I miss you, I miss you. I miss you so much I hate myself for it. I remember the memories of when I was crazy in love with you. My memories keep looking for you but find that you're not here with me anymore.

[i]I miss you, I miss you. I miss you so much I hate myself for it. I remember the memories of when I was crazy in love with you. My memories keep looking for you but find that you're not here with me anymore.[/i[

The next day, after eating breakfast, you and Randy go to the beach together. It's kinda empty cuz it's early in the morning. You and Randy just wore regular clothes to the beach...

Chapter 12: Take My Breath Away

Landon walked around the park and he remembered times that his mom and him walked around here.

Landon knew one day he'll walk around the park with Britney.

Landon walked back to the hospital.

Jamie was holding Britney.

Cynthia was in the room too with a cup of coffee.

Landon kissed his mom's cheek and then he kissed Jamie.

"Where did you go?" asked Jamie

"I took a walk," said Landon

"So did you call your boss?" asked Cynthia

"Three days off" said Landon

"Good" said Jamie

"I can't wait to spend time with my little girl" said Landon

Landon was holding Britney.

At 3:54...

Chapter 9: Breathe

Landon was running through the halls to see his father.

Landon didn't stop and he made it in the room, and there was Jamie holding to Worth's hand.

Landon looked at Jamie and Jamie's eyes are tearful.

"He's strong," said Jamie

"I know he is," said Landon

The peacemaker was going up and down.

Jamie looked at it and then she stands up and looked at Landon.

She kissed Landon.

"When he wakes you talk to him kay" said Jamie

"Kay" said Landon

Jamie left,

Landon stayed in the room and he looked at his father.

Landon pulled up a chair next to his father side.

Landon was just looking at him...

I lie awake driving myself crazy thinking of you. I made a mistake when I let you go. I drive myself crazy, wanting you the way that I do.

You've still been avoiding Randy as much as possible, yet yearning for him more as days pass by. It's been a month since you and Randy haven't said a single word to each other.

**Randy's POV**

I'm such a mess! Look at me! Tossing and turning in my bed. It's been 5 hours since I've tried to go to sleep. **gets up and goes to the living room, watching TV** Ugh all these stupid soap operas. Isn't there anything good on? ...man...I was such a fool. How good was...

After a few weeks pass, you've been getting much sicker. You can feel it and you can see it. Whenever you look in the mirror, you see a pale face, small dark circles, and white lips. Your rosy cheeks have turned to paleness and nothing but paleness. You've been feeling much weaker and you've been sucking at basketball lately. Your coach notices and he talks with you about it.

Coach: So Jamie. How is it?
Jamie: ...you should know coach...I'm losing it.
Coach: What can you do Jamie? You need to rest. You can't play.
Jamie: What? But...but I love playing. I can't just stop.
Coach: Then at least you...

Chapter 11: Baby Boom

Jamie was nine months; Landon was working at a drug store and going to school.

One day Jamie walked to her father 's house.

Jamie knocked on the door and Camilla opened the door.

"Hello Mrs. Carter" said Camilla

"Hello Camilla you look nice today" said Jamie

"Thank you, your dad have been waiting for, please come in," said Camilla

"Thank you" said Jamie entering the house.

Jamie looked around the house some things changed and some things remained the same.

Jamie looked at the kitchen there was Hegbert making soup for lunch.

Jamie moved and she stands there watching her father...

Landon saw his son walking to the car he looked visibly annoyed. A young blonde girl was talking to him she carried a bible her hair in a pony tail she wore jeans and and hoodie. She reminded him of... Jamie. He sighed as his son sat down in the car. Kevin was 15 and spending this week with him and the next with his mom. Anna he had met her in Collage they hadn't worked. ''That Jessie Annoys me sooo much'' he ranted.

''How so?'' Landon asked.

''She so perfect shes so nice, Luke called her a bitch today and she just promised to pray for him''. He stopped to take a breath. ''And that bible God''....

Chapter 14: Love and Happiness

Jamie was getting changed to her black dress. She was putting on a little blush and she was putting on lip gloss. Hegbert comes in.

"Hey Jamie" said Hegbert

"Hey dad" said Jamie

"What's new with you?" asked Hegbert

"Oh nothing, Sunday Landon and I are coming for church, Britney sleeping over a friends house," said Jamie

"Can't wait to see you guys there," said Hegbert

"Okay Britney should be in her room," said Jamie

"Thanks sweetie" said Hegbert

Landon came walking in the house and he saw Britney watching t.v.

Britney run up to Landon and she hugged him.

"Hey Brit how was...

***Randy's POV***

Randy sees you go to the bathroom alone, wanting to wash your face. He held his tears back well, not letting one single drop fall when being with you.

Randy: I'm gonna go out to get some air.

Randy walks out of the hospital and sits on the stairs. His held back tears fall to the ground like a smooth river flowing. He covers his hand to his mouth, trying to not make any noises. The images of you crying your heart out, shouting that you wanted to live, comes to his mind...

***your POV***

You see Randy sitting there, moving his shoulders up and down as if he were crying.

Jamie: Randy....

Heaven
It had been 3 hours from the Jamie and Landon wedding. She was so beautiful in that dress. Landon looked breathlessly as she came down the aisle. She smiled at Landon and never wanted to be without him ever again.
"I somberly swear to take Jamie Elizabeth Sullivan to be my lawfully wedding wife" Landon said. "I somberly swear to take Landon Rollins Carter to be my lawfully wedding husband" Jamie said. "I pronounce you husband and wife" Hegbert said.
After the wedding
They had a big reception with so many people. The cake was huge. All Landon's friends were there. Jamie was happy that she...

