for me!” Chuck shouted.
Blair let his hand slip out of her grasp, and he knew that he was fucked.
Vanessa placed a triumphant smile on her face. “Chuck fucked me last week. Not once, or twice, but three fucking times. What do you have to say about that?”
Blair felt her legs give out, and felt the acute pain that threatened to overtake her. But she was surprised that she was still standing. She felt tears ran down her face but made no attempt to stop them. She turned weakly around to face Chuck. “You slept with her? Her voice broke, and she knew that is was the beginning of the end for them. Once again.
To be continued…
A/N: Okay, so what do you think? Should I continue? Let me know. Please review.