Hey DE family, so this has nothing to do with DE well at least not completely, it’s about my journey with DE & TVD, and the reasons I have stopped watching the show even DE scenes only, what I’m about to write/say is not going to be pretty at all but it will be honest 100% from the heart about my experience of this show, and I don’t have to read it but I hope you do, because you were such big part of my life and an AMAZING support system to pull me throughout DE journey, I love so much guys thank you for everything but I have to get this out and I know I’m asking too much but I know in my heart that you’re the only people would understand what I’m going through so please read my last farewell article and please comment thanks again xoxo.
I want to start with I was 1000% DE fan since S1 E3, since the epic moment where we see Damon is more human than anyone realizes, and I have wanted and supported this couple through EVERYTHING, I even had fights with SE & DB fans and fandom a lot, I never gave up the desire to want them to be together, with all of that there was always a small part of me that always kind of gave up on the idea, or thought they would never happen, that just grow as the seasons went on and you guys as always have been great at Lessing that part of me but it was still there no matter how much I didn’t want it to be.
My last straw of not giving up hope was in season 3, when Damon & Elena when their relationship was really put to the test, that season was real test of whether Damon & Elena would ever happen, and whether they would work out as a couple or not (maybe not to all of you but it was for me) and we started off with great start for them the best actually, dick was away and we actually got to see how Elena feels without that thing over her shoulder all the time, we finally got to see dick being showmen for what he(it) truly is a fucking douche bag , selfish, cowered a-hole. We got to see Damon letting his walls down, and Elena accepting that she does feel more him more than she fought her feelings for Damon once more and started focusing her dick, and how she could help him and save him and bring him back even after he TRIED TO KILL HER on the same fucking bridge her parents DIED in. you might say no she was focused on getting ride off the originals so they wouldn’t take her blood, which is partly true but the main reason she went after them is that so she can get dick back and we all know it 3x14 is a very strong proof that. Then dick was out of nowhere back to his “old self” and Elena was once again after him, I mean since 3x14 she treat Damon like shit (3x11 was the last time she was kind of decent to him) and don’t tell me because he killed Bennie’s mom because guess who helped him? Dick and she treat more than just fine. 3x19 was my last straw after that epic kiss happened I said to myself if nothing comes out of this trip she took with Damon, then nothing will ever happen and I was proven right, because guess what she did the next day she went to the fucking prom with dick, and acted all lovey and flirty with him as if he did NOTHING to hurt her, he didn’t even fucking apologize for what he did to her and she didn’t bring it up once. I mean all it took for Elena to yet again question her feelings for Damon is for him to yet again save her pathetic life from a fucking original using his anger (lashing out) as she would put it, but after everything that dick DID TO HER AND HER FAMILY AFTER ALL THE PAIN HE PUT HER THROUGH, she welcomes him back with open arms REALLY??? (since the all of those epic DE scenes & moments felt much less to me like they were worthless) After 3x20 I knew 100% that she would pick dick in the end of season 3, and yet again I was proven right. After that I was going to stop watching the show, because I knew how it would go from here on out, Damon will always be the REAL HERO hidden in the shadows, while dick took all the credit and glory. But then that JP showed us that DE real first meeting and I was a little hopeful again, so I decided to watch the tragedy that was season 4. Hoping that he would tell her and let her remember that they did actually meet first, that they belonged together all along, but then Elena was killed and turned into a freaking vampire. That part really PISSED ME OFF, because I wanted more than anything for Elena to be human when she was with Damon, for us to get to see how that would work out , even though this happened I kept watching hoping that now that she remembers meeting him first, and that epic love confection that she would wake up and leave dick on the spot, because she said it herself maybe if we met first, yet she remained with the guy who KILLED HER, at that point I was only watching because I love Damon so much, and I was watching it for him only, with still a little part of me hoping for DE, then DE did happen and I couldn’t be happier all of that angst seemed to be worth it, I was finally going to enjoy watching this horrible of show again, but JP couldn’t even let us have a fucking episode and she ruined them FOREVER with the whole SB story line (which until now does NOT MAKE ANY SCENSE AT ALL). After that “sire bond” thing EVERY DE scene or moments felt so fake for me, I mean I knew it wasn’t real, but she sure as hell made feel so fake, every DE scene after that felt so wrong & fake for me because though I knew it was real, she made the whole fandom of TVD have their suspicions about DE.
And even after the “sire bond” was “ broken” again out of nowhere, it still felt so wrong for me, I mean that big speech Elena made in 4x23 I watched trying to make myself feel something, trying to feel that spark they had but it was GONE, JP took what so amazing about them and crushed it into little pieces, don’t get me I was pleased because I finally “got” what I “wanted” for so long but not really, it felt so much less than any DE scene in S1,S2,and S3.
Season 5 came, and I swore to myself not to watch it but it’s was harder than I thought, and I watched the first episode, it wasn’t that bad, but nonetheless I wanted to stop watching it, but my tumblr dash is full of DE S5, and the more I scroll down my dash the more I’m happy I left this horrible show. I mean really after all the CRAP we went through, that’s all what we get ONE good episode for DE and that’s it, because don’t fool yourselves ever since S5 E2, it’s all been about SE, I mean Elena wouldn’t leave the college to find out more about her dad but she left it to find dick seriously???? She went to check on her ex but not her BF really??? She had to think of her ex to stop a compilation REALLY?