Randy goes in your room when the doctor said it was ok. He sees you sleeping and he can smell the bleach from cleaning up your blood. He grabs a chair and sits next to you. He holds your hand and feels it cold. He warms them up for you by breathing on them. Randy starts tearing up again and his tear drops fall on your hand. He quickly wipes them off your hand...

You wake up to see Randy asleep on the chair next to your bed. You look around and you realize your in a hospital. You can't remember anything that happened to you before except the dizziness you felt back at Randy's house. You smile...

I love you, I only need you. Everytime I look at you, my words change. It feels like the sun is shining down on me, giving me the warm feeling that you are my one and only last love.

The whole day, you and Randy hang out together with his brothers and Angie. You guys just all hang and chill together wherevers..

**at night**

You tuck in Angie again and you hear a knock on your door. It's Randy again.

Jamie: *smile* Oh it's you again.
Randy: *smile* Can I?
Jamie: Sure.

Randy plops onto your bed and gets under your covers. You follow right after and you kiss him lightly.

Jamie: Ugh tomorrow's school.
Randy:...

****

Winter vacation is finally over and you guys all go back to school...

Shawn: Hey Taylor. You think we can talk?
Randy: Uh sure.

Shawn and Randy go to the back of the school and they just stand there...

Shawn: Ok. I wanna be truthful and I wanna be as simple as possible too. You should let go of Jamie.
Randy: ...*kinda laughs* What?
Shawn: You should let go of Jamie. I mean you haven't even broke it with Lauren.
Randy: Oh...I totally forgot about her.
Shawn: See. Your just playing them.
Randy: Shawn, buddy, I know you like Jamie a lot but she's mine. I like her and she likes me. Lauren is just...unrequited...

Is my love really that bad? Everyone is happy when they're in love, but I'm here crying. Why am I hurting so much? I would leave anything for this love to happen...

You and Lauren head to the back of the school and she gives you a dirty look. You get a bad feeling and she pushes you and says:

Lauren: Are you a f**ing whore?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: First you like him, then you break up with him, and now you're with him again?! Are you trying to play him?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: Are you?!
Jamie: The only reason I left him was because of you. You said you were suicidal...
Lauren: Randy Taylor is mine! Got it?!...

In the middle of the night again, you wake up feeling a sharp twisting pain in your stomach. You twitch and you quickly yet gently move Randy's hands off your waist. You leave the couch and you run to the bathroom and you head to the toilet. You just start throwing up and throwing up into the toilet, closing your eyes but feeling the acidic burn in your throat. When your done throwing up, you look and you see blood in the toilet.

Jamie: Oh god...

**next morning**

You go back to your bed and you plop onto the bed, not being able to fall asleep. You look up at the ceiling, just staring into the...

Randy: Y-yah sure. Come in.

Randy lets Shawn in the house and Brad sees him. Brad's face turns to >:0 and he says:

Brad: I'm glad your here Shawn cuz now I need to give you what you deserve.

Brad is about to punch Shawn but his dad sees this and shouts:

Tim: Hey hey hey!! What the hell is wrong with you Brad?
Brad: Dad...you don't even know what he did to Jamie.
Tim: What did he do huh?
Shawn: I tried to rape her sir.
Tim: I'm sorry I didn't catch that.
Shawn: I tried to rape her...sir.
Tim: ...you know what how DARE you try to pull something like that to a poor, sick girl and-

While saying that, the...

Even though you might never be by my side again, I will never forget you. You won't understand how happy I was with you. When those memories come by me, I will be thankful.

Randy: I want to Jamie really...but I can't let you. I don't wanna get hurt by you again.
Jamie: ...
Randy: And besides...what about Shawn? And what about Lauren? You always cared for them more than you did for me or for you.
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry Jamie...
Jamie: Then at least drop me off at my house. That's the least you could do...right?
Randy: Of course.

You grab Angie and you sit in the back seat of Randy's car with Angie...

Jamie: H-huh?
Randy: I like you Jamie. Not just as a friend but more than that.
Jamie: ...I...
Randy: I know your going through a really tough time. I mean your grandma just died, you just broke up with your boyfriend, and...and your health.
Jamie: ...what?
Randy: I know...about your leukemia.
Jamie: ...
Randy: But Jamie...I want to help you. I don't want you to go through this alone.
Jamie: Randy...I want you to leave.
Randy: Wh-what?
Jamie: I want you to leave.
Randy: B-but-
Jamie: Randy...*tears* leave...
Randy: ...

Randy gets up and walks out your door. You hear him get in his car but something pulls...

Why won't you understand my heart? Even if it's not me, can't it just be me? I've never had this want for anyone before. Can't it be me? Can't it be me in this life time, or can it be me in the next life time? Even if you promised today is the end, I won't be afraid...

Randy parks in your driveway next to Shawn's car and you see Shawn squatting down at your porch. He sees you and Randy and you get out of the car with Randy. You quickly get Angie and you walk next to Randy, in case Shawn might do something to him. Shawn walks up to you and he starts yelling.

Shawn: Where the hell were you?!?!?...

**October**

So a whole month passed by and you and the whole group have gotten closer, esp. Randy. You and Shawn have started to barely hang out outside of school and you spend the rest of your time either studying, sleeping, eating, or hanging out with both Angie and Randy.

**Friday**

Randy: So what do you wanna do this weekend Jamie?
Jamie: Um I don't know. My grandma wants me to go to church with her but I'm not all that spiritual.
Randy: Oh. Well what days you going?
Jamie: Saturday night and Sunday for a regular service.
Randy: Oh. Well we can hang out at your church then so you won't be bored....