people have said it again and again forever: what would i do without you? it's beyond cliche but we know how true it is for us. what would we do without each other, in fact? i really don't know. anytime i think about it, i only come up with bad and with us being worse off than we were in the beginning. separating us would literally be separating souls. that's the worst thing god or one of his creature's could do, and i don't mean to sound overdramatic but i'm trying to think of worse and other than what we could do to ourselves which is falling out or dying lol, that's hands down the worst thing. we're each other's homes and therefore lifelines. if we didn't have each other, our souls would be homeless. in fact, no one could really acheive seperating us completely because i know that even in death, we would be attached. so what could life possibly do?
you and me, we've encountered some nasty bitches and fake friends and everything in between. and we've encountered them together. i think i could go through losing a friend, cancer, a horrible mental illness or physical illness, i think i could go through anything you could name, anything you could possibly think of with you. as long as i had you by my side, i'd be okay because you are my okay.
i just noticed my nails were ruined lol, greaaaatttt. anyway. why do i mention the most unimportant things? i swear i'd be lost without you. who would i bitch to, ramble to, laugh with, be sappy with? literally no one. no one could fill your shoes or take your place, so it's honestly a ridiculous insecurity to have. you're my you. no one could give me you but y o u. i am convinced that we are one in a hundred million. our unique souls, mine with it's brazenness, recklessness, my lies and my beating heart that feels too heavy in my chest, my poetic soul from a millennia ago and you with your honesty, your brilliant way of thinking through everything and feeling g everything, the beauty you place on the world, how you define "too much", how life manifests itself inside you at the oddest of times -- us, we don't exist. especially not together. aries and cancers aren't usually pinned together anyway, for they clash too much. but we don't. we balance every aspect; when you give a little, i give a lot; when you feel too little, i feel too much; when i think too little, you think enough. it is perfect. it is truly yin and yang.
so this day, more than most days i am thankful for you. i'll give you all my 8:14s of my entire lifetime if you could feel how i love you and how i need you in my life. take my words right now, for they're all i have but i think they're enough for you. we feel each other's souls and hearts in every word we pen, and i hope you feel mine beating, bloody, bruised and working for you.
i owe you my life and my reason for living. thank you so much.
happy birthday to my most favorite person in the entire world. thank you trusting your heart with me and for your soul. i will treasure it however long as our infinity allows.
