“Honey, time to get up and get ready for your first day of high school!” my mom said eagerly waiting down the staircase. I yawn and look in the mirror. I looked terrible my eyeliner was smeared and my hair was knotted badly from teasing it and not brushing it before I went to sleep last night.
“Whatever” I said to myself as I tried to make it look better, but all that happened was flat and wavy bangs I knew I had to fix this problem. I quickly got into the shower, straightened my hair, teased it, brushed my teeth and washed it out with coke. Then, I threw on my black ripped skinny jeans with my rainbow black tee shirt I got from Pacsun and my All Time Low vs. Paramore hoodie and ran out the door.
As I reached the bus stop the bus came and I got on, but I was so out of breath that I didn’t see one of the blondes trip me.
“Oopse, watch it freak” she said in a stupid tone. I just stood up quietly and picked up my stuff ignoring her and sat in the empty seat in the back of the bus.
When I got to the school everyone was staring at me and I hated it. As I cleared my way through the crowd I ran into what felt a brick wall.
“Sorry I wasn’t paying attention I was trying to get away from all these disgusting people.” I heard a low voice say, I looked up and saw another skater like me of course he had his skateboard with him and he was riding on it……..makes sense that he wasn’t looking where he was going if he was going 50 miles an hour on a skateboard. But it didn’t matter I didn’t speak.
“I’m Jeff and you are?” he waited impenitently for my name.
“Hayley, my name is Hayley.” I said while looking down. He then stood up and reached out his hand to help me up. I stared at it, he just laughed at me.
“It’s not going to bite” he joked. I sighed and grabbed his hand and he lifted me up easily.
“So what are you doing in NY?” he asked me.
“I’ve always lived in NY, besides why do you care?”
“Because you’re different from the other girls, dude something’s different about you now spill, where are you really from?”
“Michigan, okay I’m from the crappy Detroit alleys.”
“Have you looked here? It’s no different and besides it’s not bad there?
“YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHATS IT LIKE THERE SO SHUT UP CUZ THAT PLACE IS HORRIBLE!” I screamed at him.
“Whoa, Hayles don’t freak it’s just a state.” He told me bravely. He had a lot of guts to tell me not to freak, I thought in my mind.
“I’m sorry, it’s just….my sister was stabbed there and I’m never going back there ever again. He froze there not knowing what to say, he was speechless.
“Hayles I had no idea im so sorry” he came up and hugged me as I stared to shed tears.
Now, ever since that day we have been best friends. It’s been a year now and Jeff and I are going to grinding at the school steps. I never was a perfect child but I also was never good at anything so I was a little nervous to see how it would turn out. That was until Cassy and her crew showed up. Jeff gagged as he saw Cassy come closer to him. She started to flirt with him.
“Your hair is so sexy, how it’s dark and black and how your bangs go over your eye and are spiked in the back and your eyes, those smoky grey eyes….I never notice how cute you are.” She began to lean it and I had to hurry fast before he would barf from being disgusted. I saw a strawberry smoothie on the side of the street right by the beach but there was a bridge there I wouldn’t make it in time…unless. I then grabbed my skateboard while Jeff tried to pull her away and I grinded the whole 20 foot wide bridge and grabbed the smoothie and raced back over to the bitch and right when her lips touched his, she got served.
“Don’t forget the cherry” I said happily after I poured the smoothie on there head, and not only that but she was wearing a bikini so it must have been a little chilly for her.
“AGHHHHHHH YOU STUPID EMO HORE I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU JUST DID THAT!!!” she yelled.
“Hey I’d rather be an emo hoe than a slutty blonde bitch any day. She stomped away yelling and crying, while as for me I was laughing my fuckin’ ass off on the floor rolling.
(Cough)” Thanks Haley, I don’t know how I could ever repay you” Jeff said to me shyly.
“Don’t thank me cuz you taught me how to grind which was awesome, so thank you!” I said happily and ran up and hugged him.
“Hayley can we talk for a sec?” Jeff asked me.
“Yah, what’s up? Is everything okay?” I asked.
“No things aren’t okay, because I fell in love with my best friend.” I stared shocked at him as he turned to me and said Hayley William Rogers will you be my girlfriend-
No let me rephrase that. “Hayley William Rogers will you be my life?”
