Cas was cleaning up the mess the guests had left behind when he saw Daphne’s reflection in the mirror. He looked down and put the glasses in the sink.
“Emmanuel” Daphne said soft. Cas didn’t respond. “Emmanuel, look at me” Cas reluctantly turned around, but still didn’t look at her.
Daphne cupped his face, forcing him to look up. “Emmanuel, honey, I am so sorry for yelling at you. Please believe me”
The look in his eyes made her step back. “You’re not afraid of me, are you?” she asked slowly. Cas didn’t answer that question.
“You should consider your actions before committing them” he said with trembling voice. “I am not some punch bag for you to lash out on”
Daphne lay her hands on his cheeks again. “And I know that, darling. I would never hurt you intentionally” She took a deep breath and let go of Cas. “We’re going to get married in the Butterfield park. I know it’s uncommon not to marry in a church, but the Butterfield park was Martin’s favorite spot and if we do it there he’ll be with us in some way”
“I understand that” Cas said.
Daphne looked at the clock and sighed. “It’s late. I should go to bed”
“I will follow you right away” Cas commented.
“Oh no, you can’t” Daphne said as if she had forgotten something. “You can’t stay here. The bachelor always has to sleep somewhere else the night before the wedding”
Cas thought deeply about that. “Is it okay if I stay here and try to find a shelter while you claim the sleep you need?” he asked eventually.
“Of course it is, dear” Daphne said. She kissed him on his left cheek before going upstairs.
“Emmanuel” Daphne said soft. Cas didn’t respond. “Emmanuel, look at me” Cas reluctantly turned around, but still didn’t look at her.
Daphne cupped his face, forcing him to look up. “Emmanuel, honey, I am so sorry for yelling at you. Please believe me”
The look in his eyes made her step back. “You’re not afraid of me, are you?” she asked slowly. Cas didn’t answer that question.
“You should consider your actions before committing them” he said with trembling voice. “I am not some punch bag for you to lash out on”
Daphne lay her hands on his cheeks again. “And I know that, darling. I would never hurt you intentionally” She took a deep breath and let go of Cas. “We’re going to get married in the Butterfield park. I know it’s uncommon not to marry in a church, but the Butterfield park was Martin’s favorite spot and if we do it there he’ll be with us in some way”
“I understand that” Cas said.
Daphne looked at the clock and sighed. “It’s late. I should go to bed”
“I will follow you right away” Cas commented.
“Oh no, you can’t” Daphne said as if she had forgotten something. “You can’t stay here. The bachelor always has to sleep somewhere else the night before the wedding”
Cas thought deeply about that. “Is it okay if I stay here and try to find a shelter while you claim the sleep you need?” he asked eventually.
“Of course it is, dear” Daphne said. She kissed him on his left cheek before going upstairs.
Cas stroked his hair and tried to keep his breathing under control. Meg didn’t understand. He needed more. He had lied about the pain being back, but he hadn’t lied about needing another dose. He opened the upper buttons of his shirt, suddenly feeling feverish.
He hurried to the dresser and opened all drawers and cupboard doors. He searched through them, checking all boxes, finding nothing. He slammed everything shut and began to rub his fingers again.
“If I were a medicine cabinet, where would I be?” Cas mumbled trembling and out of breath. He ran to the stairs and sprinted upstairs. He went to the bathroom and opened the mirror cupboard.
“Got it” he said, sighing relieved and he grabbed all boxes that had medicines in it. He took out all the strips and swallowed the pills one by one.
He leaned against the cold, marble wall and sank down on the floor. He closed his eyes and fell asleep.
He hurried to the dresser and opened all drawers and cupboard doors. He searched through them, checking all boxes, finding nothing. He slammed everything shut and began to rub his fingers again.
“If I were a medicine cabinet, where would I be?” Cas mumbled trembling and out of breath. He ran to the stairs and sprinted upstairs. He went to the bathroom and opened the mirror cupboard.
“Got it” he said, sighing relieved and he grabbed all boxes that had medicines in it. He took out all the strips and swallowed the pills one by one.
He leaned against the cold, marble wall and sank down on the floor. He closed his eyes and fell asleep.