tell me if you want me to finish this story! thx 4 reading!

"Monica" I heard my mom say "we are going to be late." So I looked up at the white clock my mom had hanging in the hallway and yelled "i'm coming." Nick my yonger brother was yelling "come on sis I don't wanna be late again Mrs.Wilson already said if i am late again I get to go see Mrs.Hall the principle." So I sreamed back "maybe a trip to the principles office will do you some good." And I ran down the steps into the white and yellow kitchen and told my mom "come on lets go"

when you feel like giving up like no one cares like no one feels the way you do theres a reson for that every ones difrent no ones the same poeple feel difrent about things so never give up never let you'rself die never cry just because you can't go on go on anyway never be afride of whats around the coner because when you give up you let yourself die and you'll never see whats around the coner if you give up you'll never win if you giveup why not die and save yourself from all the weakness of giving up when you feel like giving up DON'T!!!

I ask myself if what i'm feeling is real I ask if there is a word for this pain and anger and hate I ask myself is there a word for all the love and hope and faith I ask and I wonder I guess and I long for the anser I ask my self would it be easyer to stay away from the pain or would it be easyer to feel the holes with all the love and I hope that my anser one day will come I look and search untell I can not anymore and that is when I give up and I found my anser not to try that when that anser is ready to come it will and that no one may force it to so I ask myself to be willing to wait.

My chest feels so tight, i think i'm going to burst. I don't think I've ever been this angry in mt life. UHHHHHH! I just hate how I start to cry when I'm mad.
How come I can't just let it out?
I don't need an answer, I already know! I'm so afraid of people not liking me, even when I don't like tham, that I just can't be me!
I HATE myself!!
NO, I know I shouldn't hate myself; I should hate my mother, I just can't be what she wants. And I can't tell her she doesn't hear me, even when I try. But I really cant stand her. She has no idea who I am an she never will.
But after everything I've been through, I know that I don't love my mother it's the farthist from it!
It's hate!
I Know hate is such a strong word but It's true and I can't ever forgiv her for what shes done to me!
I just want her gone!!!!

Distant Hearts <3

I knew this love wouldn't last,
Even with our bright past,
We still had that distance between us,
For our mistakes; Are broken hearts,

Our hands were joined but our hearts fell apart,
As we were cursed with distant hearts,
And now, We part,

As the clock re-winds,
I picture our hands entwined,
As i go back in time,
I remember how your love was so kind,
and made me feel so alive,

Tears roll down my painted eyes,
As i wish for my demise,
Without you, Life is a suicide,

Your face reflects in the mirror,
Your expression becomes dim,
And in your eyes,
Sparkles of sadness shimmer,

Between us is there still love?
Is there more that we are yet to discover?
Will you still be my lover?
Will we get to be together?

True love is what we were,
But the distance was our curse,
As i sing this verse,
I wonder if you'll be back...
and.. If.. You'll Reverse..This..Curse!




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Battered, bruised and broken,
Inside i am empty,
Hearts are too fragile,
And only last a short while,

Inside nothing is alive,
Only the remains of my torn heart,
Inside me there is only sorrow,
As i weep in hope for a better tomorrow,

My last drops of happiness bleed away,
And now nothing is the same,
My heart bleeds for you,
As i know, your love for me was true,

As my soul is possesed by darkness,
My reasons to live dissapear,
Without you everything has come to an end,
Your love has become to strong for me to forget,

The sound of your voice,
Makes me miss you rather than rejoice,
Your memory has become the death of me,
Can we still revive what we used to be?

My whole world comes crashing down around me,
The dawn of darkness is here,
Without you nothing is clear,
Without you i am counfused and can only weep,

Save me as i scream,
Take away my fear,
Wash away the darkness,
And free me from its grip,

Restore who i used to be

my poem ' Voices' was bout a bit.. disturbing for some ;D so. i wrote this a couple of days ago :D its less 'mental' focused :D

A Tragic Loss; A Silent Cry

In your delicate eyes,
I see the sorrow that pains you,
Behind your gentle smile,
I see the sorrow that you hide,
On your face the tears stay silent,
But when your alone, they scream out in pain,
Your body seems tame,
But alone you are shaken,
Your happiness drained,
i can feel the sadness dwelling inside of you,
i only wish i could free you,
i only wish i could save you from your demise,
But you've seen too many lies,
Many, You have come to despise,
I reach out to you,
but you only push me away,
your cries keep me awake,
The sound of your screaming;
The sound of your strained voices crying out into the distant night,
Maybe your screams weren't loud enough,
Because nobody heard you.