“You want me to marry you!! Your insane I’m only 15 an-
(Jeff laughing)
“Why are you laughing this is serious your so stupid! I yelled at him frustrated.
“Hayley I don’t want to marry you, I want to be your boyfriend and you call me stupid. I laughed and told him yes cuz I’ve actually had a big crush on him or a while but I was afraid to tell him and he broke the ice. When I went in to kiss him he fell to the ground and was holding his arm looking in pain, I lifted up his sleeve and there was scars on him.
“I….I…I’m sorry Hayley I didn’t want you to find out yet but please call 911 and fast! Jeff yelled at me.
“Whatever” I said to myself as I tried to make it look better, but all that happened was flat and wavy bangs I knew I had to fix this problem. I quickly got into the shower, straightened my hair, teased it, brushed my teeth and washed it out with coke. Then, I threw on my black ripped skinny jeans with my rainbow black tee shirt I got from Pacsun and my All Time Low vs. Paramore hoodie and ran out the door.
As I reached the bus stop the bus came and I got on, but I was so out of breath that I didn’t see one of the blondes trip me.
“Oopse, watch it freak” she said in a stupid tone. I just stood up quietly and picked up my stuff ignoring her and sat in the empty seat in the back of the bus.
When I got to the school everyone was staring at me and I hated it. As I cleared my way through the crowd I ran into what felt a brick wall.
“Sorry I wasn’t paying attention I was trying to get away from all these disgusting people.” I heard a low voice say, I looked up and saw another skater like me of course he had his skateboard with him and he was riding on it……..makes sense that he wasn’t looking where he was going if he was going 50 miles an hour on a skateboard. But it didn’t matter I didn’t speak.
“I’m Jeff and you are?” he waited impenitently for my name.
“Hayley, my name is Hayley.” I said while looking down. He then stood up and reached out his hand to help me up. I stared at it, he just laughed at me.
“It’s not going to bite” he joked. I sighed and grabbed his hand and he lifted me up easily.
“So what are you doing in NY?” he asked me.
“I’ve always lived in NY, besides why do you care?”
“Because you’re different from the other girls, dude something’s different about you now spill, where are you really from?”
“Michigan, okay I’m from the crappy Detroit alleys.”
“Have you looked here? It’s no different and besides it’s not bad there?
“YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHATS IT LIKE THERE SO SHUT UP CUZ THAT PLACE IS HORRIBLE!” I screamed at him.
“Whoa, Hayles don’t freak it’s just a state.” He told me bravely. He had a lot of guts to tell me not to freak, I thought in my mind.
“I’m sorry, it’s just….my sister was stabbed there and I’m never going back there ever again. He froze there not knowing what to say, he was speechless.
“Hayles I had no idea im so sorry” he came up and hugged me as I stared to shed tears.
Now, ever since that day we have been best friends. It’s been a year now and Jeff and I are going to grinding at the school steps. I never was a perfect child but I also was never good at anything so I was a little nervous to see how it would turn out. That was until Cassy and her crew showed up. Jeff gagged as he saw Cassy come closer to him. She started to flirt with him.
“Your hair is so sexy, how it’s dark and black and how your bangs go over your eye and are spiked in the back and your eyes, those smoky grey eyes….I never notice how cute you are.” She began to lean it and I had to hurry fast before he would barf from being disgusted. I saw a strawberry smoothie on the side of the street right by the beach but there was a bridge there I wouldn’t make it in time…unless. I then grabbed my skateboard while Jeff tried to pull her away and I grinded the whole 20 foot wide bridge and grabbed the smoothie and raced back over to the bitch and right when her lips touched his, she got served.
“Don’t forget the cherry” I said happily after I poured the smoothie on there head, and not only that but she was wearing a bikini so it must have been a little chilly for her.
“AGHHHHHHH YOU STUPID EMO HORE I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU JUST DID THAT!!!” she yelled.
“Hey I’d rather be an emo hoe than a slutty blonde bitch any day. She stomped away yelling and crying, while as for me I was laughing my fuckin’ ass off on the floor rolling.
(Cough)” Thanks Haley, I don’t know how I could ever repay you” Jeff said to me shyly.
“Don’t thank me cuz you taught me how to grind which was awesome, so thank you!” I said happily and ran up and hugged him.