From what I have seen from my tumblr dash, S5 DE is all about trying to connives themselves and everyone else that want to be together, Elena in every episode has to reassure Damon that she loves him, and Damon is reassuring her that he understands and he’s “secure” about them. Wow is this really what you all been waiting, hoping, and dreaming about for 4 YEARS?? A relationship that is barley working with both couple having to reassure the other that they still want and love each other. Where they feel the need to say “my girl” and “my boyfriend” just to show to the world that they are oh so great together. I mean what the hell with the whole blaming their relationship for what happened to dick or bonnie, because both events had NOTHING to do them at all yet Elena felt as if she did something wrong by being with Damon, WHAT THE HELL IS THAT??? Because A)when horrible things happened while she was dick she NEVER once blamed him, or blamed their relationship for it and it was THE CAUSE OF ALL THE HORRIBLE THINGS that happened, yet somehow it’s Damon’s fault and here’s because they are together. WTF is that??
I thought this season was about how Elena is happy with Damon, but all we got is how badly she misses dick, how wrong she feels to be with Damon, and she feels about dick moving on without her, I mean the only nice moment we ever had since S5 was 3x06 when they were cuddling in the coach, but guess what that moment was still ruined because in the end of the day she still feel jealous about dick moving on . this made realize that no matter what happens Elena will always want and love dick more than she will ever want or love Damon, it also made realize that I HATE the BITCH and she doesn’t deserve Damon at all.
I mean when I started deleting everything about TVD, the hardest thing was leaving dalaric, not delena, because that’s a true friend (no I don’t ship them as a couple) but what it means to have someone who truly loves and understand you, who stick’s by you even after you killed them for the second time, he doesn’t give up on you even after you “lash out” who accepts every part of you the good and the bad, this also reminded of rose and how she loved Damon for exactly what/who he is, and never left him because he “lashed out”.
Thank god I’m letting go of this show, it’s not easy believe me but it’s the right choice for me. It’s not only because JP screwed up DE since 3X19, it’s also because the show is recycling actors & actress and most importantly recycling story lines over and over again, I mean come on really another doppelganger , wow how original , I also heard that Katherine still has feelings for one of the Salvatore boys, oh I wonder how that could be either way it will not be surprising at all
I’m so sorry to ranted like that but I feel so much better, and that’s out my chest I feel so much lighter. Most importantly I’m so very very sorry If I made you like them less, or if my words were too harsh but I needed to get this out there, to stop carrying it around inside of me, and I feel so much better. Again thanks for being a great family for 4 years I love you all and wish u luck watching the train wreak of a show- xoxo
P.s: please accept my apology.
I want to start with I was 1000% DE fan since S1 E3, since the epic moment where we see Damon is more human than anyone realizes, and I have wanted and supported this couple through EVERYTHING, I even had fights with SE & DB fans and fandom a lot, I never gave up the desire to want them to be together, with all of that there was always a small part of me that always kind of gave up on the idea, or thought they would never happen, that just grow as the seasons went on and you guys as always have been great at Lessing that part of me but it was still there no matter how much I didn’t want it to be.
My last straw of not giving up hope was in season 3, when Damon & Elena when their relationship was really put to the test, that season was real test of whether Damon & Elena would ever happen, and whether they would work out as a couple or not (maybe not to all of you but it was for me) and we started off with great start for them the best actually, dick was away and we actually got to see how Elena feels without that thing over her shoulder all the time, we finally got to see dick being showmen for what he(it) truly is a fucking douche bag , selfish, cowered a-hole. We got to see Damon letting his walls down, and Elena accepting that she does feel more him more than she fought her feelings for Damon once more and started focusing her dick, and how she could help him and save him and bring him back even after he TRIED TO KILL HER on the same fucking bridge her parents DIED in. you might say no she was focused on getting ride off the originals so they wouldn’t take her blood, which is partly true but the main reason she went after them is that so she can get dick back and we all know it 3x14 is a very strong proof that. Then dick was out of nowhere back to his “old self” and Elena was once again after him, I mean since 3x14 she treat Damon like shit (3x11 was the last time she was kind of decent to him) and don’t tell me because he killed Bennie’s mom because guess who helped him? Dick and she treat more than just fine. 3x19 was my last straw after that epic kiss happened I said to myself if nothing comes out of this trip she took with Damon, then nothing will ever happen and I was proven right, because guess what she did the next day she went to the fucking prom with dick, and acted all lovey and flirty with him as if he did NOTHING to hurt her, he didn’t even fucking apologize for what he did to her and she didn’t bring it up once. I mean all it took for Elena to yet again question her feelings for Damon is for him to yet again save her pathetic life from a fucking original using his anger (lashing out) as she would put it, but after everything that dick DID TO HER AND HER FAMILY AFTER ALL THE PAIN HE PUT HER THROUGH, she welcomes him back with open arms REALLY??? (since the all of those epic DE scenes & moments felt much less to me like they were worthless) After 3x20 I knew 100% that she would pick dick in the end of season 3, and yet again I was proven right. After that I was going to stop watching the show, because I knew how it would go from here on out, Damon will always be the REAL HERO hidden in the shadows, while dick took all the credit and glory. But then that JP showed us that DE real first meeting and I was a little hopeful again, so I decided to watch the tragedy that was season 4. Hoping that he would tell her and let her remember that they did actually meet first, that they belonged together all along, but then Elena was killed and turned into a freaking vampire. That part really PISSED ME OFF, because I wanted more than anything for Elena to be human when she was with Damon, for us to get to see how that would work out , even though this happened I kept watching hoping that now that she remembers meeting him first, and that epic love confection that she would wake up and leave dick on the spot, because she said it herself maybe if we met first, yet she remained with the guy who KILLED HER, at that point I was only watching because I love Damon so much, and I was watching it for him only, with still a little part of me hoping for DE, then DE did happen and I couldn’t be happier all of that angst seemed to be worth it, I was finally going to enjoy watching this horrible of show again, but JP couldn’t even let us have a fucking episode and she ruined them FOREVER with the whole SB story line (which until now does NOT MAKE ANY SCENSE AT ALL). After that “sire bond” thing EVERY DE scene or moments felt so fake for me, I mean I knew it wasn’t real, but she sure as hell made feel so fake, every DE scene after that felt so wrong & fake for me because though I knew it was real, she made the whole fandom of TVD have their suspicions about DE.