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hope you like it
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Voices

The voices,
they speak to me,
The voices,
they control me,
The voices,
they've taken over me,

The voices,
they tell me to hurt,
The voices,
they tell me to burn,
The voices,
they tell me its their turn,

The voices,
They want me to kill,
The voices,
they want me to do this against my will,
The voices,
they're deeds they want me to fulfill,

The voices,
they are unstoppable,
The voices,
they are to powerful,
The voices,
they are trying to ruin what is beautiful,

The voices,
they drive me insane,
The voices,
they are more evil than they claim,
The voices,
they plan to shed blood as they reign,

The voices,
they plan a massacre,
The voices,
they are ready for sure,
The voices,
they will kill who they lure,

The voices,
they tell me it is time,
The voices,
they told me to die,
The voices,
they're telling me to suicide






No im not crazy ;D
i just wrote this out of boredom.
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HOPE YOU LIKE IT (-:
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Tears
falling down
my face
pain tearing
apart
my stomch
emotions
pouring out
shadows
covering my
ray of
light
death
drawing me
in
a smile
covering my frown
as I think
as I let
my mind wander
as I
discover
possibilitys
a ray of light
made the knife gleam
made it closer
my quivering hand
touched the sharp
blade
my smile
grew wider
my hands stopped
shaking
my body stopped trembling
the blade
pierced my skin
I touched my neck
feeling the blood
satin
was sucking out
my sole
he persuaded
me
he tempted
me
he lied to
me
he cheated
me
my breathing stopped
my heart stopped
beating
my fear was gone
my soul was gone
my life was gone
satin lossened
his grip
and sent me
to burn in hell for
eternity
alone
yet my real suffering
was over

a poem that I wrote hope you like it. I want feed back



















Why is there so much pain
Why wont it go away
Why cant we live
Why cant we smile
Why is there so much pain

Why is there so much pain
why wont it go away
Why cant tears stop falling
why cant people stop stalling
why is there so much pain

why is there so much pain
why wont it go away
why cant life win
Why cant we be one
why is there so much pain

Why is there so much pain
why wont it go away
why cant serial killers vanish
why cant disese disapear
why is there so much pain

why is there so much pain
why wont it go away
why cant death disinagrate
why cant it stop
why is there so much pain
why

As the day begain
I relized that today would be diffrent
harder because when I remembered you I remembered The pain the hurt and
the Intensity of you'r voice I rememberd why I was bleeding inside and evey time
i'd think you'r name there would be a new wound inside me each time someone would
say you'r name I could feel myself die. But I see that you are over me like the
slit of life and how each pain of life would die evenchaly Now i'm over you So
now you'r pain can start and as I see that you are weak defenless each day will become harder and harder and you will feel the pain you gave to me.

Me: Just for random knowledge this poem Isn't about me actually its about how people feel after there first break ups.

My tears fall down my cheeks,
landing in the palm of my hand.
I stare up at the bright blue sky,
I feel as though its mocking me,
Saying everyone else gets happiness
except me.
My mind is in a black abyss of despair,
my personal sun has left me.
Leaving me blinded,
But i do remember what I saw,
which makes it all the harder.
The shadows have wrapped around everything,
leaving me stumbling around blind.
Hope has left me,
giving me no chance to gain it back.
Saddness has replaced my happiness
What chance is there that I will feel joy again.
Where is my chance God?
What about me?

Because of you

The pain I feel was put here because of you.
The hope I had left is gone because of you.
Every time I hear you'r name I seem to cry inside because of you.
The tears that seem to fall as I lay there trying to sleep came because of you.
The darkness that surrounds my world was put there because of you.
The dreams that you crushed stell hurt because of you.
When I seem to think of you all this hate and pain comes out because of you.
Sometimes I seem to ask my self why did you pick me to hurt to wound to crush it's all because of you.
It's because of you that I can show others and not hurt them as you did to me it's because of you.