hey so i dont really rite poetry, im not reely tht great at xpressing my feelings persay X-D but i figured id take a stab at it. i dont no if i wud necesarily call my self emo i meen i guess i thnk like an emo and lisin to emo bands and other emo steryotyped things *cough cough* but i dont dress the part wich ive noticed is a big thing for some people so idk call me watever te fuck u want. i do like to write and im sitting here at around 4 in the morning lisining to marilyn manson and i figured fuck it ill write sum poetry. so ill stop talking bull shit and jst write it hows tht :) here it is (p.s. dont blame me if it fuking sux)
staring at my arms ther are scars of moments past
my long blond hair hangs in my eyes
the pale white scars from a mind harased
a boy who cuts insted of cries
what the fucks the point!!!???
why do we live this life???!!!
ur hoping an afterlife? i hate to disapoint
i curse every religion as i pull out my knife
wat reasons do i have to live each painful day
the only thing tht comes to mind is music
to lisin and to play
but how will tht suffice no i need a specific
its happiness i need
but how to get it in this fukd up world
so i cut myself i watch it bleed
and my troubles all unfurll
i focus on the pain
it takes my grief away
for seconds my depression slain
but after tht my life is again grey
i make a decision
im ready to do it
goodbye cruel world
and eveything in it
the wrists
are slit
the job is done
my geath is pitied by none
staring at my arms ther are scars of moments past
my long blond hair hangs in my eyes
the pale white scars from a mind harased
a boy who cuts insted of cries
what the fucks the point!!!???
why do we live this life???!!!
ur hoping an afterlife? i hate to disapoint
i curse every religion as i pull out my knife
wat reasons do i have to live each painful day
the only thing tht comes to mind is music
to lisin and to play
but how will tht suffice no i need a specific
its happiness i need
but how to get it in this fukd up world
so i cut myself i watch it bleed
and my troubles all unfurll
i focus on the pain
it takes my grief away
for seconds my depression slain
but after tht my life is again grey
i make a decision
im ready to do it
goodbye cruel world
and eveything in it
the wrists
are slit
the job is done
my geath is pitied by none
I feel dizzy,
But no pain,
My heart is racing,
But I can't feel a thing,
The blood drips,
From my wrists to the floor
I begin to stumble,
You reach the door,
Walking inside
You see me bleeding,
You want to help,
But I'll deny,
Saying:
Don't save me,
I want to die,
You can't believe,
The words I just spoke,
But you walk away,
Hurt,
You return,
I'm still alive,
You could help me,
But I cry,
I still don't want you
I never did,
Now leave me be,
I'm better off dead,
You leave again,
Tears in your eyes,
You loved me,
And you were letting me die,
An hour later,
You walk back in,
I'm lying on my bed,
Eyes staring blankly,
I watch you,
You could have saved me,
If you wanted to...
But no pain,
My heart is racing,
But I can't feel a thing,
The blood drips,
From my wrists to the floor
I begin to stumble,
You reach the door,
Walking inside
You see me bleeding,
You want to help,
But I'll deny,
Saying:
Don't save me,
I want to die,
You can't believe,
The words I just spoke,
But you walk away,
Hurt,
You return,
I'm still alive,
You could help me,
But I cry,
I still don't want you
I never did,
Now leave me be,
I'm better off dead,
You leave again,
Tears in your eyes,
You loved me,
And you were letting me die,
An hour later,
You walk back in,
I'm lying on my bed,
Eyes staring blankly,
I watch you,
You could have saved me,
If you wanted to...