“Hayley can we talk for a sec?” Jeff asked me.
“Yah, what’s up? Is everything okay?” I asked.
“No things aren’t okay, because I fell in love with my best friend.” I stared shocked at him as he turned to me and said Hayley William Rogers will you be my girlfriend-
No let me rephrase that. “Hayley William Rogers will you be my life?”
“You want me to marry you!! Your insane I’m only 15 an-
(Jeff laughing)
“Why are you laughing this is serious your so stupid! I yelled at him frustrated.
“Hayley I don’t want to marry you, I want to be your boyfriend and you call me stupid. I laughed and told him yes cuz I’ve actually had a big crush on him or a while but I was afraid to tell him and he broke the ice. When I went in to kiss him he fell to the ground and was holding his arm looking in pain, I lifted up his sleeve and there was scars on him.
“I….I…I’m sorry Hayley I didn’t want you to find out yet but please call 911 and fast! Jeff yelled at me.
Playground, schoolbell rings again. Rainclouds come to play, again. Has no one told you, she's not breathing? Hello, im your mind, giving you someone to talk to, hello.
If i smile and dont believe, soon i know, i'll wake from this dream.
Don't try to fix me, im not broken!
Hello, im the lie living for you, so you can hide, dont cry.....
Suddenly i know, im not sleeping, hello, im still here!
.....all that's left.....of yesterday......
Hey everyone. Just wanted you to know about this song, even if you dont know what its about, somehow it makes you feel sad...... Just look up the song and you will know what i mean.....
If i smile and dont believe, soon i know, i'll wake from this dream.
Don't try to fix me, im not broken!
Hello, im the lie living for you, so you can hide, dont cry.....
Suddenly i know, im not sleeping, hello, im still here!
.....all that's left.....of yesterday......
Hey everyone. Just wanted you to know about this song, even if you dont know what its about, somehow it makes you feel sad...... Just look up the song and you will know what i mean.....
Nothing Remains
© Joni Jefferson
Innocent eyes and sweet laughter – now vacant and empty
Staring into a dark void
Hot tears on my pillow
Scared to fight
Too young to understand
Cold hands everywhere – holding, touching, hurting
Rape and perversion
Blood – sweat – on my clothes
Hatred – confusion – disgust
Night after night, week after week, year after year
No longer a child – only an object
Silence – no dreams – no sleep
So many missing years
So many forgotten memories
All virtue – goodness – happiness gone
Childhood stolen – innocence murdered
Only pain and sadness remained
The child is gone – the child is dead
Nothing else remains
Source: The Child Is Gone – The Child Is Dead, Rape Poems link
© Joni Jefferson
Innocent eyes and sweet laughter – now vacant and empty
Staring into a dark void
Hot tears on my pillow
Scared to fight
Too young to understand
Cold hands everywhere – holding, touching, hurting
Rape and perversion
Blood – sweat – on my clothes
Hatred – confusion – disgust
Night after night, week after week, year after year
No longer a child – only an object
Silence – no dreams – no sleep
So many missing years
So many forgotten memories
All virtue – goodness – happiness gone
Childhood stolen – innocence murdered
Only pain and sadness remained
The child is gone – the child is dead
Nothing else remains
Source: The Child Is Gone – The Child Is Dead, Rape Poems link
Adam seen some of his friend fighting.Adam asked them what are you guys fighting about.They all said NOTHING GO AWAY ADAM.Adam said NO I'M TRIED OF YOU GUYS TREATING ME LIKE CRAP.They all said we are going to beat you up.Adam said DON'T YOU GUYS TOUCH ME I WILL KILL YOU.They all rolled there eyes.Adam said I HATE YOU GUYS SO MUCH.They all started kicking and punching Adam.Jim said IF YOU EVER MESS WITH US AGAIN WE WILL KILL YOU.Jack said WE SOULD KILL HIM.Adam said I'M CALLING MY OTHER FRIENDS Aster and Zane and Axel.Jim said BUT THEY CAN'T BEAT US.Adam said MY OTHER FRIENDS ARE HERE.Jim said YEAH BUT THEY ARE NOT STRONGER THEN US.Axel said I'M GOING TO KILL YOU GUYS.Axel and Zane and Aster started KICKING AND PUNCHING THEM.They all die and the fight was over.