And even after the “sire bond” was “ broken” again out of nowhere, it still felt so wrong for me, I mean that big speech Elena made in 4x23 I watched trying to make myself feel something, trying to feel that spark they had but it was GONE, JP took what so amazing about them and crushed it into little pieces, don’t get me I was pleased because I finally “got” what I “wanted” for so long but not really, it felt so much less than any DE scene in S1,S2,and S3.
Season 5 came, and I swore to myself not to watch it but it’s was harder than I thought, and I watched the first episode, it wasn’t that bad, but nonetheless I wanted to stop watching it, but my tumblr dash is full of DE S5, and the more I scroll down my dash the more I’m happy I left this horrible show. I mean really after all the CRAP we went through, that’s all what we get ONE good episode for DE and that’s it, because don’t fool yourselves ever since S5 E2, it’s all been about SE, I mean Elena wouldn’t leave the college to find out more about her dad but she left it to find dick seriously???? She went to check on her ex but not her BF really??? She had to think of her ex to stop a compilation REALLY?
From what I have seen from my tumblr dash, S5 DE is all about trying to connives themselves and everyone else that want to be together, Elena in every episode has to reassure Damon that she loves him, and Damon is reassuring her that he understands and he’s “secure” about them. Wow is this really what you all been waiting, hoping, and dreaming about for 4 YEARS?? A relationship that is barley working with both couple having to reassure the other that they still want and love each other. Where they feel the need to say “my girl” and “my boyfriend” just to show to the world that they are oh so great together. I mean what the hell with the whole blaming their relationship for what happened to dick or bonnie, because both events had NOTHING to do them at all yet Elena felt as if she did something wrong by being with Damon, WHAT THE HELL IS THAT??? Because A)when horrible things happened while she was dick she NEVER once blamed him, or blamed their relationship for it and it was THE CAUSE OF ALL THE HORRIBLE THINGS that happened, yet somehow it’s Damon’s fault and here’s because they are together. WTF is that??
I thought this season was about how Elena is happy with Damon, but all we got is how badly she misses dick, how wrong she feels to be with Damon, and she feels about dick moving on without her, I mean the only nice moment we ever had since S5 was 3x06 when they were cuddling in the coach, but guess what that moment was still ruined because in the end of the day she still feel jealous about dick moving on . this made realize that no matter what happens Elena will always want and love dick more than she will ever want or love Damon, it also made realize that I HATE the BITCH and she doesn’t deserve Damon at all.
I mean when I started deleting everything about TVD, the hardest thing was leaving dalaric, not delena, because that’s a true friend (no I don’t ship them as a couple) but what it means to have someone who truly loves and understand you, who stick’s by you even after you killed them for the second time, he doesn’t give up on you even after you “lash out” who accepts every part of you the good and the bad, this also reminded of rose and how she loved Damon for exactly what/who he is, and never left him because he “lashed out”.
Thank god I’m letting go of this show, it’s not easy believe me but it’s the right choice for me. It’s not only because JP screwed up DE since 3X19, it’s also because the show is recycling actors & actress and most importantly recycling story lines over and over again, I mean come on really another doppelganger , wow how original , I also heard that Katherine still has feelings for one of the Salvatore boys, oh I wonder how that could be either way it will not be surprising at all
I’m so sorry to ranted like that but I feel so much better, and that’s out my chest I feel so much lighter. Most importantly I’m so very very sorry If I made you like them less, or if my words were too harsh but I needed to get this out there, to stop carrying it around inside of me, and I feel so much better. Again thanks for being a great family for 4 years I love you all and wish u luck watching the train wreak of a show- xoxo
P.s: please accept my apology.
